I’ve hit this wall in recovery that I thought might help others who also feel stuck. I know I want to change, in fact I’m miserable being sick. But I realize no matter what I do I will always dislike appearance. So now it’s up to me to decide does that mean I continue to harm my body or just chose to live even knowing I won’t feel comfortable but at least I’ll be able to live. And in doing so maybe I will feel a bit more comfortable in my skin when I no longer give it so much control over my mindset and actions.
Change is scary. Especially in recovery, the body changing is so fucking difficult. But you need to be honest with yourself. Is this worth it? Is it worth dying over? The longer you restrict the worse the outcomes can be. It’s time to face the harsh reality. Do you want to live a full life or die hating yourself
