suprise saturday post

it was halloween themed ok everyone was in costume, i wasnt just a furry for no reason ok? ok??

i went to my first rave on saturday. that shit was littt

like not gonna lie it was actually so so much fun. like i get it. i get the hype. ive always wanted to go to a rave. we were tearring shit up till 4 am then i had to drive back 2 hours. and i had work the next day. it was awesome.

it was in some like random warehouse, struggled to even find how to get inside.

also, WE WENT UP ON STAGE. LIKE OMG?? first rave and they already got me up on the stage 😭😭 just before the lady came up to us i was literally just thinking like, what if we went up on stage that would be so cool. and then this lady comes up and asks us if we wanna go on stage, and we're like, UH, YEAH. and so we go backstage and we get up there and we are just up there the ENTIRE night like omg it was amazing. fuck the pit give me the STAGE.

literally was so awesome. so so cool

also, coke culture is REAL. some guy kept asking if we wanted some of his hardcore shit. bro had cocaine and ecstasy 😭 i guess we seemed like we were well seasoned pros at this or something cause omg. like do we look like snow bunnies idk, but then again maybe. i feel like i always manage to catch on really quick and end up blending in and seeming like i know what im doing wherever i go. i just got that ravewolf in me.

also my lighter was getting passed aROUND. like i always bring it cause i know someone is gonna ask for a light, and i can be like, yeah i got one. and be all chill or whatevah

also got so many compliments and stuff that night. like omg it was so awesome.

also after posting about this, turns to find out so many friends/ just people i know are actual rave rats?? like wdym welcome to the club 😭 what do you mean you were just getting turnt this last weekend?? like what is this double life you guys have all been living???? and why has it taken this long for one of my friends to actually invite me to go with them. like ive BEEN ASKING but nooone wants to bring me. yall dont know what i got. yall have not seen me in the pits. they dont know how crazy i get. what do you mean youve been to raves before but youre already tired? girl no we arent leaving, go sit down, but i still have so much energy and im gonna dance the whole night.

and i did.

for ONE NIGHT, nothing else mattered, nothing else existed. im in a real rough spot right now but if i can make time for literally everything else i need to do (and DO get done) then i can make time for this. this way i wont kill myself yk

and also, ok, guys. i cant lie. lowkey, its kinda chill to have a tail. I KNOW ok, but like, those furries, theyre onto something. like while im dancing around and shit and my tail was just like wagging behind me, tell me why did i lowkey feel some type of way...

like im not a furry or anything, but like, doesnt everyone kinda like having a tail and ears and fur on every so often? i mean i was only a wolf cause its all i had at the moment in terms of costume. i think i know what im gonna be for halloween now, but its still a work in prog. also dont ask why i just have a tail and fur and wolf ears on stat like that. i have, other hobbies, ok?

Baby, bitte sag mir auch, dass du mich brauchst, ich brauch’ einen Sinn.

Sag mir, wo du wartest und ich lauf’, sag nur wohin.

Aber bitte sag mir auch, dass du mich brauchst, ich brauch’ einen Sinn.

Also Baby, hol mich ab, wenn du das hörst.

Ich hab’ schon wieder viel zu viel in meinem Kopf, ja, ich bin tu-urnt.

Wenn ich weiss, dass ich dich hab‘, dann geht schon alles irgendwie und ohne dich bin ich nur lost in der wo-orld.“