for some reason missing eddie made me realize i've never felt truly safe in this life like i'm consistently frightened or anxious and can never ever fully relax, it's why i don't drink or smoke or anything like that cuz i'm not safe enough to be vulnerable like that
and now i'm too nervous to look for him cuz what if, when i find him, i just start crying and make it weird? like woah is that my heart clawing its way out of my chest to get to you? huh. can't imagine why it would do that. huh. weird
fully platonic btw.
-dustin (stranger things)
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