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"BaĹkasÄą deÄmiĹ tenine bu konu aĹtÄą benide..."
Benden baĹka
Bir baĹka
BambaĹka
Tutunamayanlar'da; "kollarÄąmÄą açĹp tĂźm insanlÄąÄÄą kucaklÄąyorum." diyen OÄuz Atay, tehlikeli oyunlarda ; "bĂźtĂźn dĂźnyayÄą kucaklamak isterken, neredeyse bu dĂźnyanÄąn altÄąnda eziliyordum" diyerek umudunu kesmiĹti insanlardan. Bu hayatÄąn en yorucu vazgeçiĹidir.
Onsra
(v.) to love for the last time; a bittersweet feeling of knowing that a love won't last

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it is YOUR TURN to drop some oc lore 𤲠please
đ§ââď¸đ§ââ the turns have tabled
OKAY SO THE OCS OF THE NIGHT ARE MARCIELLE THE VAMPIRE AND HIS NON BOYFRIEND TOBIAS BUT ONLY THE HAPPY THINGS
tobias calls marcielle marci and mars but marcielle only calls tobias his full name
tobias could eat 50 pounds of strawberries and still not be satisfied
marcielle used to drink blood out of a vase while dramatically draping himself over the rails of his stairs and now he's lucky if he even gets dressed to find some
both of them are whores except tobias is the mind is willing but the flesh is weak kind
after they slept w/ eachother marci stayed up for hours just staring at tobias with full heart eyes and only fell asleep cause he was exhausted
the way marcielle finds out he's falling for tobias is because he gave him his coat when it was cold outside and tobias laughed cause it was cold since marci produces no body head and marci got made fun of for trying to be a romcom protag
tobias drinks paint water at least 5 times a week
                           Onsra
âThe bittersweet feeling that occurs in those who know their love wonât lastâ
Y/N knows that her death is inevitable, the same way she knows rain is coming by the smell of petrichor in the air. Sheâs become immune to the fear of dying, and has come to despise the endless cycles of treatment, remission, and joy, just for everything to repeat again. So instead she wants to live her last few months doing things she wonât get to do soon.Â
Seungcheol is a story teller, a romantic, a dreamer. When these two lives intertwine the universe in not ready for the cataclysmic bend of wills for these two. Can Seungcheol convince Y/N that life, though painful and terrifying, is worth living?
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Onsra- Chapter 35: Kiss It Better
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pairing: vampire!jungkook x female reader (also vamp!tae x ga-in oc & vamp!jimin x yuri oc)
genre: E2L, romance, drama, angst, horror
warnings for this chapter: a little blood, panic attacks, some self hatred ;-; characters have a hard time with selflove, maybe I failed this chapter maybe not we donât know.Â
word count: 8.9k
Onsra: ML, Previous
I genuinely don't know how I feel about this one but, here it is ;-;
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I told you she would be sweet.
Jungkook takes a deep breath, letting it out through his nose as he sucks your blood slowly. His mind is covered in nothing but darkness. All he can feel is anger and an insatiable hunger as he sinks his teeth further into your neck and sucks harder.
Everything is a fog, none of his memories are clear; all he can feel is a need for blood. Your blood.
See what youâve been missing out on?
âKookie, you broke your promiseâŚyou said youâd never hurt meâŚâ
Jungkook opens his eyes at those words. With his mind starting to clear, he pulls away slowly. He blinks in confusion, then as you start sliding down the wall, the realization of what he just did hits him. Jungkook grabs you as you fall, his stomach lurching, âY/n? Whatââ
The sound of the door opening echoes in the hall, but Jungkook doesnât even notice it as his mind reels in a blind panic about what he just did to you.
âJungkookâŚwhat did you do?â
He doesnât answer.
Seokjin steps closer carefully, noticing the blood dripping slowly from the small wound in your neck. Jinâs heart is racing as he tries to assess the situation; your head is lolled to the side and your eyes are closed as Jungkook slides to the ground with you, holding your body gently.
âY/n?â Jungkook whispers tearfully, not believing what heâs seeing and more so, that he did it to you. He doesnât remember anything; he doesnât know what happened to make him turn on the one person he loves the most in this world.
When Jin is a few steps away, Jungkook looks up at him, horror swimming in the youngestâs gaze. âItâs okay, Kook. Just stay calm.â Jin crouches down to the ground to be closer as he reaches out to touch Jungkookâs arm.
The young vampire flinches away. âI- I d-didnât-âŚI didnât m-mean t-to.â His voice is shaking uncontrollably as he looks back down at your unconscious state. In the next second, as Jin tries to touch him again and say something, Jungkook is on his feet and bolting out the front door, shoving passed everyone just coming inside.
âKook!â Jimin calls after him, but his call goes unanswered.
Jinâs attention is on you now, though. He feels for a pulse, breathing a sigh of relief when he feels a faint pounding through your wrist. âSheâs still here. Tae! Please help me.â
The tall blonde hurries over after getting over his initial shock, scooping you up in his arms easily and carrying you to the couch, laying you down gently. Ga-In is right behind him, brushing your sweaty hair out of your face and caressing your cheeks, âY/n? Can you hear me?â She wipes her tears and continues to gently pat your face when you donât make any indication of hearing her words.
âMove, move, move.â Jin pushes past everyone gathered in the archway of the living room, grimacing at the pain in his side as he hurries to your side once again.
âFuck.â He mumbles quietly, then heâs yelling for someone to get a cold rag and his first aid kit.
âIs she dying? Is she going to turn?â Ga-In is frantically wiping her tears, watching as Jin places the cold rag that Namjoon grabbed for him on your burning forehead.
âI donât know, Ga-In.â Jinâs voice wavers as he reluctantly tells her the truth. Because he has no idea whatâs going to happen to you. In all the times heâs seen a person be bitten, they turned, or they died.
