#passingftm

Note: I'm gonna recommend going for a decently masculine look, please don't shout at me that "not all trans guys n e eeeeeEEE Ddd to be masculine!!!!" I know that, but you can't Expect to pass if you're wearing makeup or colorful shirts. (Sorry, I'm a truscum and that automatically makes me mean UwU)

Clothes

Buying shirts a size larger than you'd normally wear helps a lot; especially if you can't bind. Another thing that's really good is wearing patterned button ups since they can hide ur chest. (Only thing I wouldn't recommend is flannels (especially plaid ones) since a Lot of girls wear them, so strangers might assume that you're a girl)

Wear darker colors; it really works for some reason.

Sweatpants are great. I'm not talking about those yoga pants that hug ur hips n stuff; those really suck. I'm talking about those ones that have the elastic band slightly above your hips, loose fabric, then have the elastic again at your ankles. gOOD STUFF; MMMMMM

When it comes to jeans I'd say the looser or straight leg-ish they are the better.

Pullover hoodies are a lifesaver bc they hide your curves and also make your shoulders look bigger.

This one's weird, but don't wear colorful/patterned socks. People just associate it with girls n crap

Hair

Obviously you should go for shorter hair, and I'd suggest going pretty short on the sides and keeping a longer fringe-y bit that you can mess with and style all you want. You don't NEED to do this though, sometimes trans guys can still look masculine with medium-length hair (especially if you're on T)

Don't just immediately shave your hair off; not everyone looks masculine with it.

I'd avoid dying it crazy colors since it's viewed as an incredibly feminine thing.

As for facial hair, shaving your peach fuzz consistently is a good idea since when you shave hair it grows back thicker.

Mannerisms

Try n talk at a lower tone, which you can do by talking from your chest (where you can feel the vibrations of your vocal chords in ur chest). Don't force it too much or else you'll sound like you're trying to do a Cr1tikal impression: it doesn't sound natural.

Don't talk fast or as much; those are both quite feminine things

Put your hands in your pockets or keep your hands busy when you aren't doing anything; it's a random thing I've observed with dudes

DO NOT talk with your hands!! This is probably hypocritical with me, Mr. Fuckin Limp Wrist, but it's S O feminine and not a lot of dudes really do it.

This one's kinda weird, but when you're in public you should hold the door for people. It's a thing that people view as really masculine, and it's also just a nice thing to do. And I like being nice, goddammit.

Try n get some male friends, since when you're in public with a group of all girls people will just assume that you're a girl too (friend groups with like 4 girls and 1 guy aren't seen often)

Caught off guard.  I was just caught off guard when I was picking up my prescription earlier today. As I stood across the counter from the pharmacist face to face, he began letting me know my prescription is listed as a “Category X drug” and that the precautionary statement that comes along with is that this particular drug should not be taken if pregnant. Thank you for that confirmation that I don’t pass all the way. I mean, I know I don’t and it usually doesn’t bother me this much but this time was pretty uncomfortable. I can’t even find the words right now to describe the physical, emotional, and social discomfort I felt the entire time I stood there talking to him, the time he took to go to the back to have someone else authorize that I acknowledged the statement or whatever he had to go do “to get this box checked off”, until I walked away from the counter and his face. I don’t want to do that ever again. From now on, my prescription will be delivered straight to my house. No exceptions.

I want to feel like myself. Today when I didn’t “pass” I just felt this sinking feeling that just makes me feel heavy and I don’t know... I want to say impatient but that doesn’t seem to fully describe this feeling. it’s pretty shitty.

On a lighter, happier note- I did my first self injection tonight! I was pretty nervous and shaking, but it went so well. I didn’t think it hurt, I held/isolated my quad with my right hand and did the injection with my left. It was just a little scary because I didn’t want to accidentally move, haha. The only part that was really weird was the popping feeling of going through your own muscle tissue... that distinct pop of the needle going through the dense tissue, it just feels so much different than doing an IM injection on another animal. It was a disgusting feeling. But it might just be me and my weird inability to handle certain sounds, textures or feelings, haha. 

Had such an awesome first day! I put my preferred name on my employee forms previously so everyone was calling me Sam the moment I got there!!! I got she’d alot but i have no pronoun preference currently so meh :)