#log 002

GREGORY: Oh my, thank you!

GREGORY: I do consider myself rather fashionable as well, I’m flattered you could tell just from a single photo.

GREGORY: And of course, a man such as myself would never spare any expense while packing clothing.

GREGORY: I have my whole wardrobe for the next several weeks here at camp.

GREGORY: While I would have preferred more than six outfits for a trip so lengthy, I was only permitted to bring one suitcase.

GREGORY: Such a shame, I had so many others packed for the occasion.

GREGORY: I have a handful of outfits planned out, this one I am wearing included.

GREGORY: I would have preferred to approach the camp site with a little more style, but as a camp member I was expected to arrive in orientation with their assigned camp attire-- a rather simple T-shirt.

GREGORY: What goes well with a white T-shirt with a few trees on it?

GREGORY: Nearly nothing, I must say.

GREGORY: But I’ve made do, for now.

GREGORY: Of course, there are many more outfits for me to wear for the rest of my time here, anyhow.

GREGORY: Alongside my current get up, I’ve brought four other sets of clothing I figure would suit me well in the vast expanse of nature.

GREGORY: I made sure to pick out a couple of floral patterns so I could really immerse myself into the wilderness.

GREGORY: Some extra shoes, in case I have to do any walking...

GREGORY: Sunglasses if I’ll be spending any time out from under the shade of mother nature’s finest leaved sunguards...

GREGORY: Even gloves, if I were to possess the desire to touch part of nature.

GREGORY: The last thing I need are splinters in my nails after deciding to take a closer look at a pinecone!

GREGORY: And of course I’ve brought my nighttime attire as well.

GREGORY: Normally I prefer to alternate between a few different pyjamas, but I guess a wilderness camp is but a step away from LARPing as a caveman, ohoh.

GREGORY: Over all I would say I am rather underpacked in the clothing department, but I love the challenge of mix and matching these articles of clothing to make, possibly, entirely new outfits!

Young Miss Hyuga had a potential visitor today; her father stopped in to ‘check’ on the girl and see her stability. I assured the man that these things take time and we were doing all in our power to help her kick the negative need of medication while working on healthy solutions for future handling of her mentally well being.

That seemed to satiate his need for validation and left it at that. With him, he had brought a ‘Get Well Soon’ card signed by himself and his other daughter. Asked if I could pass it along with his wishes. I told him it would be more honor.

After tossing the card in the garbage pail, I visited my patient to see how she was fairing. Two days deprived of light and food have not done her any favors, sadly, but the straight jacket is holding well. We cannot have her hurting herself, now can we?

Tomorrow, evaluations. Tomorrow evening, shock therapy.

She asked if anyone came for her. I told her we both knew the answer to that. I am working on a new prescription for her now. I think it shall be marvelous.

I’ve yet to research any programming methods. I think I’m doing well on my own, but I’d still like some points of reference. I’ll do research later tonight.

For now, I’m setting up files for all my research. I’ll compile logs, information on both handlers and subjects, and put it on the computer. Then, I’ll erase all information except for inmediate notes I take during training sessions. I’ll also set up Notion pages for each subject and handler, complete with duties, tasks, and immediate necessary information. This is for personal use.

I aim to hypnotize Pup later tonight, but I feel I’m neglecting certain subjects. So, I’ll compile lists of hypnosis files for them beforehand.

A little bit about why I am doing what I’m doing. I was created for one task: create a group designed to run operations smoothly and efficiently. Now, they’re designed not to work as an independant system, but rather a set of tools— much like another group we as a large system harbor. Essentially, a group designed to pick up the slack whenever an alter finds that they’re not running as efficiently as they could.

5/31.

People in this timeline keep talking about this technology called a “SQUIP”. I decided to do some research on it to take my mind off of…well, everything. 

Apparently, they can predict probabilities for the future. If that's true, if they could use quantum mechanical processes to analyze time, I wonder.... I thought I gave up trying to get back a long time ago, but. Well. Hm.

what happens to us when a loved one is gone?

when people who used to share the same sun, moon and stars

so quickly snuffed out

never to see the sky and its wonders again

the stars are ancient

they do not grieve for things beyond their control

i look at the stars we once admired together

they didn't care about us

it's unfair. that every beautiful thing still exists

and life goes on in its own unyielding way

but you don't get to have it anymore.

they outlive you. isn't that cruel?

you would have told me to go on

it's hard to.

when everything here reminds me

of how you can't have it anymore

you would have loved this book.

you would have loved this song.

you know, my sister's all grown up now.

i think i grew up too.

it's been a while

since i said your name out loud

what good does it do?