No one notices Namjoon watching worriedly from the back before turning and leaving the house, making his way towards the woods.
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By the time Hoseok has gotten Honey upstairs and away from the chaos, and Jimin has practically dragged Yuri out of the living room at Jinâs insistence for everyone but Ga-In and Tae to leave and give him space, you still havenât regained consciousness. Jin keeps rewetting the rag to cool it down, then he places it on your forehead until it inevitably heats up and needs to be cooled again. Heâs already cleaned and bandaged the wound on your neck, now all they can do is wait.
After a little while, Sooyoung comes into the room and walks over to Tae, wanting to tell him something. Taehyung moves to a side of the living room with her and Sooyoung whispers softly, âIâm not sure of anything, but I know itâs possible for her to be okay. She might not turn, and I donât think sheâs going to die at this point.â Tae furrows his brows in confusion.
âWhat do you mean? How do you know this?â He whispers back.
Sooyoung shifts awkwardly before pulling up the long sleeve of her shirt and showing him two puncture wounds on her wrist. Then, she pulls her long hair from her shoulder to uncover her neck, revealing two more puncture wounds. She wrings her hands, obviously not comfortable with talking about this.
âThe vampires that captured me drank my blood a few times. They always made sure I knew that the only reason they kept me alive and from changing was for their fun. If they killed or changed me, their sport would be over.â Sooyoung looks back over at you, worry creasing her brow.
âThey never took a lot of my blood, so I canât be sure if Jungkook drank too much of y/nâs or if sheâs going to change. But I thought I should let you know.â She finishes and tugs lightly at the cuffs of her sleeves in an almost anxious tick.
Taehyungâs heart soars at the knowledge that you really might be alright, as small a chance as it is considering you arenât awake yet, and they arenât sure how long Jungkook had you before they came in.
But itâs still a chance.
He thanks Sooyoung quietly and she gives a small nod before leaving the room. Then Tae walks over to relay the news to Ga-In and Jin.
Both are relieved that there is some hope, but no one can relax yet.
An hour passes, and no one has heard from Jungkook. Everyone is aware now that Namjoon is gone too, but no one has any idea where heâs gone to. Jin, Tae, and Ga-In all stay glued to your side, willing you to wake up and let them know youâre okay.
Taehyung paces the room while Ga-In sits on the floor by the couch with her head in her hands, unmoving. Seokjin sits in a chair thatâs been placed next to the couch as he stares blankly at the mantel piece where Koko is swimming around in his little bowl, completely unaware of the dire situation.
âWhere did he go?â Tae blurts out, clenched fist covering his mouth.
Seokjin doesnât look away from the mantel as he snaps, âI donât know. But right now, y/n is our priorityâŚNamjoon probably went to find him.â
Tae frowns at that, but he can tell Jin is only being cold because heâs worried. He knows that Jin is probably dwelling on Jungkookâs absence as much as he is, but heâs feeling overwhelmed, and understandably so. Tae glances worriedly at you again, then he does a double take before hurrying over to the couch.
âShe moved!â He breathes in disbelief, catching the attention of Ga-In and Jin, who both jump and turn their attention to you immediately.
Youâre lying still as a rock while they stare at you, waiting with bated breath for you to move again. After a full minute of nothing, Tae sighs. âI saw her move, I swear.â Â
Ga-in brushes a strand of hair off your forehead, then she gasps when your eyelids twitch. âShe did move! Did you see that?â
Jin nods, âI saw it. She might be waking up.â
They all watch you anxiously for another five minutes, expecting you to open your eyes at any second.
But you never do.
Jin curses quietly under his breath and drops his head into his hands.
Then it takes all three of them by surprise when your arm twitches suddenly. Ga-In looks at you hopefully while Tae and Jin watch warily, not sure what to expect.
Your arm twitches again, then your whole body starts to move around almost aimlessly.
âFucking shit.â Seokjin mutters anxiously a split second before you start convulsing. He pins your arms to your side as Tae rewets the towel to cool your flaming skin. Ga-In speaks in hushed tones to keep you calm, but the fear in her eyes is clear.
âWhat do we do?â Ga-In asks tearfully, not sure if she really expects an answer.
Needless to say, she doesnât get one.
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A bright light blinds you, making you squint your eyes in pain. You canât see anything but walls that are so purely white, itâs too painful to look at. The ground underneath you the same color as the walls, and it wobbles unsteadily under you.
The sharp pain in your neck turns to a dull throbbing as you feel your useless legs give out underneath you, and you fall.
Then, everything goes black.
You reach out blindly, trying to touch anything that can give you a sense of where you are, but your hands meet nothing except air.
The panic starts to rise, and you push it down as best as you can. The throbbing in your neck feels like a flame starting from the one spot and spreading across your neck and left shoulder, licking and burning the untouched skin in its path.
You can hear someone crying, but it doesnât sound like anyone you know.
The wails make you sick to your stomach, so you try to plug your ears, but the anguished cries wonât be silenced.
You curl into a ball, pulling your legs up to your chest in an attempt at calming yourself. You clench your eyes shut, whispering nonsense to yourself to drown out the loud voice in your head, whispering in glee.
Welcome to hell.
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Jungkook stumbles through the forest, his mind reeling. He canât process the fact that he hurt you.
You.
He loves you more than heâs ever loved anyone in his entire life.
And he hurt you.
It wonât click.
He promised you. He promised you he would never hurt you ever again, and now heâs done something so horrible that it makes him physically ill. As Jungkook pushes frantically through the branches of trees in his path, images of your unconscious face flash in his vision. The deep red color of the blood dripping down your neck from the wound that he gave you, seeps into his mind.
And you said you loved her.
Ha!
Iâd like to see what she has to say about that when she wakes up.
If she wakes up.
