#pilotdiary

You.

My pain in the ass, my headache,my nuisance

at the end of the day, it's you.

You're my joy, my blessing, my angel.

From the first moment I entered your life, I saw past the facade & just saw you 

the real you, that is.

& The only thing I wanted to do from that point on is show you that you're worth it.

True feelings, emotions, happiness

& I wanted to be the one to provide it for as long as I was allowed to.

From the day we sat outside  & talked about dating & what not, I don't think you knew but, I was half listening ...

My mind was multitasking.

Taking in all your words,while the other half was envisioning what you'd might look like when you got older,the kind of parent you'd be..

you know, just in case we'd ever get far.

But that was the day I could really see myself with you & that you were worth opening my heart to. 

I haven't done that in a while & frankly that whole set up freaks me the fuck out & I usually try to hide that part of me..

but something inside of me whispered "he's worth the chance" & I just went with it.

& That was it, poof there we were, all cuffed up at parties, PDA all over the place,arriving  places together, leaving together, taking pictures all the time, all that.

Everyone knew who I was to you & vice versa.

 I felt like it was my job to take on all your problems & troubles to protect & enforce that beautiful smile of yours. I don't want you to ever experience anymore hurt, & I could handle it all. I'm too used to it.

As long as you're happy that's all that matters to me.

Then as every couple does, we came across our own rough patch.

Our constant ups & downs, one day we're fighting for our love & the next we're fighting each other. But every time we'd seem to overcome each one.

It'd always confuse me too. lol I'd come all out of character, get a lil jealous & just trip.

But no matter what crazy shit I'd say out of my mouth, you'd still stay.

Even when I told you I saw you with this better person & you simply told me 

"I don't see it, nor do I want to; the perfect girl that you imagine I'd see in her,bring it out of you." Bet I cried like a baby.

I'm so used to being pushed away, left,  & having them find true love after me.

But you always stayed. The things I'd bitch about you even fixed.

You're growing up,maturing, & being the man that I saw in you all along,that man for me.

& It's not going to be easy, hell neither one of us is perfect.. but as long as we're in this together, we're invincible.

Though I say I love you, that's when I realized, I'm falling for you.

When I though our growth was stunted, & it was all over, I opened my eyes & saw we're still going, still moving forward

together.

& I don't want to stop.

Besides, what's a pilot without her highh anyways?