Youāre talking to strangers and acting like youāre more than okay. You smile from ear to ear when you feel the tears approaching. You donāt know how to let it out you so block out the entrance from the inside. You love making people laugh and laughing till your stomach hurts and your eyes water. You keep chasing rainbows. Youāre sitting alone in your head letting the voices talk from your brain directly into your heart. You walk on razors and your feet have no feeling in them, it started from the top of your head and trickled down throughout your body. You canāt feel it anymore you canāt feel anything. You donāt remember what it felt like to feel something so you hold on to the things that make you feel anything. You attach yourself to whatever makes you feel something. Anything. Good or bad. Youāll take any of it because youāre desperate and trying to survive, ease the pain in whatever way you can. You say everything will be alright everything will be alright everything will be alright. If you say it enough it will be okay. If it isnāt okay you can pretend. Everything will be alright. You will be okay.