âNo! Sheâs okay.â Jungkook whimpers, finally letting his legs give out as he slumps to the ground. âSheâs going to wake up.â Jungkook doesnât know who heâs trying to convince at this point.
Youâre right, she will wake upâŚ
But she isnât going to be the same.
The horror in Jungkookâs body causes him to shake as he scoots himself backward until his back is against a tree, screaming as he plugs his ears.
âNo! No, no, no! She wonât turn, she wonât turn!!â
Look at youâŚyouâre really a monster now.
Not only did you hurt the girl you claimed to love, but you doomed her to a fate worse than death.
âNO!â Jungkook is grabbing at his hair and tugging on it, after plugging his ears has proven to be futile. He canât breathe. He canât breathe.
Jungkook gasps and grabs at his chest, wishing more than anything that he had died when the vampire first bit him. He wishes he never found you.
A memory of you wiping deer blood from his hands pops into his head suddenly; your gentle touch on his hands as you ever so carefully clean him after knowing he had done something so vile.
Then an image of you resting your head on his shoulder and touching him gently when you were all crammed into the back of the minivan pushes its way to the front of his mind.
You following him around like a lost puppy, even when he was so cruel to you before.
Your eyes shining when you look at him, your cheeks tinted in a little blush when he makes you flustered.
You throwing yourself into his arms and kissing him when he was so sure that you would never trust him again.
âI love you.â
Your voice whispers in his mind, as soft as ever.
Jungkookâs cries are so gut wrenching that he finds himself hunched over and throwing up into a pile of leaves, gagging on his choked breaths.
He slumps forward to the ground when thereâs nothing left in his stomach, his forehead laying on the cool grass as he breathes shakily. Each breath out is a strangled sob, choking him again and again.
Please just let me die.
âJungkook.â
The vampire doesnât move when he hears someone call his name, he just lies there and keeps wishing as hard as he can that none of this ever happened, that he had just died that day when he was bitten.
Namjoon sees the youngest curled in on himself at the base of a tree, coughing and choking tearfully. He walks over slowly, not wanting to startle him. âJungkook.â He says again, but he doesnât get a response.
Namjoon stops right next to Jungkook, then he sits next to the tree and takes Jungkookâs arm. He pulls him- quite easily- into his lap. Jungkook doesnât speak, but he doesnât fight him either. He just lies there and lets Namjoon wrap his arms around him, holding him tightly.
After a few minutes, Jungkook opens his eyes. Namjoon looks down and sees the deep red color covering the youngestâs irises. He would normally be worried that Jungkook is going to go on some violent rampage like he does when this happens, but this time, his heart hurts even worse.
Because Jungkook is calm.
Jungkook must sense Namjoonâs sadness, because he looks up at him and speaks in a choked whisper. âI knowâŚIâm really a vampire now, arenât I?â
Namjoon stays quiet, but thatâs all Jungkook needs to know heâs right. He blinks, a few more tears sliding down his cheeks. âPlease tell me y/n is okay.â
âSheâs alive, but she hasnât woken up yet. At least, not while I was there.â Namjoon says softly.
Jungkook buries his head in his hands, still curled in Namjoonâs lap. Heâs beyond relieved that youâre alive, but nothing is certain about your state other than that. He doesnât know how to process this. It feels like a horrible nightmare, and heâs going to wake up any minute, finding you sitting on his bed and nagging him to get up.
You want him to wake up so you can go and feed Koko, pick flowers, and explore the woods. Youâre kind of afraid of the woods, but when Jungkook is with you, you arenât scared of getting lost. Maybe you two can pack a lunch and have a picnic, like you wanted to do for so long. Or maybe he can teach you how to climb trees better, so you wonât have to be so afraid.
Jungkook hates seeing you so scared all the time. He wishes he could take away your fear and promise you he will always be there to protect you.
âJungkook, will you listen to what I want to say?â
His older brotherâs voice breaks through Jungkookâs cluttered and confused mind, yanking him back to reality as the horrible truth weighs down on his chest. He starts to shake again, reaching his hands up to plug his ears.
Namjoon watches him sadly, his heart aching at the sight of the broken boy in front of him.
Then he reaches over and gently takes his hands off his ears, holding them tightly in his own. Namjoon was never the overly affectionate one, although heâs always cared about his brothers immensely. He was never able to show it much.
Jungkookâs eyes are pinched shut as he tries desperately to conjure up the lie heâs convinced himself of. Youâre okay and youâre trying to wake him up. Youâre okay and youâre trying to wake him up.
âI gotta wake up. I gotta wake up.â Jungkook mutters anxiously, not caring that Namjoon has his hands, just keeping his eyes closed as he repeats the words over and over.
âJungkook, look at meâŚlook at me.â At the tone of Namjoonâs voice, Jungkook opens his eyes and looks at him. âI didnât bite her. I didnât hurt herâŚâ He whispers faintly.
Namjoon purses his lips, trying to gather his thoughts.
âI would never hurt her.â
He looks down at Jungkook, whoâs gaze is unfocused, tears brimming in his deep red eyes as he looks somewhere far away.
âI love herâŚâ
âI know.â Namjoon sighs, brushing the hair out of Jungkookâs face that has gotten sticky with his tears and stuck to him. âListen Jungkook, I think sheâs going to be okayâŚbut wouldnât you like to be there to help her?â
Jungkook nods absentmindedly, and Namjoon knows heâs disassociating himself.
âKook, you need to stay with me. You canât help her if you donât focus.â Namjoonâs voice is strict, but kind. He takes Jungkookâs shoulders and moves him to a sitting position, leaning him against the trunk of the tree.
âYou said it was hopeless.â Jungkook speaks in an almost confused tone, his words breathy and unclear.
âWhat?â Namjoon asks.
