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Denim Dyke (2025)
Lino on mulberry paper
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The Raven Sits, a linocut, handprinted zine/minicomic based on an excerpt of Lord Byron's Manfred.
Yes, I know the raven stone is actually the gallows, but I both dislike hanging people and very much like my ravens a little stupid.
No, I don't know how to make things simple and fast. đ
This will be available at Yayuco in Dachau and Y-Con in Paris this November, and probably a few cons next year. If you really want one, shipping included, message me!
Shout-out to @niki-smith and Weemina who built me a little printing press and helped with cutting out a million pages. Ilyvm.
Also shout-out to @meggietheramm who I stole the format from!
âŁ àł cw: explicit sexual content · graphic sex · orgasm denial · dirty talk · aftercare · possessiveness · emotional vulnerability · toxic ex / abusive relationship (past) · physical assault · violence · blood · protective behavior · minor alcohol mention · language
notes: in which your regular bartender minho lets you stay at his apartment when your toxic ex-situationship gets physical â and things spiral from there.
The bar doesnât have a sign. Just a brass door with no handle and a button that glows red when you press it. Inside, itâs all velvet and shadowsâlow jazz crooning from invisible speakers, smoke curling from too-expensive cigars. The kind of place that smells like secrets and old money.
You donât belong here. But you come anyway.
Mostly for him.
Minhoâs behind the bar like always. Shirt black, sleeves rolled just once, collar stiff against the sharp line of his neck. He doesnât look up when you walk in, doesnât smile. He never does.
You donât need him to.
It starts like most nights doâlow lighting, soft jazz, the smell of expensive bourbon and even more expensive cologne drifting through the speakeasyâs velvet-lined walls. The kind of place that pretends not to notice you unless it wants to.
He always notices you.
Minhoâs already at the bar, polishing glassware with deliberate, almost surgical focus. No smile. No greeting. He doesnât do small talkâjust glances at you when you slip onto the stool you always take, his gaze lingering for a moment too long on the bare skin above your knee before it flicks away like you imagined it.
He slides a drink toward you without asking.
Tonight itâs something amber and sharpâneat, no garnish. Not the floral bullshit you usually order to irritate him but don't actually enjoy.
âYouâre learning,â you murmur, fingers curling around the glass.
âYouâre predictable,â he says, but thereâs a flicker of something in his eyes. Amusement. Approval, maybe. Itâs hard to tell with him.
You take a slow sip, letting the burn settle in your chest before you speak again.
âGonna make fun of me tonight, or just stare at my legs?â
He doesnât miss a beat.
âWhy canât I do both?â
You raise an eyebrow. Heâs in a mood.
Good.
You lean in a little, voice dipping low. âIf I didnât know better, Iâd think you liked me.â
Minho finally looks at you head-on, the edge of a smile ghosting across his mouth.
âIf I liked you,â he says, smooth as glass, âyouâd know.â
The heat that curls low in your stomach has nothing to do with the liquor.
You shouldnât be surprised. Youâve been playing this game for weeksâweeks of drawn-out glances and sharp tongues, of letting your knee graze his thigh beneath the bar, of asking him questions you already know he wonât answer just to hear the dry curl of his voice when he tells you no.
But tonight, the rules feel different. The air feels heavier. Charged.
You blame it on the day you had. On the message you didnât answer. On the fact that your body still remembers the way your so-called lover grabbed your wrist last night when you dared to pull away first. The apology this morning was short. Cold. Like a favor he did you.
Youâre tired of favors. Of men who act like your body is borrowed space.
So maybe thatâs why youâre here again. Why your dress is a little shorter than usual. Why your smile is a little sharper. Why you stare at Minho like you want him to cut you open and see whatâs underneath.
âI think you like me,â you say, swirling the amber in your glass, eyes fixed on his fingers as he reaches for a bottle behind him.
He uncaps it without a word. Pours slowâlike heâs buying time or maybe making you wait on purpose. The line of his jaw is clean and sharp in the barâs dim light, a profile carved in something colder than marble.
Youâve never seen him fluster. Not once. Thatâs part of why you keep coming back. That composure, that razor-thin controlâyou want to see it slip. Just once. Just enough to know what he looks like when something matters.
