#mal adaptive

I tend to have 2 types of DayDreams ... 1 is where I'm talking to a small group of people, the other 1 is where I'm having flashbacks and trying to handle myself better. These tend to end in worse case scenarios, and I often feel the need to act them out. Sometimes I get super angry based off of these daydreams.

This is my most recent, recurring day dream:

Real life part

- I was going on a bus, and the driver told me and my friend to pay an extra dollar. My friend did, and I called him a swear word as we were walking away. He told us to get off the bus. I waited for a while, before my friend told me to leave and I did.

Day Dream

Now I'm vividly daydreaming what I would do if I was in that scenario again. It keeps running through my mind. Should I just wait until he calls the cops? Should I just sit there? Every scenario ends badly in a worse case way. The part that bothers me is that he should have just kept driving. I also wonder if would keep driving if I just stayed there, or would the cops have came?

These daydreams cause anxiety and sometimes I act them out.

What do you think? Is this Mal-Adaptive Day Dreaming or a symptom of Pure OCD?

Shout out to @madd-para for her videos

@cookiedreemurr as well

https://www.healthline.com/health/mental-health/adhd-and-addiction#3

Do you think AD/HD and addiction are linked? Check out this article.

I’m not sure, but I feel ADHD, Addiction and MaDD may all be related, since MaDD is like an addiction, except in our heads.

What do you think?

This is my 9th therapy session for my Mal-Adaptive Day Dreaming.

To see Session 1, go here or to see Session 2, go here or to see Session 3, go here, or to see Session 4, go here, or to see Session 5 go here, or to see Session 6 go here, or to see Session 7 go here, or to see Session 8 go here. This blog is to help those who want therapy, but don't think they need it, or can't afford it. Hope it helps.

SESSION 9:

I saw my therapist via Skype for treatment again. I am slowly getting better, but I still need lots of work. I updated him on my progress. I managed to get some of my resume together, but not much more. God, how I love to waste time. I have been meditating almost every day. It's slowly becoming more of a habit. My therapist told me I need to stop running from negative emotions, and learn to live with them as I do things. Part of my daydream may stem from the urge to escape negative emotions.

I'm feeling a slight improvement as therapy goes on. I still daydream a lot. Most of the session was going over the homework I was supposed to be doing.

INSIGHTS:

I need to remember to take my mental health more seriously. I daydream too much, and I find I'm letting my life slip away. This needs to end. I need to find a job and get out there more.

TREATMENT:

Go out to 1 social event and hang out with my friend once this week

Keep meditating, try to mix up my routine a bit (see previous sessions)

Try to stay on work routines in the morning (ie scheduled work sessions - see previous sessions)

Have you ever considered therapy or some form of treatment for Mal-Adaptive Day Dreaming disorder? 

While I haven’t tried this service yet, I want to give it a shot. What do you think? Have you tried a 12 step program?

http://www.efaanonymous.com/12steps/

“I feel like a Ghost that misses out on life.”

No more wasted time. I need to get over MaDD. Do you feel the same?