Phantom limb this phantom limb that- mine is literally THE FORCE⦠āwhatās it likeā I. I canāt even explain how weird this is. In my canon, the force was always a part of me and would constantly be there for me. Most of the Jedi explained it as a separate part of themselves, something to call upon, but it was just. Always there for me.
And I feel it from time to time. I remember what it was like and expect it to just be there.
And itās not like reaching out to move something and realizing āawe man, canāt move itā itās reaching through an entire building to sense the amount of people in it or trying to push my emotions out into the space around me to clear my mind and just not being able to
I remember learning to control it, struggling with the intensity of it. It was overwhelming and overstimulating at times. But after learning to work around that, to use it to my advantage, to warp it around my problems instead of letting it become one- I had mastered it.
And then cut to me, now, trying to sense the emotions clearly displayed on a close friendās face and coming up short
In all of my dreams, Iām able to use the force again. Every single one (that I can remember), I can feel itās there and use it- sounds crazy, but I miss it
#NonCanonSkyGuy (MPC, if this tag is a problem on your end, let me know. When I checked, it wasnāt a username- totally fine if it doesnāt work though, #Anakin is always easy to track here! Also ily youāre very cool)