#maria notes

I experience myself as simultaneous, parallel states of consciousness that can blend with each other or interfere with each other. Awareness can be shared between states or mental and emotional processes can continue outside of my awareness. Some states have different senses of identity. But in general, I find the alters as seperate people narrative popular online alienating, as I do not experience myself this way.

For those states that have their own sense of identity it is never the less a useful model to embrace the felt sense of personhood that comes with the experience and talk about them as if they were a seperate individual and to dialouge between them.

To even consider this you need to have experience with at least the following:

Graphic Design (for icons, etc)

Human Computer Interaction (user interface design)

Database design and administration. This includes things like migrating to a new schema as the app grows and changes are needed without breaking it for anyone who is using the app.

REST API design and development, this includes things like API Version management so that your app doesn’t break for people who haven’t updated yet.

Backend / server development

Mobile UI development whether that’s jetpack compose or swift UI or whatever applies to the platforms you are targeting.

Programming In Kotlin, java or swift (depends on platform)

Writing and running automated tests

Automated UI Testing

Continuous Integration

Server administration or cloud dev ops

Technical Support

Debugging

Release management, which includes google play / app store polices and requirements.

(if targeting both iOS and android) cross platform development experience

Bug tracking / Project management

Backup and Disaster recovery.

Security (this includes incident response when your app gets hacked, which it will eventually).

Legal and Compliance (DID/OSDD related data could be considered health data and is subject to laws about how data is processed and stored in certain countries, which the vast majority of DID/OSDD apps are probably breaking).

Developing bug fixes and updates (google play requires an app to be updated every so often or it will be removed, I am unsure as to what apple’s policies are)

Fixing security vulnerabilities (yes you will have them)

That’s a lot of skills for one person to have. I have assumed that you are already an advanced programmer in at least one programming language. That’s not enough.

All of these things take a lot of time, and you only have one body. You probably also already have a full time job.

In an actual software company, there would be a full-time employee responsible for each of those areas who specializes in doing just that.

she explains it that the main gang cannot figure out what our system structure is because we're like programs running in a virtual machine trying to figure out what programs are running on the host or in other VMs. We are simply not meant to know all of it.

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I spent the afternoon listening to my favorite P!nk albums and dialogue journaling to catch up with everything and then going through the past 5 days entries. I also had a look at our notes on known alters and it's a disaster! Some alters have been logged twice or even three times under different names and some states of two alters blended together have been counted as a new alter when it isn't.

I am basically our system's occupational therapist at this point, since we don't have an actual one yet. I do have a referral to a real one though, i don't know how long that will take so i am doing what I can.