#mindfilledwithgalaxies

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Persimmon - bury me amid nature’s beauty

“Hinata,” Natsumi said his name almost wistfully. “You kind of do remind me of a sunflower, y’know?”

Hinata gave her a look. Natsumi had her lower lip puffed out, her brow furrowed and a pinker than usual tint to her cheeks. Hinata, raising an eyebrow, huffed before entertaining her.

“Why?”

“You always look at the place that’s most bright,” she said. “You always stand upright. And you’re real fragile.”

“I’m not fragile,” he replied. She laughed, and went on without a care.

“You’re also way too skinny with way too big a head.”

“Hey!”

“You should be honored,” Natsumi stated haughtily with a flip of her hair. “Sunflowers are my favorite flower.”

Hinata’s frown just deepened as his glare darkened.

“And you’re my favorite person here in the reserve course,” she told him matter-of-factly, making him flush. Before he could balk, she had already looked away, gaze once again locked on that same bright place that always caught his own gaze. For a moment, Hinata stilled, taking in how the orange summer sunshine caught on her golden hair and reflected in the grass green of her irises.

…Natsumi.

Hinata blinked, and then shook his head, turning back to the main building. Thankfully, Natsumi didn’t comment. She may not have even noticed.

Alright!

9. Fireflies

“You don’t see them very often, do you?”

“No. Hardly ever.”

“I see.” He watched as Naegi raised his hand, the little fluttering glow overhead illuminating his look of awe and wonder. “They’re quite numerous, here, especially after it’s rained.”

Good luck followed by bad luck, with how mosquitoes were the same way.

“They’re beautiful, aren’t they?” Naegi asks with a laugh. “I really like fireflies.”

I can see that.

“They’re lost souls,” Komaeda finds himself saying. “They are beautiful, yes, but it’s a very bittersweet beauty. Not really hopeful or despairful. So, I don’t really know how I feel about them…”

There is a slight ache in his chest. He elects to overlook it as he always does.

Naegi just nods, giving him that ever soft, ever gentle and careful smile. Komaeda adores that smile as much as he resents it.

“They are beautiful,” he repeated, much more incessantly, much more irritably. Naegi raised his hands, showing his palms with that same smile, but more placating than before.

“Mm.”

Komaeda couldn’t help but let out a huff, but turned to be on his way. Unsurprisingly, he heard Naegi skip after him. Several fireflies buzzed in the air, most of them attracted to Komaeda’s coat, and idly, he wondered what kind of look Naegi was giving him now.

Komaegi is a ship that I felt had a lot of potential that canon just…didn’t bother with. :/

I had a lot of feelings for it in earlier days because like…dat potential. Komaeda’s a doppelganger for Naegi like he is for Naegi, but it’s obviously very different and a way that I really thought would be super interesting to explore, especially if the two had a prior relationship to Junko’s takeover.

Because they’d be like…friendly but not exactly close due to Komaeda’s reservations and as a result, even though Naegi likes him fine, Komaeda would have some complicated feelings, especially over the course of dr1. Because Junko seriously didn’t see Naegi as even a semblance of a threat FUCK YOU DR3 and Komaeda has every reason to view Naegi the same way as a normal person caught up in this mess and would probably die first if not for his luck which would basically be like…whatever. He can still be a stepping stone for Kirigiri or something idk. That kind of thing.

But then Naegi defeats Junko and blew all expectations out of the water. :’D

I do think that Naegi’s stance against Junko is what finalized Komaeda’s shift in focus from “talented” to “untalented”, especially since he was likely already disillusioned from Hope’s Peak shady business practices and also the Funking Junk. So, even if they never had any personal relationship, Naegi still incited a very personal change in Komaeda’s worldview which I think is still pretty neat. Komaeda also held his hand one time after shoving Mikan down a hill. That was great.

But yeah, Wasted Potential is my main feelings on the Komaegi ship.

Now as for SerKomaaaaaaa~~

I don’t know what it is with me and selfcest because I’m pretty sure I used to Not Be Into It? But it keeps??? Happening????

Yeah this is definitely an indulgent as hell kink ship, but honestlyyy, the deterioration and development that Komaeda went through to become Servant is still really interesting. Because, he has a healthier worldview and mindset in some regards, but he’s become a much crueler, colder person as well. So I feel like these two would clash a *lot*, especially since a lot of us just…want to kick our younger selves’ ass a lot of the time.

But, like, Servant might actually be a bit more interested in his younger self or alternate self, even if said interest is negative or positive. I do think there’s something inherently twisted and fascinating about seeing a variation of yourself, especially if that other you seems distorted. There’s all kinds of avenues opened up here, especially in terms of self-reflection eyyyyyy.

If you’re talking about Hinata and Tsumiki, it’s actually one of the few ships that I Do Not Like in terms of fluff and actually find to be quite uncomfortable lol. Because idly pondering if you should cripple your love interest while said love interest says it’s fine IS LIKE ONE OF THE THE LEAST FUCKING FINE THINGS ON THE PLANET GUYS WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

If you’re taking Hinata and Natsumi then…

It’s

so good

I love

Natsumi

so

fucking

much.

Real talk, it’s probably the only relationship in zhen that I could consider Well Done and Interesting because like, these two have so much in common but?? Significantly different ways when it comes to going about it??

Like, Hinata tries to be passive and to make himself comfortable and accept the bullshit shallow ass life advice spoonfed to him by the likes of Chisa and Nahnami (also the rather cold, pragmatic almost calculatingly worded advice given to him by Tengan), but Natsumi just sees Completely Through That Bullshit act 1000% regardless of the despair it brings her to think this way.

She’s like, clearly upset but she’d rather be upset than lie to herself and I think that’s…very important for Hinata to see and realize. It helps that, again, Hinata is attentive and a good listener and she clearly sees him as a kindred spirit even if he frustrates her a lot. I think they have the kind of similarities that could create a strong bond and relationship, more so than literally anything else seen in zhen (besides KamuKoma because I’m Fucking Biased As Fuck).

Awh, thank you. ;q;

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“Everything seems to be flowing smoothly, which is a relief, of course, but work hasn’t ah, gotten any easier, haha…”

No kidding. Hinata could only think as he stared at Naegi, weakly laughing and rubbing at the nape of his neck with very visible shadows under his eyes. Of course, Naegi noticed.

“…Kirigiri-san has offered to take up some of the work…but she has it hard enough already and I can handle it… I’m more worried about how Asahina-san will react, honestly…”

“You have to read through all these files, right?” Hinata asked, and offers his hand. “Let me help you. Kamukura will get through them quickly and provide all the necessary information.”

“I don’t doubt Kamukura-kun’s skill but asking for him to do something is already a trying task in itself,” Naegi laughs softly. “And, ah, it always leaves you with a really bad headache, right?”

“You saved his life. I don’t think it’ll be that difficult to ask a favor from him.” Hinata sighed heavily. “As for the headache… There’s really strong medicine I can take that tempers it, so really, Naegi, it won’t be so bad, so… Please. Let me help. You’ve done so much for us.”

Naegi blinks once, and ducks his head, looking even more tired than before.

“…There’s so much more I need to do.”

“Later,” Hinata says, waving his hand and taking the files. He ruffles Naegi’s hair. “For now, you’re still young. You need proper rest.”

“…Mmgh. Haha. Please…don’t baby me, Hinata-kun.”