#noexpectations

Do you ever feel your brain shutting down? And if you do, do you like it? or dislike it?

Me personally I can’t stand it, for i love to keep my brain active, if wires aren’t turning I feel like I no longer matter!.....well wait let me reword that.

Of course I matter, but I feel like my talent is not being used my godly powers not getting the chance to flourish, I feel a sense of disconnection from the rest of the world. I don’t quite know how to talk for I feel no one will be able to fathom what I am trying to voice they grasp parts but never the whole process. But I will give it a go I will Try explain it at length .........okay let’s begin.

Our lives are like cloth, woven from choice and circumstance. Pull even one thread, that cloth is torn and made worthless. To me a simple analogy but to others a complex thought, So what does it take to be a God? Well for me It means making choices that break your heart. My heart longs for a simpler life and perhaps I make it to complicated, but these are thoughts that appear and make me contemplate the kind one cannot have being a God

For at times being a god is not fun I feed my anger and I feed my ignorance turning me against the people I claim to love. Only looking inward can I process my own ideology, I have been humbled. How could I be worthy to accept the mantle of a God? I thought that mastering all of my emotions for control was the end, but then I learned to harness pure Logic, but I learned quickly that logic and emotions are often not intertwined.

Unless you steer with the heart, logic leads to decisions no better than those based on anger and fear, and once again ur emotions are in disarray. I learned to infuse logic with love and in doing so my heart and my mind became one and I had achieved balance.

To my supporters... I truly Love You!!