kinning from a netflix show is so funny. i like my show, but everything is so.. polished and romanticized, they make everything look so fun. i was really just a dirty kid!!i never fully got to piece together full sentences due my trauma, i wasn’t interested in boys (or romance at all for a good chunk of my youth), stuff just.. wasn’t as ‘pretty’ or ‘cool’ looking, it all sucked. everything was either boring or grungy (like in a ‘grime under the kitchen sink’ way, not in a cool punk way) or viscerally terrifying
i miss my friends so much but it was such a bad life, everything was so scary and hard all the time. i think people like to forget just how traumatic living in hawkins was
— eleven