âYou said it was hopelessâŚyou said we would never be humans again, hyung. You said that. You said that and you were rightâŚyouâre always right.â
âKook-â
âY/n needs a humanâŚI canât keep hurting her like this. Itâs my fault sheâs hurting, hyung.â Tears have started to brim in his eyes again. âCan you do it for me?â His head lolls to the side as he looks at his older brother.
Namjoon is beyond confused. He has no idea what Jungkook is asking of him. âDo what, Kook?â
âKill meâŚplease.â
Namjoon feels his heart lurch at the words coming from his littlest brotherâs mouth. The youngest doesnât even seem sad about his words, heâs just desperate.
âJust get rid of me, and y/n can be happy again.â
âJungkook-â
âAs long as Iâm here sheâs going to get hurt!!â Jungkook screams, then drops his head back onto the tree, clearly exhausted.
âJungkook listen to me-â
âJust stop, hyung-â
âNo! Now you have to listen to me!â Namjoon raises his voice, his patience finally gone.
Jungkook looks over at him, waiting for him to speak, but knowing he isnât going to change his mind.
âYes, you hurt her Jungkook. But why the fuck would you two be in that position anyway? Because no matter what has happened, she has stayed with you.â
Jungkook blinks back more tears, listening to Namjoon as the older vampire rants, having finally had enough of this.
âYou did something wrong. That doesnât mean you can run away and pretend it didnât happen, though. No matter what you tell yourself, and eventually convince yourself of, y/n is hurt. Nothing is going to change that.â
Jungkook swallows thickly, knowing that Namjoon is right. Heâs been trying to pretend like itâs all a terrible dream, because he canât fathom himself hurting you like that. He still canât believe it. He was so confused and horrified at his own actions, that he left you. After hurting you, he left.
First itâs one tear, then another. Soon, heâs crying softly, choking on his tears. âHyung, I donât know what to do.â Jungkook looks at Namjoon, his blood red eyes reflecting more pain and regret than the other vampire has ever seen.
âYou go back to herâŚand you donât give up.â Namjoon says seriously, not willing to watch his younger brother fade away into nothing.
âHow can I? I fucked up. I donât deserve herâŚshe probably doesnât want anything to do with me.â Jungkookâs breath quickens, the reality of the situation becoming clearer. âWhat do I do if she turns? FuckâŚfuck, I canât.â Jungkook sobs, his body shaking all over again.
âYou get back thereâŚand no matter what happened, youâre going to face the consequences of your actions.â Namjoon puts a hand on his shoulder, making sure he knows heâs there. âY/n has stuck by you through thick and thin, and even now, Iâm sure she is only worried about you. Would you rather leave her forever when she needs you the most?â
Jungkook stares into the forest blankly, his mind battling itself more than it ever has. The darkness looms overhead, threatening to choke out the tiny sliver of light that is left. And it could, in a split second it could take over his mind and leave him as nothing but the empty shell of who he used to be. Heâd be no more than a despicable monster, hiding behind the face of his past self.
He doesnât know why, but something urges him to reach into his pocket. So, he carefully pats them, feeling nothing. Jungkook reaches into his right pocket as Namjoon watches him curiously.
When he pulls out the tiny white flower, smooshed beyond repair, Jungkookâs throat closes. How long had that been in his pocket? He put it there after you had kissed him for the first time. It had fallen out of your hairâŚ
He closes his eyes and breathes deeply.
Iâm going to prove that I care about you. Iâll show you, Jeon Jungkook.
He opens his eyes, the tiny light still flickering in the back of his mind, not willing to be over shadowed.
Not yet.
Jungkook wipes his tears, shaking his head as he stands unsteadily before placing the little white flower back into his pocket. Namjoon sighs quietly in relief, thankful that his stern approach didnât backfire.
Jungkook canât believe how selfish it was for him to run out on you, as terrified as he was. The amount of times he scared you, and you never ran out on him⌠He doesnât want to think about the hurt heâs put you through, but now isnât the time to run away and pretend it didnât happen. Jungkook moves to head back, but Namjoon stops him.
âKook, wait.â
The vampire turns back, a question in his eyes. âWhat?â
âI was wrong.â
Jungkook looks at him in confusion, âWhat do you mean?â
Namjoon has never admitted to being wrong before. He was always the genius among them, and everyone usually took his word for things. But whenever someone would question him when they disagreed, heâd never say he made a mistake.
He wasnât self-centered, but he could be a bit prideful and big-headed at times. Admitting he was wrong about something, is one thing none of them would ever think of hearing come from his mouth.
âI was wrong, when I said it was hopeless.â Namjoon looks away from Jungkook. âI was scaredâŚand I shouldnât have said it. I knew everyone was panicking because we had just turned, and we didnât know what was going on. You all turned to me for answers, for hope that things would be alright. But I didnât give that to you.â
Jungkook swallows, seeing Namjoon stand and still not meet his eyes.
âI always thought I was the brightestâŚI might be smart, but Iâve learned a lot about wisdom, from all of you. Thereâs a difference between them. Thereâs more to life than always being the top and always being perfect, and Iâm sorry I failed to teach you that.â Namjoon wipes away a stray tear, âDonât give up Kook, because thereâs always hope. I see that nowâŚand Iâm sorry.â
Jungkook walks over to Namjoon and wraps his arms around him, startling the older vampire. âItâs okay hyung, youâll turn back. I know you will.â He whispers, making Namjoon tear up again. The older of the two pulls away, wiping his face in embarrassment, âWeâre in this together. Now, letâs get you back to y/n.â
Jungkookâs stomach flips over but he nods, turning to run back to you, and praying that he isnât too late to let you know youâre never alone.
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âTaehyung please get me some more cold water! And grab a glass of water, too!â Seokjin shouts, trying to keep you on the couch as your body writhes around. Ga-In has a hand on each of your arms, doing her best to pin you down without hurting you. âItâs okay, y/n. If you can hear me, just know that youâre alright.â Ga-In says tearfully.
