#personalissues

I have come to a curious realization about wearing more than a tank top and undies to bed. I sleep hot. I use to sleep in my bday suit. While I was doing the menopausal hot flash thing all the time, I wore leggings. Then I changed again to wearing the least to stay cool most days & seasons. This fall I'm finally able to layer my wardrobe, again and I've been lazy and going to bed with legging still on and have been sleeping cooler. I know that's bringing the days smutz into our bed. But anyway last night I slept in skimpy things and was too hot. I really hadn't felt I was having hot flashing still. .. I'm going to need more leggings, pj ones and out and about ones. .. .. .. .. #menopause #personalissues #hotflashes https://www.instagram.com/p/CWSEMX6MbdM/?utm_medium=tumblr

This was obscenely long for a daily post but its the first one and I had a lot to get out. They won't often be this long...I hope. I have a crazy messy past that id love to talk about or answer questions about. #daddyissues bahhaaha.

Bpd and self confidence part 2 "reassurance" Because of my low self esteem I'm prone to believe all important people will eventually abandon me and vanish from my life, even without any such premise that could lead to it. I require constant assurances to remind that I am not alone or I immediately begin to believe otherwise. It can be exhausting, overwhelming and incomprehensible to those close to me as any and all efforts to convince me that I am not nor will I be abandoned can be lost in wind with even the tiniest trigger or by simply me going through past events in my life. Despite my frantic need to be acknowledged and feel loved, I rarely actively seek out reassurance which can also make it harder for those close to me as I split and push them away or retreat to seek validation and attention elsewhere whenever something triggers my excess fear of abandonment - that is when I won't turn suicidal.. I don't wanna portray myself as a hapless victim when I myself am clearly at fault or plain obviously just overreacting. However, I'd still wish that this aspe t would be seen not as manipulative or being demanding but with more understanding, the core reason behind this issue is my lack of self confidence - not the lack of empathy. I do feel bad when I act out hurtfully towards those I care a lot about. The problem is and should not be yours to fix, it's all on me, but as condemning has reverse effect on my self confidence it will slow down my healing process. Thanks for reading (this turned out way more personal than initially intended but all other ways to explain this issue felt lacking) #ranting #personalissues #bpd #bpdproblems #bpdawareness #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorderawareness #lowselfesteem #recovering #imgettingthere https://www.instagram.com/p/BqRpoeVHhFY/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1w1vy8dlxln1r

I've had a lot on my mind just this morning about my #health and #personalissues man #Labruja is tired mentally but I'm not going to sweat it cause I understand my #Karma and the energy I put out into the #world. My #manifestations and #blessungs are already on the way So I will forever be ok and forever the #goodvibesbruja #blessedbe #energymagic #Crystals #sage #smudging #conjuring #manifesting #magikisreal https://www.instagram.com/p/BqGQNASgGXb/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1cf0pq4w29jr9

In my feelings and I’m toxic and I’m on my shit #dayone #personalissues @vitani_atmlivewire @freejack1300 an ASAP grab

#blogged “Ich habe meine mutigen Momente in denen ich über meinen Schatten springe und mich ins Abenteuer stürzte aber gleichzeitig habe ich auch Momente in denen ich mich das nicht traue, ich am liebsten die Decke über den Kopf ziehe und einfach nicht mutig bin” 🌇 Gestern Abend ist einer der persönlichsten Beiträge auf dem Blog online gegangen! Alle die auf die Geschichte über die Party von meinem Nachbarn gewartet haben, sollten dort vorbeischauen! Link in der BIO 📱Schönen Montag euch! 📸 @mcleali #personalissues #selfloveclub #selfloveblogger _______________________ #menswearblogger #blogger_de #blogger_at #blogging #travelblogger #globetrotter #hamburg #travelblogger_de #fashionblogger_de #germany #outfitdaily #köllefornia #bloggerlife #stylemen #vscocam #traveller #berlin #inspiration #ootdmagazine #urbanstyle #styleformen #streetstyle #inspodreamers #gayblogger #diewocheaufinstagram #manoftoday @ootdmen @mensfashion @men_stylefashion (at Nuremberg)