#pan fandom

Note: Hey, so i kind of skipped through this really quickly, using aspects of the actual ouat story line. Therefore, I apologise in advance if it’s poorly written or doesn’t make sense, because it was way too long so i had to cut loads of bits out :3

The group continued with their mission to save Henry and now Emilia, but having to make another stop to find a way off of the island was making you agitated and each passing second you were growing more concerned for the safety of your child. Within a hidden cave where Baelfire used to dwell, you found the map that would guide you off of the island. Finally able to continue your search, you head to Pans camp, preparing yourself to fight or even kill anyone who may get in your way of saving your daughter. Regina managed to take a lost boys heart to contact Henry. You were able to let him know not to give up and that you were all there to save him. You found out he was unaware of Emilia being on the island, meaning Pan hadn't taken her to the camp. 

After a few more days you finally find Pans camp, except it is desolate. Enraged, you throw a rock into the trees "hello is someone there?" 

You recognised that voice. Wendy. Just as you were about to become fueled with rage, Neil runs over to the girl locked up in the cage "Wendy I can't believe it's you. What are you doing here?" Not wanting to blow your cover, you take control of your anger and move to the outskirts of the camp. 

Whilst Wendy is explaining why she is there you keep lookout for any lost boys, but your attention is instantly brought back to what Wendy is saying. "Pan told Henry that he needs his heart to save magic, but it's a lie. He needs it to save himself. Pans dying." Even after everything Pan had put you through, you still became flooded with regret and sadness after hearing about his fate. But you knew you that you couldn’t let him sacrifice Henry for himself. 

The group then makes there way to Skull Rock where Pan is keeping Henry hostage. As you stealthily work your way forward you begin to hear voices and listen into the conversation between Henry and Pan. He was tricking Henry into giving him his heart. You watch in confusion as Henry pulls out his own heart and offers it to Pan. "Henry no!" Emma rushes into the cave, trying to stop Henry from making the wrong decision, but you know more than anyone that Pan has a way to get you to do what he wants, because Peter Pan never fails. Henry forces his heart into Pan, instantly resurrecting the magic from Neverland and making Pan immortal. 

You watch as Pan evaporates into thin air, and decide to separate from the group and track Pans movements- your only focus being on saving Emilia. After a short while, you realise where he is heading, which could also be the place where he is keeping her hidden- His thinking tree. You search through the area before climbing up the tree branches, trying to remain as silent as possible, wanting to sneak up on Pan. "If you want to get the upper hand, you'll have to be quieter than that" You startle at the sound of his voice and swallow down your fear before entering his tree house. He spins around and smirks, his eyes glinting with amusement "although I have to say I'm impressed! No ones ever made it this far" 

You fling yourself at him, holding your dagger against his throat "where is my daughter?!" 

He smiles "you've got fire, I like fire." 

You become tired of his games and loosen your grip on him "Please Peter just give her back to me" you accidentally let his name slip from your lips and hope that he doesn't notice.

"Peter? I didn't realise we were on a first name basis, but even so, I don't think she wants to go with you." 

"What are you talking about? Of course she does!" You move back from Pan, waiting for him to explain what he means. 

"I wouldn't be so sure. You see, she's lost, which means she belongs here." 

"How do you know that?" "Because she can hear the sound of my Pan flute."

 You stumble back against the wall, not wanting to believe that your daughter already felt lost at such a young age. Pan watches you intently "So why do you think she feels lost?" You knew he didn't really want to know the answer, he just enjoyed watching other people suffer. This causes you to become angry and your emotions become so overwhelming you finally snap. You rip the mask off of your face, revealing your true identity to Pan "Maybe it's because she has had to grow up without her father!" You watch as he takes a step back, a look of disbelief plastered on his face. 

"Y/N is it really you?" He takes a step towards you and in return you raise your dagger, warning him to keep his distance. "Is that girl my child?" 

"Deep green eyes and dark blonde hair? Nope I'd say she's Hooks" unaware of what else to do you resort to sarcasm, which causes Peter to glare at you. 

"Don't you dare mock me!" He threatens, his eyes shifting back to an emotionless glare.

"I'll do whatever I please, now give me my daughter back!" The harsh tone in your voice startles Pan and you notice him shake himself back to reality before clicking his finger. Emilia appeared in his arms, unharmed, but not yet safe. You watch as Pan looks down at her. Not wanting to make any sudden movements to startle him, you slowly edge forward and place your hands over his. Signalling for him to hand her over to you. The sudden connection sends a spark through both of your body's and your stomach instantly begins to flutter. You meet his eyes before looking away, you cheeks blushing a soft shade of red. He loosens his grip on Emilia and reluctantly hands her over to you. 

