reasons why i miss you
there was something in me, from the beginning, that told me i could trust you
when i dared to open up and let you in, you jumped right in
you could talk on and on about nothing in particular
you made me feel like i mattered, even when everything in my head told me otherwise
you saw me and stayed with me whenever the nightfall would cascade
you were boisterous yet grounded
that we, for whatever reason, just clicked
you taught me the importance of taking care of yourself
i can still repeat your self-care reminders to this day
in the rare times you were down, i was there for you, and you made sure to tell me you appreciated it
you always gave the warmest hugs
you are one of the only people i feel truly safe with
how you could get me to smile with just you being there
how easy it was for me to feel like i could be myself around you
even with months apart, it would feel like nothing changed whenever we saw each other
despite having your number in my phone, you are far from me
and i don’t know when, or if, we’ll talk again
when i thought we were going to make it to forever
that our friendship was the closest i felt to a golden love
and i don’t know if, or when, i’ll feel that kind of love again