Tae rushes in with the bowl of water and another glass of it. Seokjin has him go into his first aid kit and get some fever medicine.
âHow do we give it to her?â Tae asks, his eyes wide in panic.
Seokjin shakes his head, âI donât know, but she needs something for her fever now. I donât want to give it to her when sheâs like this, sheâll choke. We need to calm her down-â
âSheâs opening her eyes!â Ga-In cries in relief as your body slows down to a twitch, your eyes moving under the lids.
Jin leans over you, putting the cold rag onto your forehead, âY/n? Can you hear me?â
Your eyes flutter open, rolling to the back of your head as they all gasp in horror at the reddish color now covering your irises.
âFuck.â Jin rasps, trying not to panic.
Ga-In starts sobbing uncontrollably while Tae tries his best to keep everyone calm. Then they hear the front door slam open, and footsteps running down the hall.
Jungkook appears in the doorway of the living room just as you start to convulse again. He runs in and stumbles to his knees at your side, grabbing your hands and holding them close to his chest. âHey, hey. Iâm here. Youâre okay, baby.â Jungkook whispers, his voice thick with tears.
âIâm sorry. Iâm so sorry, please donât give up.â Jungkook keeps his composure as best he can but wants nothing more than to crumple and disappear at the sight of seeing you struggle.
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âHey, hey. Iâm here. Youâre okay, baby...please donât give up.â
Jungkook?
âJungkook!â You shout and uncover your ears, sitting up in the darkness. The cold voice keeps taunting with a playful lilt, but you ignore it.
You get to your feet and take off.
Maniacal laughter bounces around you, but you keep running.
Youâre running so fast, that when you slam into a door, you fly backwards and land on your butt, hard. You wince in pain, then quickly get to your feet and try the knob on the door.
Locked.
âHey! Let me in!!â You pound on the door, noticing a tiny little window in it thatâs covered with a black cloth.
The doorknob turns and you cry out in relief, opening the door and moving to get into the room where you can see light streaming from now.
Are you sure you want to do that?
You freeze, turning to see nothing in the inky blackness. The disembodied voice from before floats around you.
If you go in that door, youâre going to be miserable.
Youâre going to be afraid, and for good reason.
You blink a few times, not sure if you should listen or just run while you can.
The world out there is cruel, and full of pain-
Before it gets the chance to finish, you make up your mind and throw yourself into the room, the bright light blinding you as you gasp in a breath of fresh air.
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The sun filters in through the blinds, signaling that morning has come.
No one has moved from their positions. Ga-In is sitting on the floor, her knees pulled up to her chest, her face hiding. Tae sits next to her, doing all he can to stay positive. Jin sits in the chair next to the couch, his head in his hands. And Jungkook is kneeling by the couch, your hands clutched in his, his forehead gently pressing to yours as he whispers to you softly.
âYouâre the strongest person Iâve ever met. You can do this. Youâll be okay.â Jungkook says whatever goes through his head, fully believing that you can hear him.
He leans back to look at you, your eyes closed but fluttering a bit, like they have been all night. Several times through the night, his mind clouded over with darkness and he was tempted to run again, but he stayed put. He is never going to leave you again.
Then, everyone but Jungkook jumps in surprise when you shoot straight up, gasping. Your eyes are wide open, the red completely gone now, your normal color covering your irises, like nothing ever changed.
Ga-In starts screaming, jumping up from the floor and running to wrap you in her arms, holding you tighter than she ever has.
âY/N!! IâM GOING TO KILL YOU, DONâT EVER DO THAT AGAIN!â Sheâs sobbing her eyes out as you pat her on the back, not remembering anything or how you got where you are. The last thing you remember is asking Jungkook if he wanted to catch fireflies with you, and now youâre surrounded as you sit on the couch in confusion. Â
âWhat happened?â You croak, your throat sore as if youâd been screaming for hours. Â
âI bit you.â Jungkook speaks up, taking everyone by surprise with his forwardness. You gently push Ga-In away so you can see Jungkook, kneeling by the couch.
âWhat?â
âLast night, I bit you.â He says again, his eyes never leaving yours.
Jin immediately stands up and takes Tae and Ga-In, gently pulling them out of the room so the two of you can talk.
Your mind is racing, not having a single clue as to what heâs talking about. âW-what do you mean you bit me?â
âI donât know how it happened.â Jungkook swallows thickly, âI suddenly couldnât control myself. Then I left, because I was terrifiedâŚIf it wasnât for Jin hyung and the others, youâd probably be dead right now. Iâm sorry.â
You look down and see Jungkookâs hands trembling. Your heart aches at the sight and you reach out to touch his shaking hands. At this point, you arenât sure which one of you youâre trying to comfort.
Then it all comes rushing back to you.
Jungkook getting angry and pinning you to the wall, then biting you.
Your throat closes as you watch him struggle to contain his tears. âYou came back.â You whisper, making him lift his head.
âWhy did you come back?â
You watch him closely, wanting an honest answer. Jungkook wipes his eyes and takes your hand in his, âIâm sorry I left. Itâs no excuse, but I was so scaredâŚI couldnât believe what Iâd done, I still canât believe it. I donât want anything to do with myself anymore. I donât know what happened to me, but I realized that no matter what, I couldnât leave you. I love you.â
You smile weakly, a small tear slipping down your cheek. âAre you okay, Jungkook?â
âI hurt you, y/n! Itâs a miracle that youâre not dead or turned right now! And youâre wondering if Iâm okay?â Jungkook stutters in disbelief. You frown, other than a small headache and feeling weak, youâre fine.
âIâm okay-â
âStop, y/n. Just let yourself be not okay!â Jungkook cries in frustration. âPlease! Hit me, kick me, do something! Iâm a piece of shit for hurting you, and you just say youâre okay! Please donât push your feelings away anymore.â
Jungkookâs desperate words hit something in you and you finally start to cry. The fear from last night comes out in body wracking sobs as you try to catch your breath.