"How could you take her away from me? How could you not even tell me that she existed?" The questions Pan asked instantly reverts your emotions back to anger. You place Emilia on the bed, not wanting her to get in the middle of your argument.

"Because I didn't want her to grow up in this place! With a father that won't love her... can't love her." Pan edges forward, a pained expression on his face. "I can love her! I loved you!" 

You scoff at this. "You don't know how to love, I learnt that the hard way." 

Pans face softens, "Y/N what are you talking about?" His act was starting to piss you off 

"Oh don't act innocent! I saw you with her. I saw you kissing Wendy!" Pans eyes widen, you see the realisation of what had happened spread across his face. "I was so stupid to think you could've changed for me" You head over to the bed to take Emilia and leave Neverland for good, not wanting to listen to any of Pans excuses. But before you could get there Pan was standing in front of you, he takes a hold of your hands and forces you to look in his eyes, a haunting sadness visible deep within them. 

"Y/N I would never do anything to hurt you! Wendy tricked me, she wanted to get revenge for taking Baelfire and she knew the only way to do that was by taking the only thing I love" you could see in his eyes he was pleading for you to understand. 

"But you chose to go along with her, you could've easily stopped her from kissing you!" 

Pan places a hand on your cheek "No Y/N I couldn't, she used squid ink to immobilise me, I had no power to push her off, I promise you I would never hurt you. I love you" You try to take in what he was saying, searching deep within his soul to whether he was telling the truth or not. And you knew by the way he was looking into you eyes, that he was truly being honest. 

Pan moves towards you and pulls you into a loving embrace "I've missed you so much Y/N" he places a kiss on your forehead and you return his gesture by wrapping your arms around his waist. 

Hesitant at first you look up into his eyes, before coming to the decision that you had forgiven him and that you wanted him back in your life, as well as Emilia's "I missed you too". 

He smiles slightly, a tear threatening to spill from the corner of his eye. He brings his face next to yours and whispers into your ear, his closeness sending shivers down your spine "Can I meet her?" he asks nervously, his voice shaking slightly. 

"Of course!" you take peter's hand and pull him over to the bed where Emilia was sat. You take a seat next to her and a sharp pain surges through your side. You ignore it and continue with the scene that was soon to unfold before you. Pan crouches in front of the bed, facing Emilia. He looks back and forth between you and Emilia, unsure of what to do. 

You laugh at his strange behaviour, you had never before seen Peter look so distressed or nervous "Em, this is Peter Pan." You take in a deep breathe, unsure of the outcome or whether she will even understand. You sigh knowing this moment was inevitable and that she had a right to know. "He is your father". Emilia looks at you for a moment before facing Pan and climbing into his lap, resting her head on his shoulder. Your heart melts at the sight and you look up to see Peter with tears streaming down his face. You both smile at each other, filled with immense happiness that you could finally be a family. 

However, the heart warming scene in front of you was the last thing you saw before your head began to spin, the pain in your side now excruciating. You fell to the floor, no longer able to battle through the pain, as your mind drifts off into a dark abyss. The last thing you hear before your body shuts down is the cries from your daughter and the distraught words of Peter “No Y/N! I’ve just got you back, I can’t lose you now!”

Timeskip 

 It has been three whole years since you fled from Neverland and started your new life within a small town called "Storybrooke". When you arrived, you were taken in by Snow White and Prince Charming and since then had become apart of their family. Along with Emilia, your daughter. They knew that you had escaped from Neverland, but you decided to keep the fact that Pan is Emilia's father a secret. 

One that you swore never to reveal to anyone. 

 Henry had also become special to you, he was like the brother you never had. He reminded you of a lost boy, which helped you feel at home within Storybrooke. You did everything together, whether it was fighting off evil or helping you take care of Emilia, he was there for you and he meant the world to you. And that is why, when you had heard he had been kidnapped by Pan and remained a hostage in Neverland, you knew you had no choice but to go back the the place you had tried so hard to escape from. 

When you arrive back in Neverland, you can sense a change within the air. The island had become overpowered with dark magic. David stands in front of you, bringing your focus back to the main mission "Y/N you know this island better than any of us, where do you expect Pan is hiding Henry?" 

"Knowing Pan, Henry will be at the camp. It's his way of showing off his power, letting you know he doesn't have to hide, because as they say, Peter Pan always wins." You begin to delve into the forest, leading the way to Pans camp. After a while Emilia begins to cry, so you all take a break as David passes her back to you. 

 "Why did you have to bring her? I knew she'd slow us all down!" Regina begins to pace. Although what she said was hurtful, you understood her desperation to get Henry back. 

You walk away from the group with Emilia to let them discuss their plans and get some rest, without having to listen to her crying. "Shh, it's okay, mommas got you" you bounce her up and down until she finally settles and falls asleep. You begin to make your way back to the group, but automatically stop in your tracks at the sound of a familiar voice. 

