#old relationship

that I no longer love you

as I used to.

Can old acquaintance be forgot

And become old whispers in time?

Can old acquaintance be forgot

In the bright days of new?

For old times sake,my mate

For all the old times

I'd still offer you a light and drink

You promise me bones and walks to the park

I obey chasing you

Knawing on the bone whining

I’ve been whining for weeks

I went from eating out of your hand

To sloppily licking the scraps of your floor

You put the collar around my bone shoulders

But we do not go to the dog park

At the end of the day

As a child I dated someone who I looked up to as a mother.

She raised me and taught me how a relationship worked.

She taught me that when you are not receiving enough attention you cheat.

That when you are unhappy you abandon your partner.

she taught me that being in a committed relationship means you sleep with other people. 

I grew up these ideals in mind.

So when you say you want me all to yourself please do not be offended by the noises of suffocation coming from my throat. 

Please do not be surprised by the blue face and swollen eyes. 

I am trying desperately to breathe the air of your love.

But the rope of monogamy wrapped around my neck is making it so hard. 

I want to be the girl of your dreams.

The one who sweeps you off your feat in the most beautiful of ways.

The one who holds you so warmly that all the past trauma melts away.

But I’m scared the ice cubes of my fear will prevent me from holding you all together. 

I want you, more than I’ve wanted anything in so long. 

And I’m sorry if my past relationships tint my view.

I’ve spent the last year kissing frogs and trying to convince myself that you’re not my prince

Each date an attempt to paint over mural memories

They fill my wineglass and I fill some kind of void

*verse*

Dreaming of you when I sleep,

I think my heart’s yours to keep,

So heal me with your golden touch

Coz no one else gives me enough

Dreaming of you when I sleep,

I know my heart’s yours to keep

So cross my heart and hope to die

You’re what’s keeping me alive

*chorus*

I’m lying here in distress,

Come to me and we’ll undress

I’ve still got you in my eye

Cross my heart and hope to die

I’ll cross my heart and hope to di-i-i-ie

*verse*

When I see you my heart races,

I’m just missing your embrace

and I could pretend on my own

But I can’t sing the same song

When I see you my heart races,

I’m just missing your embrace

If you call me I’m all yours

I’ll greet you with an open door

*chorus*

I’m lying here in distress,

Come to me and we’ll undress

I’ve still got you in my eye

Cross my heart and hope to die

I’ll cross my heart and hope to di-i-i-ie

*bridge*

-oooh (x4)

Oh When I hear the phone ring

My heart skips, it skips a beat

I would give you everything

You would make my life complete

-oooh

(And I’m telling you)

-oooh

(You’re my dream come true)

*chorus*

I’m lying here to impress

Come to me and just confess

“I still love you” don’t deny

I can see it in your eyes.

I’m lying here in distress

Come to me and we’ll undress

I’ve still got you in my eye

Cross my heart and hope to die