âI- I was so scared.â You whimper, stuffing your face in your hands, your shoulders shaking from the overwhelming emotions trying to escape you.
You hold your arms out and Jungkook pushes himself into your hold, wrapping his arms around you tightly. He tucks his face into the crook of your neck and rocks you side to side gently. âI know, Iâm so sorry. Iâm so, so sorry.â
You cry into Jungkookâs shoulder for the next ten minutes, then you start to hiccup when your tears slow down. âP-please donât hate yourself, Kookie.â You whisper brokenly. Jungkook bites his lip as you continue.
âIt wasnât you. The second you believe it was you, youâll backtrack even more. I know you would never hurt me, Kookie.â
âI did, though.â He whispers.
âThat wasnât you. My beautiful Kook would never hurt me.â You pull back and smile at him tearfully, wiping his eyes. Jungkook sighs shakily, âY/n, I need you to promise me something.â You keep your eyes on him, listening intently.
âYou need to promise me that if I ever do something like that again, youâll leave. You are worth more than you think you are, and I want you to see that. You donât deserve to be treated horribly, even if you believe you do. Youâre an amazing girl, and I love you. But thatâs why I need you to promise that youâll take care of yourself.â Jungkook says, looking into your eyes desperately, âIf I ever lay a hand on you again, you leave.â
You nod slowly, finally understanding what he means. âOk, I promise.â
âThere are people in this world that will take advantage of your kindness, and you canât let them do that. I donât know whatâs going to happen to me, but I swear if I feel like I might change again, Iâll leave. Youâre worth more than that.â Jungkook presses his forehead to yours, breathing heavily, his mind racing with relief that youâre okay, and that youâve finally promised to not let anyone walk all over you.
You pull away after a second when you realize something.
Something you should have noticed by now.
âJungkookâŚâ
His eyes are a dark red, like when he starts going crazy and blood hungry. But heâs being himselfâŚthat meansâŚ
âŚyouâre too late.
âYouâre going to leave me, arenât you?â You ask quietly, another tear escaping. Jungkook shakes his head, âI wonât leave until I have to. Youâre stuck with me, for now.â He gives you a weak smile, no doubt hiding his fear that heâs almost gone.
âI wanna be stuck with you forever.â You frown, letting him give you a quick kiss on the forehead. You will not cry again. You donât want to upset him even more.
But it hurts so bad.
Jungkook calls the others in to see you, after they had been working their asses off all night to save you, and they hadnât gotten to talk with you yet.
Ga-In wonât let go of you, sitting next to you and holding you in her arms while Tae gushes about how strong you were until Jin has to make the boy sit down and take a deep breath. You thank all of them until youâre out of breath, knowing you have them to thank for you being here.
They let Honey come in, and you pull her into your lap, cuddling her close. She pulls back and moves your hair to see the bandage on your neck. Then, she leans forward and gives it a little kiss, whispering, âI kissed it better.â Your heart melts and you hug her again, not noticing the way Jungkook watches you from the side of the room, a sad smile on his face.
When Jin ushers everyone out so you can get some rest while they whip up some food for you, you find yourself with just Jungkook once again. He has you lie down on the couch and he sits on the couch by your waist, playing with your hair.
Jungkook twirls your hair around his finger and gently brushes it out, trying to help you relax. You watch him sadly, noting the way he avoids your eyes, his own swimming with suppressed pain.
âKookie.â
âMm?â
âPlease look at me?â You ask softly.
Jungkook turns his gaze from your hair up to your eyes, his dark red eyes shining with unfallen tears. âYes?â He swallows the choked sob that almost slips out. You reach up and stroke his cheek with your thumb, âIâm alright, Kook.â
He nods, one little tear slipping out. You brush it away gently, âI hate it when you cry. But if it makes you feel better, please cry all you want.â
A broken sob leaves his throat.
âI canât tell you how sorry I am, there isnât any way for me to show you.â Jungkook cries quietly, his mind bombarding him again and the guilt overwhelming him. âIâm so fucking relieved that youâre okay. I donât know what I wouldâve done if I had lost you.â
âYou didnât lose me. Youâll never lose me, Kook.â You coo and continue to wipe his tears.
âIâm so sorry. I am so, so sorry.â Jungkook leans down and buries his face into your shoulder, letting his tears fall. They tickle your neck as they drip onto it and slide down, hurting your heart even more. You wrap your arms around him and cradle his head, running your fingers through his hair to calm him.
His whimpers eventually fade away as he breathes deeply, inhaling your scent and calming himself. âI love you, KookieâŚyou know that.â He nods at your words, his head still tucked in your neck.
You can feel Jungkookâs body shaking, his emotions on overdrive after almost losing you. âHey.â You tap his head until he lifts his tear-stained face to look at you.
âTell me whatâs going on in your head.â You whisper.
âI donât know how to fix this.â His quiet voice is laced with thick tears and sorrow. You hum and pull him closer so you can kiss him on the forehead, your lips lingering there for a moment before pulling away.
âThere.â You whisper with a smile. âI kissed it better.â
Jungkook finally gives you a small smile, letting your heart lift.
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âI told you youâd turn back.â
Namjoon turns from inspecting himself closely in the mirror to see Jungkook leaning against the bathroom doorway, his arms crossed as he gives his older brother a small smile.
âKook, hi.â Namjoon fidgets a little, guilt creeping into his mind even though he has no idea how heâs turned back into a human.
âYou look good.â Jungkook says, still smiling.