 "Oh did I forget to introduce myself? I'm Peter, Peter Pan" You crouch down, remaining hidden behind the trees. You try to calm your breathing and your heart beat, scared that you would give away your position. You peer through the branches, wanting to catch a glimpse of Pans face. He looked so different compared to the last time you saw him. His eyes were even more piercing and cruel. There were dark circles cast around them, giving the impression that he hadn't slept in days. 

"You may want that, but I can't let you do that to the baby?!" Those words continue to play around in your mind. 

 "What baby?" You question her.

 "Oh, you didn't know? You're pregnant." 

Your hand automatically flies up to your stomach protectively "how can you be sure?" 

 "I've been watching over you." You are unable to believe her words, you are no longer so easily trusting thanks to Peters betrayal. She notices you are hesitant and continues to make you believe what she is saying is true "So tell me when was your last period? And Haven't you been sick these past few mornings?" The realisation of what she was saying makes you inhale a deep breathe and you finally accept the fact that you really could be pregnant. You stay in the cave for a few more days, having Tinkerbell fetch you food and water, determined to keep your baby alive. She has become a real friend and a trusted allie, with your best interests at heart- not at all like Wendy. You snarl at the thought of her. The one who has brought your family apart. "But of course it's not entirely her fault" you think to yourself "Pan went along with her. He is also to blame. And so am I. Clearly I wasn't enough" A tear escapes the corner of your eye and makes it way down your cheek. 

 "Forget about him Y/N" you are startled by Tinkerbells sudden presence. 

"I have." You lie to her and to yourself, deep down knowing you still love him.

"You're using magic to do what?!" You are taken aback by her plan, it was nothing what you had expected. 

"To turn you into a mermaid! They can travel through different lands. All you have to do is wear this magic bracelet, step into the water and you'll become a mermaid" 

 "But what about the baby?" You inquire. 

"It'll be fine I promise. And so will you. This is what you wanted remember? But also, it isn't too late to change your mind. This is your home after all!" 

You look out of the cave, over to the island where Pan and his lost boys lived "Not anymore." You place the bracelet on your wrist and turn to Tinkerbell to say your goodbyes. She is sobbing silently, making tears form in your own eyes, threatening to spill, but you know you must remain strong. Not just for you, but for your child. You take her into a firm hug and promise to repay her for her kindness, in this life or the next. You step out into the water and feel the magic pulsating through your body, morphing your legs into a tail and soon enough you are able to breathe under the water. 

 Without a second glance at Neverland, afraid you wouldn't be able to leave, you dive deep into the murky water. Suddenly the dark void beneath you turns into a portal hole, allowing you to enter into a different realm. 

A range of emotions pass through you, unable to determine how to feel you walk off in a dream like state back to the camp. You pack up your small collection of clothes and items into a bag, leaving your favourite shell necklace, which Peter had made for you on your pillow, letting him know that it was over and that he wouldn't be able to talk himself out of this. As you walk away from the camp you ignore the calls and shouts from the lost boys and run into the forest, not caring about which direction you are heading in. After what seemed like hours of running you clutch onto a tree branch and struggle to get air in your lungs. You sink to the ground and begin to puke, causing the tears that had been threatening in the corners of your eyes to fall, streaming down your face. You lean against the tree trunk for a while, allowing your emotions to take over. After the tears had stopped falling from your eyes, you stumble to your feet and continue to delve deeper into the forest, knowing Pan will soon come after you, as it is getting dark and Neverland is never safe to travel around alone in the dark. You make your way towards the sea front and search for the paddle boat hidden within the rocks. You use up your remaining strength to drag it into the water and set sail towards skull island. You wanted to get away from Pan, you needed to gather your thoughts and figure out what to do now he had betrayed you. You begin to tremble as you near the island. You are terrified of the place and Pan knows it, meaning it is the only place within or around the island in which you can hide from him. "He's probably enjoying this" you think to yourself "he loves his games" you snarl the words, surprising yourself at how malicious you can sound. 

 You have been hiding within the caves for two days now with no food or water, you are surely to die in here... all alone. Once again you wake up and are sick. After a while you are left retching, with nothing left in your stomach to throw up. You lay on the cold hard ground and wait for death to take you, not wanting to stay in Neverland (Pans island) any longer. You open your eyes, your head spinning from malnourishment and can just about make out the outline of a person, perched in the corner of the cave, watching you. When your eyes finally adjust, you see it is Tinkerbell, the fairy who lives alone in Neverland, who is always on the run from Pan and his lost boys. "What do you want?" You question "just leave me alone.”

She stands up and makes her way over to you "and what? Leave you to starve and die?!" 

 "That seems like the best option right now" you glare at her, hoping she would get the hint and leave you alone.