#myemoheart

I don’t wanna go back to the times that we shared

You never cared

How could I not see

I wanna believe that real loves exists

But with you I took such a big risk

And I’m still suffering 

And I’ve tried to move on

I don’t know why I can’t

Because it’s you

I most want to forget 

Each day my heart breaks

So consumed with our past

I wish that true love

Was more fiction than fact 

I sigh, such regret

I wish it wasn’t so

Don’t know how much more 

I can take

So I beg 

Don’t wanna remember 

My memories

Afraid that if I will

They’ll become reality

I’ve cried so much 

But you don’t care

You never did

How could you dare?

So forgive if I’m vicious

If my words 

Are a bit malicious

I don’t mean to be cold

But I thought

Together we’d grow old

But life isn't what I ‘d thought it would be

Sitting here almost at the age of thirty

Alone, lonely, broken, confused

I try to be positive, but am continually used

I don’t mean to be cold

Or even bitter

But when every day is Groundhog’s day

You mind only gets sicker

And what can change

When I don’t even know where to begin

Im not happy, I’m not having fun

But I know life is still worth living

A life, a dream

Not sure which is which

Maybe a nightmare, really

Expressionless

I am

To the beauty

Found

I am the one that chooses

To stay in the dark

Fearful of presence 

So cold and disheartened 

Fuck

I’M FALLING APART

Does anyone care

Do I let them?!

Fuck

Like a volcano

Ready to erupt

Steadily waiting 

Then

I explode 

Out of nowhere

So watch out

I’m alone

I’m alone

Plugged into perpetual bliss

Light this impish existence

Cradles my need to be seen 

to be heard

to be NEEDED

I have a desire to be needed and wanted

Nothing is ever good enough 

As I scream back to those I love, “Please, don’t give up!”

Loving me is treacherous, sweetly flowing, yet rough!

I’ll push you away 

But really want you near

To try, to try, to try, yet again

Because all I need is love.

Create me 

Fill the open spaces

The voice of my

Lonely soul

I want you to feel me

I want you to become me

I want you to be me

and I you

Two beings unite

So independent, yet so alike

Flowing into each and out of each other

Waves of seas

Leaves of Grass

Sameness

Uniqueness