I'm convinced I'm losing my mind. In some ways I think I have to be crazy to still want you, to think you would still want me. I can't sleep. I can barely eat. I miss you everywhere. There isn't a place I can go without memories of you. I watch you drive past me like I'm not even there. I know you see me. Some days I swear you drive past just to make me see you. Does it hurt your heart like it does mine? I can't even escape you while I sleep, you haunt my dreams. There is no place where I don't see you or want you. If there is a hell this is it and I am living in it.

Everything I've worked fors results will be brought out tomorrow. I have a gutted feeling that I'm not enough. If I'm to be honest with myself, I'm completely terrified. I don't think I'm ready. 

Does anyone else have any obnoxious parents who insist on lecturing you but then go onto say.."I don't want to lecture you but" Just me? Well would you look at that