But Minho doesnât rattle. Doesnât rise to the bait. He sets the bottle down, replaces the cap with the same care you imagine he uses with everything elseâhis knives, his words, his hands.
âI think you like being watched,â he says finally, without looking at you. âThatâs not the same thing.â
Your lips curl. âIs that what you do? Watch me?â
He glances up, and the full weight of his gaze hits you square in the chestâdark, steady, measuring.
âOnly when you want me to.â
You swallow. Hard.
Thereâs nothing coy about it now. No masks, no playful deflection. Just static in the air and the slow realization that this isnât banter anymore.
Itâs foreplay.
Your thighs press together instinctively beneath the bar. The liquor burns differently nowâhotter, deeper.
Minho sees itâhow your legs shift, how your breath stuttersâbut he doesnât gloat. He doesnât need to. The power slips over him like a second skin, smooth and effortless, like he was born to unravel people slowly and never touch them at all.
You try to hold your ground, try to find something clever to say, but the words stick to your tongue. They donât come.
He leans forwardâjust slightly, just enough that you catch a whisper of his cologne, clean and sharp like crushed pepper and steel. The kind of scent that makes you ache without knowing why.
âYou always drink faster when youâre upset,â he murmurs. âDidnât think heâd blow you off again.â
Your stomach flips.
You didnât tell him that.
Not out loud.
But youâve mentioned him in passing beforeâyour almost-boyfriend, your never-quite-yours. The man who texts when heâs bored and shows up when heâs drunk, who fucks you like a secret and then disappears for days. Youâve never named him. You never had to.
Minhoâs too observant for that.
You look away, embarrassed, a little raw.
âI donât want to talk about him.â
Minho hums like he understands. Not kindlyâaccurately. Like a blade understanding the softest part of skin.
âDidnât think you would.â
His voice is soft. Low enough that it doesnât carry over the jazz humming through the room, but not so low that it misses the mark. It slides under your skin, settles there. Warm. Heavy.
You press the rim of your glass to your lips, but donât drink. Youâre stalling. He knows it.
âIs this where you offer comfort?â you ask, tilting your head toward him, trying to claw some of the power back with your voice. âTell me I deserve better?â
Minho chucklesâquiet, sharp-edged. âYou know you deserve better.â
He lets it hang there for a beat too long, until you can feel the unspoken part of it clawing up your spine.
You deserve better, and I could give it to you. But I wonât.
Not yet.
His fingers flex against the barâs edge. Itâs the first crack in his control tonight, the only betrayal of the restraint wound tight through every part of him. You donât think he even notices itâbut you do.
Because thatâs what this has always been, hasnât it? A standoff. A war of glances and gestures. Who can make the other want without asking.
You swirl the last inch of liquor in your glass, watching the amber catch the low light, pretending like youâre not memorizing the shape of his hand against the bar.
Minho isnât looking at you anymore. Not directly. His eyes are focused somewhere beyond youâon a bottle that doesnât need touching, a thought that doesnât need voicing. But his body betrays him in small, precise ways. That flex of his hand. The stillness of his shoulders. The slow, measured breaths like heâs giving himself rules to follow.
Donât reach for her. Donât say her name. Donât touch unless she begs.
You can feel itâhow close he is to undoing himself. How heâs fighting it like it would cost him something if he gave in.
And that makes you reckless.
âWhy havenât you?â you murmur, too quiet for anyone else to hear. âIf youâve thought about itâwhich you have. Why havenât you done anything?â
You lick your lipsâsubtle, involuntaryâand his eyes drop to your mouth like it was the only thing in the room worth watching. Just for a second. Just long enough to make your pulse thrum in your throat.
âYouâre not going to offer comfort,â you say, quieter now, more to yourself than him. âThatâs not your game.â
Minho doesnât deny it.
âI donât comfort girls who let men treat them like that,â he murmurs, voice like slow smoke. âI fuck it out of them.â
Your breath catches.
You canât help it.
It punches the air straight from your lungsâjust for a second. Just long enough for your lashes to flutter and your grip on the glass to falter and your entire body to go still.
You shouldâve known thatâs where heâd take it. You shouldâve seen it coming. But hearing itâfeeling itâlow and steady like that, like an invocation and not a threat?
Itâs something else entirely.
