#oakfarmer12

Maybe anything could have been my final straw with how long I’ve been uncomfortable and feeling on guard here. I was already filtering a ton to try to make my experience better.

But then two days ago (? I dunno) I had a real life gut punch and really couldn’t handle any triggers.

It’s my job to manage my own shit tho. So I used more drastic tools. Unfollowed 2/3rds of my list. Blocked. Didn’t even work for a whole day. But again, my job to manage my own shit and walking away is the only option I can see at this point.

I admit I hit delete when I was beyond angry. And if people are having fun then I’m glad. So it’s definitely past time for me to leave the party that isn’t fun to me.

I really really hope you start feeling well again, Oakie😒 you're very right, taking care of yourself should be your biggest concern. I am so sorry you weren't having fun here and had to filter a lot of stuff. Please know that I understand and my worries are lessened. Social media is supposed to be fun and as soon as you feel uncomfortable or stressed, it's time to let go, temporarily or permanently.

I hope real life treats you well. I am not just saying this to make you come back or something. You're a genuinely amazing person (not just the adorbs artwork, I mean, I love your art too) and you have made me laugh when I was seriously depressed with your replies and all. I am pretty sure if some bad shit happens to me again, I'll scroll through all of your posts i have reblogged. I really hope you get the happiness you deserve in life and maybe one day I'll be buying your art work for millions? 😊

Write, draw or whatever if you want, but if you ever come back here, don't forget to lemme know too 🙃

And there you go 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗

A coffee sketch for @oakfarmer12 who asked for some Katniss and Peeta, haven’t drawn these guys in a loooong while! :) 

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Hi there! Here’s a lumberjack!Peeta fic:

Take Me Out and Take Me Home - JLaLa

And here are some bearded!Peeta fics:

The Threshing Floor - mejhiren

Fire and Ice - falafel_waffel

An Awakening Touch - alatariel-gildaen

Group Project - eliapolis

The Baker’s Noble Son - IzzySamson

Let Me Fly - FanficAllergy & RoseFyre

The Steward and The Bow-Maiden - Mejhiren 

We will call this place our home - JLaLa

A Softer Place to Land - SoThere

Porchlight - SassyEverlarking

The Bet - amelia_day

I Just Can't Remember Why We Said Goodbye - endlessnightlock                

And thought you needed this raisin bread in your life.

I always need raisin bread in my life 😍 this is a gift thank you love him

look at the scrumptious-ness of this!

Don’t know if you’d remember me, but I was joshoverpizzaoverpeeta back in the day

Le sigh, I miss them too

Oh DUDE- It is so immensely comforting to know that others still get smacked in the FEELS when it comes to them lmao. Like, idk about you, but I’ll be vibing/minding my business, when suddenly something that REMINDS ME OF THEM like a song/theme/whatever comes in and GETS ME LIKE-

Like I’m certainly nowhere NEAR the level of dedicated/lost in the sauce like I was years ago butttttt,,,God, man- SOMETIMES IT JUST HITS HARD OUT OF NOWHERE LMAO.

AND YES omg- I vaguely remembered that url and its association with Joshifer Memes TM. Sure enough, I searched for it on my blog and-

FSDJKLJDKSHDKSDS

Happy New Year, my dear!

6. What’s your favourite piece of dialogue you wrote this year?

I couldn’t pick one out so I asked my husband, who chose this from “I loved you first” (This is a long one):

“I don’t know, Dad,” she said suddenly. “This is easier for Luke. He only knows you as you are now. I remember how you two used to be…all the fighting and crying…sometimes, you were never there for Mom or me.”

Peeta suppressed the hurt he felt over his past actions. It was true; he was not there for his wife. He never thanked Katniss for all those sweet little notes and the dinners she made knowing that he wouldn’t be there to join them. He neglected his children, having missed so many milestones because he was too busy trying to make a name for himself in his family’s company.

He missed Luke’s first steps. He missed Addie’s first day in Kindergarten.

And, Peeta had paid for it dearly when Katniss pushed the divorce papers to him across their dining room table.

“I’ll never stop regretting how much I’ve hurt you both—the two most important women in my life,” he replied. “And I’m never going to stop trying to make it up to you. So, this is my suggestion—you are welcome to call me out whenever you think I’m being an asshole.”

Addie’s jaw dropped. “What?”

“You’re an adult now so I can curse around you,” Peeta told her. “You’re also adult enough to know that parents are people, too. We make mistakes just like every other person because we’re not perfect. Your mother and especially me included.”

Their daughter leaned towards him. “Okay…so you want me to tell you how not to fuck this all up?”

“Exactly,” Peeta replied. “I don’t want to mess up. Because we were lucky with you and Luke. You two could’ve become psychos. I’m not taking any chances with this third one.”

“Well, Luke is still young enough to develop psycho tendencies and I might have some sort of sexual deviance, but that’s neither here nor there.”

Peeta peered at her worriedly. “Do you have a sexual deviance?”

Addie shook her head with a sigh. “No, I think I’m perfectly vanilla on that end—for now.”

10. What, if anything, are you going to try to do differently in your writing in the new year?

I think I’m going to try to work on more in-Panem pieces. This last year was a lot of modern AU’s. Hopefully, I get something done in that area (North Star...).

I was tagged by @saraminia​. Thank you!

Rules: List your 10 favorite female characters, one per fandom, then tag 10 people. (This was fun! And I did my own take on it. In no particular order. Well... maybe the first two.)

1. The one and only Effie Trinket. I’ve practically been married to her and Haymitch for the past 8 years. (The Hunger Games)

2. C.C. Babcock. She’s pretty much Cruella deVill but with a heart of gold. (The Nanny)

3. Jo March, played by Saoirse Ronan who’s quickly becoming one of my favorite actresses. (Little Women)

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