#noncanonskyguy

I’m going to struggle to find the specific post but you said “Feb 3” and I wrote it down and now here I am!

We all love you soooo much- mwah!

(I am spraying silly string at you) 🎉🐈

- #NonCanonSkyGuy

/*sniffs*/ you remembered! I’m so happy ! Thanks, it’s finally the really real anniversary! Happy true anniversary everyone!

Blog Age via http://postlimit.com/bloginfo.php?blog_name=fictionkinfessions (Oldest Post): Mon, 03 Feb 2020 00:57:01 -0500 about 5 years ago

Though if you want to be really technically, the birth of this blog is May 9th, 2015. Personally, I'd prefer not to think too much about how long I've spent in the internet!

ANYWAYS bring on the silly strang and cake!

Every time your asks are posted here, I smile at them like they’re a familiar friend. I know NOTHING about your canon or your source, but you’re such a familiar face(sign off), that I read the asks every time.

Sometimes I don’t read the asks sent here, I’ll skim them and look for anyone from my canon just to see if anyone is around. I try to read most but sometimes I can’t.

But with you- it’s YOU! You’re THE kin, the one I always see and hear about. Your asks are so important to me because seeing you come back, I know you’re out there and you’re living your life as a kin like I am and it’s just- it’s healing. It’s hard to explain, but your asks help me feel like I’m not so alone.

This may sound super weird and I may be like super new here and you never noticed I even posted anything here, but you’re very cool and I appreciate you confessing here and speaking here.

I don’t think I’ve seen any of your side blogs for your kins but I’ll definitely be on the lookout. May inspire me to make my own, which I’ve been thinking about!

I really hope this isn’t super weird or anything agh

- #NonCanonSkyGuy

This cat is literally partying woaw 🎉 🐈 🎈

#NonCanonSkyGuy

(we all love and appreciate this blog so much MWAH)

And I feel it from time to time. I remember what it was like and expect it to just be there.

And it’s not like reaching out to move something and realizing “awe man, can’t move it” it’s reaching through an entire building to sense the amount of people in it or trying to push my emotions out into the space around me to clear my mind and just not being able to

I remember learning to control it, struggling with the intensity of it. It was overwhelming and overstimulating at times. But after learning to work around that, to use it to my advantage, to warp it around my problems instead of letting it become one- I had mastered it.

And then cut to me, now, trying to sense the emotions clearly displayed on a close friend’s face and coming up short

In all of my dreams, I’m able to use the force again. Every single one (that I can remember), I can feel it’s there and use it- sounds crazy, but I miss it

#NonCanonSkyGuy (MPC, if this tag is a problem on your end, let me know. When I checked, it wasn’t a username- totally fine if it doesn’t work though, #Anakin is always easy to track here! Also ily you’re very cool)

Walking around campus with this on will be a test of strength I don’t think I’m willing to face but I’m doing it anyway- I would send a picture but it looks awful and like… probably only one person I meet will know what it is

Thankfully, honestly, I don’t think I can deal with anyone actually speaking to me ^_^”

And the engravings are all important too! It’s got the twin suns, Ahsoka’s head markings, Obi-Wan’s moles, Rex’s helmet symbols, and my right hand.

Sobbing- I’m so happy

- #NonCanonSkyGuy

The anxiety set in IMMEDIATELY. I cannot go to sleep with this on my mind- I’m so worried I mentioned smth weird, like I don’t even remember half the things I said- oh help me this is gonna eat away at me

I think I realized I was fictionkin a few years ago, and ofc it was Anakin, who else. I have so many kins, half of them are concepts or things no one will know- but Anakin continues to remain the highest. And that always sucks to explain to people when they compare me to canon lol-

Anyways- yeah that ask is absolutely destroying me with worry LOL I hope I didn’t do anything to upset you or like- say anything super wrong at any point. Dude I’m so nervous what the hell

hope you’re doing well, and I hope you know I’m going to worry about this for like at least a month

- #NonCanonSkyGuy

I may not have been alive for order 66, but that doesn’t mean I never made a bad decision. The wrong decisions. I can still see all of them, all the beings I killed when I knew there wouldn’t be repercussions.

I can make excuses and say I was filled with hatred and grief and acted out, but I was fully capable of making better choices, and I did in canon. I watched myself make the right choices time and time again.

Vivid imagery of all of the horrors I commit behind the back of the council… while I’m trying to go about my day. Unnecessary and rude!

Like I’m sat here drinking water and boom, Another Atrocity (tm).

Kin mems suck so bad- so bad sometimes.

And then there’s the memory of me choking on sand I accidentally inhaled on Tatooine and the whiplash is- just wild.

“Guess it’s time to grieve this random being I murdered in cold blood who survived an attack.. d… did I trip over a step in Palpatine’s office while half the council was present!?!?? AND THEN PLAY IT OFF??”

#NonCanonSkyGuy

“I’m sorry, but I can’t believe you did [terrible thing from canon], I can’t forgive you” (not anyone here, I had this conversation with an old friend)

That wasn’t me- sobbing

It’s usually about order 66, like. I died before it even happened, I don’t know if it happened at all after I revealed Palpatine’s plans. I never made it to canon Revenge of the Sith, I died before all of that.

I was aware I never lived through the order, but unlocking the memory of my death was a wild confirmation for me, and explaining it over and over again just brings back the memory of my own death. That’s why I’m so desperate to have some reminder I’m not like canon, I lived a different life.

#NonCanonSkyGuy