Snarry
Rating: T
Hurt/No Comfort
Harry never liked to bother him while he was brewing. Rather, he shouldnât bother him. The sharply focused, donât-need-any-distractions Potions Master had made it abundantly clear. Granted, the man wanted to be left alone every hour of every day, but we canât always get what we want.
The smell was intoxicatingâwarm molten chocolate, with a hint of fresh peppermint. Harry couldnât help but be curious. What potion was this? Was it Amortentia? Harry loved a steaming cup of peppermint cocoa, but he wasnât sure it got him off.
He peeked into the Potions classroom, admiring the entranced long-haired male as he stirred the potion in slow, continuous strokes.
âPotter,â said the man, not lifting his gaze from the cauldron.
Harry jumped back, pressing his back against the wall. Shit.
âI know youâre there.â
Harry took a deep breath, opened the door fully, and entered the classroom. âSorry, didnât mean to bother you.â
âYouâve always been a terrible liar,â drawled Severus.
Harry threw caution to the wind and walked over to the man. âI was bored. Youâve been at it for hours. Has to be nearly done, isnât it?â He leaned over the cauldron, his shoulder brushing against Severus.âWhat is it?â
Severus sighed, taking a small step sidewaysâaway from Harry. âHot chocolate.â
âWhat? Really? I didnât know you were the domestic type, Sev.â
Severus stiffened. âAs I have told you before, you shall address me as Professor or sir.â
âAlright, sir. Can I have some?â
Severus stole a side glance at Harry, who gave him a smug grin. âItâs laced with a strong sleeping potion. I donât think youâd enjoy collapsing to the floor in the middle of my classroom.â
Harry scrunched up his face in confusion. âWhy?â
The Potions Master sighed, finally abandoning his stirring. âMadam Pomfrey wanted a more...pleasant way to administer it to patients. She thought it would be. Festive.â Severus grimaced.
âWhat? You a Scrooge or something?â
âYou know. Scrooge. Hateâs Christmas. Haunted by spirits. Eventually likes Christmas.â Harryâs face brightened. âI know! I need to be your Christmas spirit!â
âI think Iâll pass. Now, Iâm quite busy if you donât mind.â
âYouâre always busy. You donât take time for me anymore,â Harry pouted.
Severus clenched his fists, turning toward the boy. âPotter, you are delusional. I have never made time for you. You make time for me. Time I do not have.â
Harry stepped toward Severus, clutching the front of his robes. âHow can you be so cruel? Canât you see? I canât stay away. Iâve tried. I fucking love you, and you wonât let me.â
Severusâ cheeks pinked, shifting uncomfortably under Harryâs intense stare. âImpossible.â
âWhy? Is it so hard for you to grasp that someone could actually love you?â
âThis isnât love. It is an obsession.â He grasped Harryâs wrist, releasing the hand from his robes.
âCan I kiss you?â asked Harry, his eyes locked on Severusâ thin pale lips.
Harry leaned forward slightly. âAre you sure?â
âIf this is your sick idea of a joke, Potter, Iâll ask you once more. Leave. Me. The fuck. Alone.â
Harryâs face fell. âIt isnât. Maybe at first, but...the longer I watched you. Youâre so fucking beautiful, Sev.â
Severus did not correct him. Harryâs flushed look of embarrassment betrayed his true feelings. He lifted a reluctant hand to Harryâs cheek. âAre you sure?â he echoed.
âYes,â Harry breathed. He leaned forward, closing his eyes. Something hot and wet touched Harryâs lips, but it wasnât Severusâ.
âIâm sorry,â said Severus, as he poured a small cup of hot chocolate into Harryâs mouth.Â
Instantly, the boy slackened, and Severus caught him. Gazing down at the sleeping boy, he admired the softness of his cheeks, the delicate curve of his dark lashes, his pump pink lips. âWhy must you be so beautiful? Iâm sorry, Harry.âÂ
He had never called him by his given name before. It was too intimate. If he started now, he wouldnât be able to stop himself. âDarling, Harry.â He brushed a lock of raven hair from the boyâs brow.Â
âBut you will never be mine.â Severus leaned forward, placing a gentle kiss on the lightning-shaped scar. âLive your life. Find happiness. Find...love.â
Severus pulled out his wand. He replaced desire with disgustâlove for loathing. Tears poured down Severusâ cheeks. âI love you,â he whispered. âNow, and for always.â