#magic rant

And sometimes your spell is simply the last meal a live one can eat before surgery and you pour as much love, luck and good will in as possible and the ingredients come to you as you cook.

And then sometimes it’s lighting a candle for five minutes as you sit out side watching the stars and remembering the family member that died a few days ago.

And sometimes it’s talking and singing to the plants you grow in you garden. Wishing them to grow bigger and healthier.

All of these are spells, personally my craft include all three of these. I see enough witches trying to claim that not doing “big complicated rituals” will ruin your spirituality or that if you don’t do enough of them then you can’t be a witch.

Your magic comes from you and how you chose to perform or use it is completely up to you.

No one in my (remembered) family (known to me) practiced/practices or took part in anything religious beyond Christianity. And even then, the generation before me is predominantly non-religious (I have, like, one Christian cousin), and most certainly non-spiritual. They’re all quite content plodding along in the mundane - this isn’t a slight on them, just what it is.

But here I am casting circles, tempting fae, drawing sigils and casting spells ... And sometimes, it saddens me to read these “I’m an [x] generation witch” posts that read like they’re somehow above me. 

I’m no less valid because I’m the first (and probably last, I don’t want children) witch in my family; my magic is still fueled with energy, incantation and intent. So can we stop pretending like those of us not born to magic are somehow less, please.

Like, we fight wars and kill countless innocents, people in our world oppress and kill whoever disagrees with them, or whoever’s existence we disapprove of, equipped with limited resources and—perhaps most importantly—resources that have limits. Imagine what would happen if everyone suddenly became equipped with a resource that is potentially limitless? How many people would fall victim to magic gone rogue because of a heated discussion? How many sudden awakenings would leave destruction and death in their wake? And worse yet—how many lives would be taken by someone’s will, simply because they can? Because their opinions clashed and someone found that simply unacceptable? Imagine that one drunk customer at McDonald’s being refused service creating an explosion instead of kicking the chairs? That regular Karen that just can’t seem to understand that “customer is king” doesn’t mean you’ll sell to them at no cost, taking away your voice because “you’re so rude” instead of calling for the manager? An especially powerful racist targeting every poc within a radius of ten miles at once, with no warning, and possibly nothing to trace the event back to him?

Not to mention how it would affect wars and oppression—that kind of power in hands of the government? An entity with the capacity to invest and train it? I doubt democracy would survive long. We are having trouble keeping it going properly as is. We’d be lucky to have an oligarchy left at the end of all the power struggles that would no doubt rise from the sudden discovery of magic. At least at first, law enforcement would have no idea how to deal with this sudden change and be left powerless against people whose intentions we cannot control. We’d be collectively screwed.

Sure, there’d be some good—magic to heal mortal wounds or regrow amputated limbs perhaps—and eventually things would probably stabilize. But most fields would benefit from people with magic, and as a result such individuals would be favoured over “normal” populace. We’d have another form of discrimination on our hands, and who wants to bet at some point people with magic will believe themselves superior? Perhaps consider those without as lesser than?

This one specifically. Which, got me to thinking how I’ve been trying to come up with new ways of using energy for protection and healing in a more, I don’t know, practical sense? No flowery language. Maybe some hand stuff. Poppers? Who knows. Just not mudras because seriously this isn’t Buddhist or Hindu shit lets be real. Weird kind of chaos animism fuckery. Since all of existence is just one giant fucked up mobius strip, that has every unique perspective in existence, which literally touches on every fucking IMAGINABLE possibility. 

Fun fact kids: Don’t base your entire life around magic and Existentialism or else you’ll end up with shit like this, which I entirely don’t recommend because then you end up doing things like mixing up your prescribed meds with over the counter inhibitors. Which is not healthy at fucking all. Crooked path shit which I’m sure traditional practitioners would call a gross bastardization. Maybe. I’m not sure I don’t dig too deep just far enough until I think I got a grasp on a concept and then I fucking run with it.

Anyways back to the energy for practical uses. Like yes divine help, making contracts, finding other sources of energy always help with spell work. Learning how to draw energy from within from the super-ego you is also a good way to go but that might fuck with vital energies and shit. I’ve got more testing and research to do on that one. Circulating energy is always a fucking huge point though. You’ve got to be able to keep it at a constant flow. How fast that flow goes is up to you but at least keep it going at a steady pace. Going too fast might ‘cause burn out so definitely start slow. Or go fast for high risk, expedient reward. Just as long as you don’t end up feeling like you’re deflating because then you’ve fucked up and caused and energy leak somewhere and those are NEVER fucking fun to try and heal on your own. Quick patch jobs won’t cut it for long either you’re gonna have learn how psychically/astrally suture your shit.

I’m ranting and honestly I don’t feel like sharing this shit often because honestly? I’m not the most stable. There I said it. It’s not like I’m doing this purposefully I’m just desperate for some answers and travelling all over the fucking places takes a lot out of you. Also another reminder, don’t keep a lot of tentative contracts people get REALLY fucking annoying about when you’re gonna decide on shit like working for them or giving things up.