#p92

The ache to return to a time long gone was almost worse than fear.

Rebellion is as much of a cage as obedience is. They both mean living in reaction to someone else’s way instead of forging your own. Freedom is not being for or against an ideal, but creating your own existence from scratch.

We wanted to be children without children, which was the way to remain children forever and thus to blame our parents for everything.

[...], daarom rapporteerde ik over je zoals je was en zoals ik bij zieke dieren deed: kapotte vleugels, mank evenwicht, afgezwakte vlieglust.