âOh, t-thanks.â Namjoon laughs nervously. âI honestly have no idea what happened. I wasnât feeling well before I went to bed last night. When I woke up, I was like this.â
âWeird.â Jungkook muses, but he has an idea of what might have caused it. âMaybe you should ask Seokjin hyung about it.â
âYeah, thatâs probably a good idea.â
Jungkook nods and moves to leave, but a hand on his arm stops him.
âHey, uh-â
He turns back to Namjoon, âYeah?â
âDonât-âŚthis just-â
âItâs okay, hyung. Iâm happy for you, and I understand.â Jungkook reassures him, then he turns to go back and check on you.
Namjoon watches him go, a sad smile on his face as he contemplates on how to help the youngest.
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âHey you.â Jungkook smiles at you from the entrance to the living room. You look up from your bowl of soup as he walks over to you. A huge smile spreads across your face at the sight of him, and you set your soup down on your lap carefully.
âHey, Kookie.â
The smile on your face and the happy gleam in your eye makes his chest ache. He hates himself for what he did to you, and the fact that you arenât even upset with him makes him hate himself even more.
It all seems like a horrible nightmare. The events of the night before donât feel real to anyone in the house, the only evidence that it even happened is the bandage on your neck; and the sight of it makes Jungkook sick to his stomach, knowing he caused the damage underneath.
So far, you havenât had any problems other than a small headache that went away after Jin gave you some medicine, and some weakness in your arms and legs.
Seokjin, Jungkook, and the girls have all been monitoring you closely the entire day; making sure that youâre eating and that no other symptoms come up. Ga-In, Tae, and Jin all question their sanity a few times after seeing your red eyes last night, then seeing it completely disappear when you woke up, as if nothing ever happened.
Taehyung had told the others what Sooyoung said, and everyone would have taken that as what happened because maybe Jungkook didnât have you that long, but your momentary scarlet eyes make that hard to believe.
None of them told anyone else about them though, figuring that Jungkook would have a panic attack and the others wouldnât know what to make of it anyway. Jin ended up telling you, but you didnât have much to say on it.
All you know, is that you feel fine.
When Ga-In asked if you could hear them when they were talking to you, you told her about the weird vision you had while you were out, and how Jungkook had been the only one you could hear in the darkness.
âHowâs the soup?â Jungkook asks sweetly, sitting on the chair next to the couch. He hasnât had any changes since Namjoon and him spoke last night, the dark cloud hopefully staying clear for now.
âItâs good! I wish you could try it.â You look down at the bowl sadly.
Jungkook reaches over and bops your nose, smiling at you cutely as he laughs, âMore for you.â Your heart clenches seeing his old smile back again. The days before, with his on and off behavior were really starting to weigh on you. Jungkook biting you was something you never imagined happening, but you know he didnât have control over himself.
Heâs trying his best, but itâs consuming him, you can tell.
âWhen can we catch fireflies?â You ask as you spoon another bite of soup into your mouth. Jungkook tries to keep from giggling at how cute you are as he moves a strand of hair out of your face. âThe second you feel better. I promise.â
It turns out that would be the next day.
When you wake up the next morning, you rub your eyes, squinting tiredly at the sun slipping through the curtains. Jungkook is right by your side when you turn your head, sitting in the chair and reading a book. He doesnât notice that youâre awake until you reach over and poke his thigh, making him jump.
Jungkook looks over at you and immediately closes his book, setting it on the ground and scooting closer to you, âGood morning.â He whispers, âHow did you sleep?â
You fight the urge to cover your puffy morning eyes, moving your messy hair out of your face as he helps you to a sitting position. âI slept okay, I forgot I was on the couch.â You giggle sleepily and Jungkookâs eyes light up at the sound.
âI feel really good.â You say before yawning, âI donât feel bad at all, actually.â
Relief swarms Jungkookâs entire body, washing over him in waves. He sighs and pets your head, âIâm glad. Are you hungry?â
âAlways!â You laugh.
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You never knew how much you took sitting down at the table and eating with everyone for granted, until now.
To be with everyone this morning is such a relief, and you feel a lot better just from the sight of you all together.
âWe missed you kiddo, glad youâre okay.â Yoongi ruffles your hair after everyone else greets you with hugs, taking you by surprise with his affectionate gesture. He really is a softie.
You also never knew what good hugs Namjoon gave until today. Heâs a human again, and you canât wait to hear how it happened, when heâs ready to share it. When he hugs you tightly, you instantly feel comforted and safe, bringing a big smile to your face.
Jin makes your favorite breakfast in honor of you recovering.
No one has said anything about what happened, and youâre grateful, but Jungkook still avoids interactions with most of them, apart from you. You know heâs afraid that theyâll look at him differently, but youâre sure they understand that Jungkook would never intentionally hurt you. Itâs going to take Jungkook a while to recover though, probably a lot longer than you.
After breakfast, you insist that you feel well enough to get outside for some fresh air, so you and Jungkook take a walk in the shady part of the forest, stopping every once in a while to pick flowers.
Jungkook never lets go of your hand the entire time, keeping you as close as he can. You wish you could let him know that everything is alright, and you arenât upset with him, and youâre not scared of him either. But he still seems like heâs beating himself up constantly. The way he looks at you like heâs afraid youâll break at any second, makes your heart hurt.
But you donât know how to help him see that itâs okay.
When you get home, Jungkook has you sit on the couch as he pulls out Jinâs first aid kit. âJin hyung said we need to change your bandage today.â He says a little nervously. You nod and give him a smile, âDo you want someone else to do it, Kookie?â You ask just in case.
He shakes his head and takes a deep breath, âItâs fine, I can do it. As long as youâre okay with it?â The hurt deep in his gaze that hasnât left since the other night makes your throat close, but you nod and push your hair out of the way before you can cry.
âIâll be gentle, please tell me if it hurts.â Jungkook says anxiously as he ever so gently removes the bandage. The sight of the two puncture wounds makes him close his eyes and breathe deeply. When he gathers himself, he makes quick work of cleaning the wound and bandaging it up again, only relaxing when heâs done.