Your thighs clench beneath the bar. Instinctive. Useless. You feel suddenly too warm in your skin, in your dress, in this damn chair. Like the roomâs shrunk down to just the two of you and the weight of those words lingering in the air between them.
He said it like a fact. Like a promise. No smirk. No tilt of his head. No performance.
Just Minhoâstaring at you with that terrifying, surgical precision thatâs never been louder than it is now.
He knows what he just did.
Knows youâre squirming. Knows youâre soaking. Knows exactly where your mindâs goneâand he hasnât even touched you.
Your tongue darts out again, a nervous reflex.
And thatâs when he leans in.
Not by muchâjust enough that his mouth is close enough to graze the rim of your glass if you tilted it.
âIâd start with your mouth,â he says, barely louder than the jazz, like heâs confessing something obscene to a priest. âBecause I know youâd still try to be smart with it. Even while youâre choking.â
Your stomach drops.
Your fingers curl tight around the edge of the counter to ground yourself, but itâs no use. His voice is a velvet hand at your throat, gentle enough to tease, firm enough to hold
Minho doesnât linger.
He doesnât let the silence stretch into tension, doesnât wait for your reply, doesnât press a single inch further into the ache heâs just created.
He simply pulls away.
Smooth, unbothered, like he didnât just fillet you open with nothing but words. Like your insides arenât still ringing with the ghost of him. He reaches for a towel, wipes a nonexistent smudge from the rim of a coupe glass, and thenâcasually, almost boredâslides the folded slip of paper toward you across the polished marble.
Your bill.
Back to business.
Itâs maddening. Unbearably normal. Like he didnât just spit filth into your ear that made your spine arch in the seat. Like he didnât just speak to you like he already owned your body and was only waiting for the right time to claim it.
Your hand moves on autopilot.
Fingers dip into your purse, fishing out your card, swiping it through the reader like this is any other night, like youâre not unraveling at the seams. Like youâre not trembling just slightly beneath the surface of your skin, still burning with every word he spoke to you moments ago.
The reader beeps.
Declined.
You blink.
Try again. Slower this time. Like it might make a difference.
Declined.
The air shifts.
You donât look up. Canât. You stare at the reader, thumb hovering over the chipped edge of your card like pressing harder might fix it. Like it wasnât inevitable. Like you havenât been running on fumes and stubbornness and overdraft protection for longer than you want to admit.
You exhale through your nose. Force a quiet laugh. âSorry,â you mutter, trying for nonchalant. âGuess itâs been a week.â
Minho doesnât move.
You finally glance upâand heâs already looking at you.
Not annoyed. Not smug. Just still. Measured.
Then he takes the bill back without a word.
Folds it in half.
Tucks it beneath the register.
âItâs okay,â he says, and his voice is different nowâsofter, low and careful like a hand on the back of your neck. âIâve got it.â
You hesitate. âNo, really. I can come back tomorrowââ
âI said itâs okay.â
The quiet in his tone settles over you like a coat. Warm, heavy. Weighted with something you donât quite recognize yet.
You search his face for a catch. A smirk. A condition. But there isnât one.
And thatâthatâs what undoes you more than anything else.
Because itâs not a trade. Not a tease. Not a power play.
Itâs just kindness.
Uncomplicated. Unexpected.
From him of all people.
You swallow hard. Nodding feels dangerous, so you donât.
You just sit there, small and grateful and aching in a way you didnât expect.
âIâll pay you back,â you say quietly. âNext time.â
Minho doesnât respond right away. Just tilts his head, eyes never leaving yours.
âYouâre not a charity case,â he says finally. âI know youâll settle.â
You nod again. This time it lands.
He straightens. Pulls your empty glass away, sets it behind him.
âYou staying a while?â he asks. Not teasing. Not performative. Just⊠offering.
And you want to say yes.
But your throat is tight and your wrist still hurts beneath your sleeve and your body feels like too much tonightâtoo raw, too full, too loud.
So you say, âThink Iâll head out,â and your voice sounds gentler than it should. Like youâre asking permission.
Minho nods. Doesnât question it. Doesnât try to stop you. Just wipes the bar in front of your empty seat like heâs already preparing for the next ghost to sit down.
You stand slowly. Adjust your bag over your shoulder, glance toward the hallway that leads to the exit.
