#mind stuff

is anyone else's inner monologue extremely rude and violent for no reason?

Just had the converse of sleep paralysis, where my mind was awake but my body was still asleep, and I was really worried I would accidentally move my body. My mind was like, "nah, that's not really an issue," and I was like, "oh, so I guess the one thing I shouldn't do is think really hard about not doing that, huh?" And then proceeded to think decently hard about it. But my sandboxing caught all of my impulsive movements; as soon as I let my focus slip I went into more of a dream state, and would be like oh let's go get that! And then be worried that I moved IRL and it would take me a second to verify, that, no, actually, my main body was still heavy with sleep and had not moved. I had verified at the beginning that I could move by opening one eye, so it wasn't unfounded that I might move my body. So sleep paralysis is probably your mental sandbox being too good at catching your movement intents, even when you mean them really hard.

Me, wanting to work to improve my life: "Okay so there's gonna have to be a few changes but it'll be okay once the hard part's over. And then we'll be a lot healthier! Doesn't that sound nic-"