#mzsu

mizisua ryusae hrrrgghh 🥹🥹🥹

both luka and sua experience jealousy from different people. sua with her sisters, and luka with heperu and hyunwoo. however, both of these cases are sort of different, which is why they are able to differentiate more. luka craves affection through being more controlling, and sua craves affection but thinks she has to gain it by being passive. why?

luka, from a very young age, taught that if he couldn’t rise to the top, he wouldn’t be worth anything to anyone. if he couldn’t dominate others and have a strive to win, he should die. he should be “grateful” that he was lucky enough to rise above all of his clones. so, of course luka associates love with dominance, because of how heperu abuses him. he wants to feel control over hyuna and his situation, because to him, without it, he’d be worth nothing. ironically, hyuna felt interest towards him because she thought he was someone she could be able to protect.

meanwhile, sua thinks that she has to be passive and submissive to be loved, which is why she is so elusive and quiet around others. when she tries to interact with her sisters that are not hia, she gets pushed away, which to her, means that she cannot be confrontational or else she will be rejected. additionally, with hia projecting onto her, and with nigeh’s obsession with forcing her into femininity, sua thinks that she can only be loved if she’s weak, because that’s all she’s worth. this is what made her relationship with mizi a veil of innocence from everything else, and also why she cannot make friends with others easily.

ironically, this is where their parallels come full circle. because of how they were taught love and how they give love, it hurts those around them, and it fractures their ability to explore their identity more. luka can’t see what he did wrong, because in his eyes, he did exactly what was expected of him to be loved, which is why he shows not a lot of regret about hyunwoo until it slaps him in the face. sua, because of how she was treated, never had faith in herself to be stronger for others, so she chose to die for mizi, because she believed because of her fragility, she was doomed from the beginning.

because of io, till chases after the affection of the idea of a person, due to having fragments of the warm memories left behind. he falls for the facade mizi puts up as a defense mechanism, and in turn, it makes their relationship strained. meanwhile, io and ivan both show versions of themselves to till, both of which fail to fully reflect their true emotions. while io chooses to indulge in till’s singing, even though she knows and fears for the future that will likely come, ivan chooses to try running away with till, despite knowing he’d be leaving everything behind. while i do think that till chose to stay partially for mizi, i also believe that because of his separation anxiety, he internally felt that following happiness like that was impossible, and that like the warmth of his provider, the warmth of ivan would be stripped away from him too.

hia was definitely made in the idea that she was supposed to represent two sides of a coin. on one hand, hia and mizi are very similar for providing warmth and comfort for sua, which helps with her sensitivity to the whole situation. however, while mizi is happy to keep up sua’s fantasies of innocence, hia decides to break it, for fear and bitterness of sua. this is where hia parallels ivan, as they both tease sua and force her to see the reality of her situation. my thoughts is that while sua is able to be somewhat passive towards it when it is hia, she actively avoids ivan for it, due to not seeing a caring personality from him, making their relationship more strained.