He doesnât say anything at first. But you feel him watching youânot your ass, not your dress, but the way you cradle your arm. The way your hand hovers over your wrist like youâre guarding something.
And thenâ
âDid he grab you?â
Your spine stiffens.
Like someone cracked ice down your back.
You donât turn around right away. You just stand there, shoulders drawn tight, fingers white-knuckled around the strap of your bag.
âExcuse me?â you ask, voice sharper than you mean it to be.
Minho doesnât flinch.
He doesnât repeat himself, either. Just waits.
You finally turn, chin lifted in that familiar tiltâthe one you wear like armor, the one youâve perfected for moments like this. When someone sees too much. When someone dares to ask.
âI donât need you psychoanalyzing my love life,â you say flatly. âItâs none of your business.â
Minho says nothing.
Which somehow makes it worse. And for some reason, you canât stop talking.
You huff a laugh, bitter and breathless. âJesus. You let one card decline and suddenly you think youâre my therapist?â
Still nothing.
Just that same steady gaze. Not pitying. Not cold. Just... seeing.
And maybe thatâs why it stings. Because heâs not wrong.
You fold your arms, fingers pressing hard over the bruise like you can erase it by force. âHe didnât mean to,â you finally mutter.
Minhoâs voice is quiet. Even.
âBut he did.â
You look away.
Itâs not a fight. Heâs not raising his voice. Heâs not accusing you of anything. But something about the way he says itâflat, factual, calmâmakes you feel like youâve been caught doing something shameful.
You shake your head. âItâs not that simple.â
His expression doesnât change. âIt never is.â
You exhale hard through your nose. Every part of you wants to run. You donât like feeling cornered like thisâespecially not by someone like him. Someone who doesnât play pretend
Someone who sees everything and speaks only when it counts.
âIâm not some broken girl who needs saving,â you snap.
âI know.â
And againâitâs not cruel. Not dismissive. Just a truth, spoken plainly.
That disarms you more than anything else.
He knows.
He knows youâre angry and proud and stubborn. He knows you want control, even when it costs you peace. He knows youâre clawing your way through something you donât want to name yet. He knowsâand still, he said nothing until you were already walking away.
You sigh. The kind of sigh that tastes like surrender.
âIâm fine,â you say. Softer now. âOkay? Iâm fine.â
Minho doesnât agree. Doesnât argue. Just nods like heâs filing it away for later.
And then, gently:
âText me when youâre home.â
You look at him.
Really look at him.
The dark sweep of his lashes. The slow tension in his jaw. The barest flex of his fingers against the rag heâs holdingâlike heâs grounding himself on the bar instead of reaching for you.
âI donât have your number,â you say, quiet again.
He doesnât even blink.
Just reaches for a napkin. Writes it down in clean, deliberate strokes. Slides it to you without flourish, like itâs nothing.
You take it with fingers that donât feel like yours.
The napkin is soft, a little damp in one corner, the ink bleeding just slightly where his pen dragged too slow over cheap paper. His handwriting is neat. Precise. The kind youâd expect from him. Not a flourish in sight.
You stare at the numbers for a beat too long.
Like if you memorize them now, maybe you wonât have to admit how much you care that he gave them to you.
âIâm not going to cry in the cab,â you mutter. Not to him. Just to yourself. A warning. A promise. A lie.
Minhoâs mouth twitchesâtoo fast to call it a smile. âGood. They charge extra for that.â
You roll your eyes, but the sound that escapes you is almost a laugh.
Almost.
You fold the napkin once. Then again. Tuck it into your purse like itâs fragile, like itâs worth something, like it matters. You donât say thank you. Canât. The words would taste too much like gratitude and not enough like the armor youâre trying to put back on.
He doesnât press. Just nods onceâfinal, quietâand goes back to polishing the same glass heâs been holding all night. Like none of this ever happened.
You walk away before you can change your mind.
Before you do something stupid, like apologize for flinching. Like ask him to say it again, that he knows youâre not broken. Like ask if heâs ever been hurt in a way that still echoes years later.
The hallway is dim. The velvet curtains at the door part with a whisper. The street outside is colder than you remembered.
You step into it anyway.
That night, lying on your side with the city leaking through the blinds in long gray stripes, you stare at your phone screen for too long.
