#loveluststerek

okay but i fucking love this???? i love this so fucking much because i can see it happening so clearly. like, steve did not sign up for a wild child??? he’s exhausted all the time and having to tell the toddler no is a constant thing. steve’s pretty sure he inherited his ADHD and can’t even imagine what he was like as a kid nevermind the fact that he’s billy’s kid too. because that’s what steve thinks every time something breaks or something gets ruined by tiny little hands. billy coming home from work after steve’s picked up their kid from daycare, standing in the doorway like, “you wanna see what your son did today?” and billy’s always sheepish about it cuz there’s no way that kid isn’t his. billy’s very aware of his energy and his presence, and their baby has all of it and then some. steve has mastered the side-eye so damn well, and that’s why billy generally always offers to swoop their kid up in his arms and tell him it’s bath time just so steve can have a moment where he’s not mopping up spilled juice or rubbing the walls to get the crayons off the surface. and when it’s billy’s turn to watch him, by the end of the day when steve comes home, billy always sighs and says “he’s definitely my kid.” and steve huffs laughter until he realizes there’s puddles of water trailing in from the pool after billy and their baby had a swimming day. just exasperated harringrove!!!!!! loving their child so much but also wondering how in the world he’s got so much damn energy and why he’s gotta be a fuckin tornado, lmao.

either way it’s gonna be suuuper interesting and i can’t wait either.

All he ever wanted to be was Stiles Stilinski.

the thing about neil in a situation like this, is that billy would straight up kick his ass if he went anywhere near or touched steve. like, i truly believe billy would need a catalyst to leave neil behind other than being 18, and billy would shut that shit down in a heartbeat because it’s not just about him anymore. he never mattered, but a baby??? that matters. steve matters, and he’d totally leave home for steve and the baby. doesn’t give a rat’s ass about his opinions or what he has to say in general. billy would feel a sense of calm understanding, clarity, maybe grief that this is what it took to tell neil to fuck off, but he’s all the better for it. billy’s learned a lot of hard lessons in life. the biggest? how not to be a shitty father.

i love this!!!!!!! god like, steve is kinda in denial about not being able to help?? he always helps, and this time, he’s sorta the one who needs to be helped?? he can still swing a bat, but he gets out of breath quicker and his balance is still god awful, made worse with pregnancy. it’s a difficult truth to swallow, which is why steve still tries his best to protect the kids. he can tell billy’s not the happiest person about it but they’re kinda stuck taking out demodogs for him to confront steve. it’s later when they’ve got demodog guts all over them, and they’re safe that billy tells steve that he’s still protecting someone, and he doesn’t have to be at the frontlines. he’d most likely get hurt. and at first, steve is annoyed because he is an adult, and he’s still a functional adult. but billy glances down at steve’s rounded tummy, and it’s not like he didn’t know. steve knows, but it’s new, and he supposes he never thought about protecting something that close to him, didn’t really think that keeping himself safe meant actually being a protector, too.

i think this is such a fantastic concept because truthfully, st is sorta on the brink of it if the upside down were to actually let loose. and i love this dynamic as well because this is exactly how i’d imagine them being when everything goes to shit and they have to fend for themselves. steve’s got a plan to get them to cali, and billy can execute it perfectly. them protecting the kids on this long ass trip with no one to rely on but each other. like, i can imagine late at night, billy and steve having a conversation about how billy is terrified something is going to happen to them but steve telling him that they can’t completely cut off everyone they meet. they have to have some semblance of connection. billy hunting for food??? the kids get really good at cooking meals over a fire. billy sharpening knives with rocks because he always keeps one on hand just in case. maybe they’re not even together yet but having to tough this out til they get to cali leads to some feelings and not wanting to lose one another when steve almost gets killed or billy sprains his ankle when they’re out in the woods trying to steer clear of the highways. like, there is so much that can be done!!! i fuckin love it.

and thank youu!! i think i’ll be fine eventually - i just gotta get out of my dumb head 😅💛

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