âThere you go.â He swallows and moves back to see you grinning.
âThanks, Nurse Kookie!â You giggle.
He canât believe that you donât despise him right now, instead, youâre trying your best to make him feel better, when he should be the one bending over backwards for you.
He smiles at you sadly, âI donât deserve you, y/n.â
You wave your hand in the air and brush off his words, âStop saying nonsense. Most people donât deserve the things they get. But you? You deserve the world, Kookie. Iâm nothing compared to what you deserve-â
Jungkook shuts you up with a quick kiss, âShush, or weâre going to get into an argument about who deserves what.â
âHow about we just say weâre not perfect, but weâre perfect for each other?â You say, poking his cheek before pecking his lips.
Jungkook shakes his head and chuckles, âYouâre lucky I love you, because that was terribly cheesy, and I might just gag.â
âShut up, jerk.â You pull away, pretending to pout.
Jungkook grabs your face, squeezing your cheeks and pulling you close enough to kiss you three times, âIâm sorry.â He pouts at you until you smile again.
The color of his eyes might be proving that itâs getting worse, but the way heâs acting still gives you hope.
Your Jungkook is still in there.
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âI know by now I sound like a broken record-âŚâ Yoongi sighs as he takes a bite of mashed potatoes. âBut I have some news.â
âIs it good or bad?â Jin asks, cutting up Honeyâs meat into bite sized pieces, then handing the plate to Hoseok, who places it in front of the tiny girl sitting beside him. A stack of books is on her adult sized chair and sheâs sitting on them to be able to reach the table. The sight is truly heart melting. Â
âNeutral.â Yoongi states simply.
âAlright, let us have it.â The eldest says confidently, so tired of everything at this point that he doesnât even care anymore.
âRemember we said that we were meeting the Hunters in three weeks before we infiltrated the vampire camp? Well, weâre supposed to meet them next week.â
A silence falls over the room, but you canât tell if itâs an excited silence, or a stressed one. Jin is the first to speak up.
âOk well, thatâs not bad news. Weâll meet with them and figure things out from there.â Jin takes another bite, chewing and swallowing before speaking again, âI know I for one, am ready to be done with this.â Everyone nods, then Sooyoung speaks up quietly.
âSo, umâŚâ Her small voice fades away, then you notice Jin looking at her kindly, nodding for her to continue. âDo you guys, uhâŚknow if the vampires are only here, orâŚ?â
Namjoon answers her immediately, âWe arenât sure if there are more anywhere else in the world, but we do know that there are only a few groups in South Korea. The Hunters have spent months tracking them all, and they told us they estimated about four hundred real vampires in Korea. That isnât counting the people they turn.â
You chew slowly, the food becoming a bit harder to swallow. Four hundred isnât too many, but it isnât a small number either, especially it being an estimate. Jungkookâs hand slips under the table, grasping yours and giving it a quick reassuring squeeze. You send him a smile, your heart aching when he scrunches his nose cutely at you.
After dinner- which had a lot of talk that you didnât understand so you eventually stopped paying attention to- you and Jungkook are in the backyard. Jungkook watches you, your eyes shining as you chase fireflies and try to catch them. âOver there, y/n!â Jungkook calls out to you, pointing to a few fireflies buzzing around lazily.
You hurry over and hold the jar Jin gave you out, trying to snag one. You miss by a long shot, a pout forming on your face as Jungkook chuckles. âItâs okay, love. Come here.â He gestures for you to go to him, so you trudge back, a frown still on your face.
Jungkook cuddles you into his side before laying you both on the ground, then he points up; a few fireflies fly above your heads, and a million stars shine in the dark sky. âOhh.â You look at all the shining lights in awe, your eyes widening considerably. Then you feel a gentle kiss on your cheek, and you turn to see Jungkook smiling at you so wide that his eyes are all squinted up cutely.
âYouâre so beautiful.â He whispers, causing your cheeks to burn and turn crimson. âNo, Iâm not.â You mumble and turn away. Jungkook tuts and takes your chin to pull you to look at him. âStop being so mean to yourself.â
âI canât.â
âWhy?â
âI donât know, itâs just an automatic thing, to not-âŚlike me.â You mutter, not really wanting to get into it right now. You turn back to the sky, and Jungkook can tell the conversation is done. He sighs quietly and brushes his fingers through your hair. âYou still need to read Beauty and the Beast to me, little flower.â Jungkook says in your ear quietly.
A little chill goes down your spine from the proximity, and you nod, a smile coming onto your face again. âShould I start when we go back in?â
âPlease do. Iâm dying for you to read to me.â Jungkook nuzzles his nose into your hair, breathing in your scent. âI could listen to you talk all day.â
âEww, now whoâs being cheesy?â You poke at him while you giggle. Jungkook groans, âGive me a break, Iâm new at this.â
âSo am I!â
You two start giggling like a couple of school kids, then Jungkook sighs and pulls you even closer. âYouâre going to kill me, I think I love you too much.â
âYouâre so dramatic.â You roll your eyes playfully, but inside, your heart and stomach feel like theyâve been swept up by a tornado.
You watch the stars for a little while longer, both of you trying to pick out different constellations and make up your own. When your eyes start to droop from exhaustion, Jungkook holds your smaller hand in his and kisses it gently as you whisper sleepily.
âWeâll be together forever, wonât we Koo?â
He bites his bottom lip hard, almost hard enough to draw blood. He wants nothing more than to be able to fulfill that promise, but he doesnât know if he can. His time is running out, and he doesnât know how to stop itâŚ
But Jungkook nods anyway, brushing his thumb over your knuckles gently.
âForever.â
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a/n: i mean at this point, why do I bother having a 'schedule' ? I hope y'all like this one tho ;-;
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