#movingo

And that’s okay.Things aren't meant to last forever. It's okay to be sad about it. But relationships change, people change, I change. Connections are made, connections are lost and that's 100% okay. Because life will go on and new connections will form, new people will walk into my life and I will continue to change. 

It’s been awhile. 3 years is a long while right? I am certain I’m okay. I have made peace with my past. Came to terms with my ex. Accepted the reality that we’re not meant to be.

I’m doing good now. With my career and newfound love. Everything is falling into place finally. You don’t know just how good it feels to finally be happy again after a long time. It’s breaking through the surface after drowning for a long time. This breath of fresh air came at just the right time. And I’m taking mouthfuls of it, afraid this moment will pass and I’ll find myself drowning again. But so far, I can say I'm good.

And then I found out my ex is coming back to the country. Vacation purposes. I can’t help but remember that the last time he came here was because of me. And now he comes home with a wife and baby in tow. And it’s just so unreal. I’m used to seeing their pictures together, but we are worlds apart so I don’t get bothered with it anymore, especially since I’ve made peace with him way back. But him, here in the same country with me, and his family, our worlds finally together, hits me hard. And I hate that I am feeling emotions still after all these years, and I hate accepting the fact that maybe there really is no moving on for me.

It’s true what they say that first love never dies. The magic you feel with your first love will never be experienced again with the next. He will always be my greatest love. But it doesn’t mean I will not love my current guy with all that I am. Because I do. You just never stop caring about someone you’ve been with for a long time is all.