#partied

I can’t fathom how many times I have tried to show you who I truly was and you never believed me. I was the girl everybody knew and you couldn’t handle that. I was the girl everybody loved because I was myself and genuine but you couldn’t handle that. I remember when you laughed at me when I told you I was wholesome. The times you would ask me “Would you date you?” . And when I would say yes, you would laugh at my response. I tried to convince you that I was not just that “mixxy” person. You couldn’t accept that I was both an extrovert and introvert. So, I couldn’t accept it. I️ started altering who I really was. At one point, I was ashamed of who I was. I wasn’t up to your standards even after all the efforts. I️ wasn’t me. People loved me and accepted all my flaws but you would pin point them. But you weren’t the ideal guy I wanted. You partied, you drank, you went out etc but, I was willing to accept all of you. Your good, your bad and your ugly. Hence the word “willing”. I lost myself in the process. I’m not me. But I realized that I had to remove you out my life. I value her more than you because she’s stuck with me forever. Now, it’s gonna take time for me for her to trust me again. I might have to take her out on a few dates or go to the spa but, I’ll do it because she loves me more than you’ll ever know.