#anony

mello & transmasculinity.

headcanons.

tags... @lckstmamacita / @symph0ny0fdestruction / @inhumangirll / @most-normal-and-awsome-personn

Hi Anony! Silho 🏘️ here, though I speak for all of us on this. We are not; I'm in the mental health field and specialize in dissociative disorders (actually working on a book to help other therapists work with clients towards functional multiplicity, since we have the lived experience) and we just haven't seen any proof either in research or in clients that systems come about from anything but trauma. With clients and friends we've known, those who didn't think they were a system due to trauma had that belief while they were still in abusive/unstable situations (whether with their original childhood abusers or new ones) and/or dealing with intense emotional flashbacks (and thus still in an unstable situation, just internally) and as a safety measure their brain kept everyone from sharing how the trauma shaped them until they were in a safer situation.

I and Star 🌟 like to have the mentality that people are doing the best they can with what they have at the time, so we operate under the mentality that someone who sees their system as formed from anything but trauma is likely in a similar situation or dealing with some other harm that's causing them to seek safety in the idea of being me-but-not-me.

I made chicken nuggets, have some ✨

Oh, yes! Totally fine to ask, I really appreciate the question too.

CW: Discussing over trauma, reactions + feelings on it.

Basically, Momina as stated in this post, is someone who is very nurturing and caring due to a combination of nature + parentification...naturally, this led to her caring for Fuuta! After he got kidnapped by the Kokuyo gang, Momina became fiercely protective of him. She distrusts and hates the Kokuyo gang, something Fuuta found comfort in given that the reaction of the others was that they're eventually 'fine' with Mukuro. [I don't think Fuuta was aware that Tsuna felt sorry for Mukuro and hesitated, but it's true that Mukuro is still 'allowed' to hang around. Quotes due to how it's being perceived by Fuuta.] In one of the light novels, Mukuro appeared while Fuuta was with Tsuna and Fuuta visibly shook, so it's noted he is still greatly affected by what happened.

Momina, during all this, is firmly on Fuuta's side and explicitly against the Kokuyo gang. Momina "doesn't care" what happened to them [something they'd say in anger because the idea of excusing abuse because of trauma is triggering for them! But inside Momina does in fact acknowledge the sever trauma they went through. It just doesn't excuse it in her eyes. And due to her own trauma, she has a tendency to feel that going through trauma should make a person avoid inflicting trauma on others. She feels very strongly about that!]

All that to say that Momina being so strongly by Fuuta and caring for Fuuta meant so much to him. He was used to being tossed aside and used, he truly considered Momina a reliable figure, a wonderful older sister...

Until Fran appeared. Fran's appearance had Momina rushing over to the Kokuyo gang, she refused to allow them to harm him like they did Fuuta. Of course, this didn't go well. Momina failed more than once until it occurred to her: the only way she could ensure Fran is cared for is by 'playing nice.' For example: if Momina were to feed Fran, the food would be taken by the Kokuyo gang. Anything she'd provide for him would be taken unless she also provides for the Kokuyo gang. So providing for the Kokuyo gang as a whole became a 'necessary evil.'

This, however, is a major betrayal to Fuuta. The person who fiercely stood by his side, cared for him and protected him is now doing so for his abusers.

Momina, of course, would explain this to Fuuta before hand due to not wanting to blindside him but no matter how she tried to carefully explain it, it didn't feel like anything but a massive betrayal.

Fuuta pulls away from Momina and Momina can't bring herself to abandon Fran so she stays but tries to care for Fuuta from afar. Thankfully Fuuta is very close to Miruku so Momina can still do so through him. It's something that hurts Momina terribly but they completely understand Fuuta's feelings on the matter. She hopes and prays that once he's older he can understand her position while also holding out that maybe some day their relationship can be repaired.