Youâve opened a new message three times. Deleted it each time.
Minhoâs number sits untouched in your contacts now. Just a string of digits and a name that feels like something you shouldnât be allowed to keep.
Eventually, you type:
[you]: home.
Three dots appear almost instantly.
Then nothing.
Then:
[bartender]: good. sleep.
You stare at it for longer than you should.
Just those two words. No punctuation. No fluff. Just simple, clean concern dressed up like a command.
You can almost hear his voice in itâlow, even, with that deliberate edge that makes everything sound like a dare.
You think about typing something back. A joke. A thank you. Something to make it lighter.
But itâs too late for pretending now. And maybeâjust maybeâyou like that he didnât say take care or sweet dreams or anything that would let you brush this off as ordinary.
Because itâs not.
You set the phone on your nightstand.
And for the first time in weeks, you fall asleep before the sun rises.
The bass is too loud.
It rattles your ribs, crawls down your spine, settles behind your eyes like a headache waiting to happen. Bodies press in on all sidesâsweaty, glittered, half-drunk strangers shouting lyrics they only know the chorus to. The lights strobe fast enough to make you nauseous.
You wish you were having fun.
You should be having fun. Itâs Mayaâs birthday. Everyone showed up. Friends, coworkers, mutuals you forgot you still followed. You wore the good dress, the one that makes you feel like the sexiest version of yourself. You downed two shots at the bar and danced until your skin burned.
And for a whileâit worked.
Until he showed up.
You feel him before you see him. Isnât that always the way?
That weight in the room. The static against your skin. The sharp twist in your stomach that feels too close to guilt to be anything else.
You turn. And there he is.
Leaning against the bar like he owns it, drink in hand, shirt unbuttoned just enough to make a show of it. He doesnât look at you at first. He never does. Always lets you spot him first. Lets you feel him before he lets you see him.
Your heart drops anyway.
Itâs been three weeks since you told him not to text you again.
Not after the last timeânot after his fingers curled too tight around your wrist and left a bloom of purple that took a week to fade. Not after he said your name like a curse when you tried to walk away. You were never his. That was the whole point. And yet⊠it never seemed to matter.
You turn back toward your friends. Pretend you donât see him.
It works for ten minutes.
Then a hand slides around your waist.
âYou look good tonight.â
You freeze.
His breath is warm against your ear. Familiar. Suffocating.
You force a smile, even as your whole body goes still. âDonât.â
âDonât what?â he murmurs, voice syrup-smooth. âSay hi to my favorite girl?â
Your throat tightens. âIâm not your anything.â
âCouldâve fooled me.â His fingers flex at your waist. Not hard. Not yet. Just enough to make you feel like youâve already lost something.
You shove his hand off. Step back.
âI said donât.â
He laughsâsoft and cruel. âYouâve got some nerve, walking around like that. That dress. That mouth.â
Youâre not sure what breaks firstâthe fear or the fury.
But your hand moves before your mind can catch up, pushing at his chest, not hard enough to knock him back but enoughâenough to draw a line, enough to say stop, stop, STOP.
He stumbles back half a step, but the grin doesnât falter. If anything, it widens.
âOh, sheâs got teeth tonight.â
You hate that he says it like heâs proud. Like he likes it when you push backâbecause it means he gets to push harder.
âDonât touch me,â you spit, louder this time. Louder than you meant it to be. Louder than the beat crashing around you.
A few heads turn. Not many. Not enough.
He laughs, cruel and close and reeking of entitlement. âCalm down, drama queen. We used to have fun, remember?â
You take a step back.
He follows.
His hand shoots out again, this time not for your waistâbut for your face. Fingers clamp around your jaw, sudden and firm, yanking you forward so fast your breath lodges in your throat.
You gasp.
Pain sparks where his thumb digs in. Your hands shoot up instinctively, trying to pry him off, nails raking across his skin in desperation.
âI said donât fucking touch me!â Your voice breaksâsharp, raw, realâand for a second, just one, the crowd parts around the two of you like the air shifted.
He leans in closer. His mouth is at your ear. âYou think youâre better than me now?â he snarls, voice low and mean. âIs that it? That little bartender got you feeling brave?â
The blood drains from your face.
Because you never mentioned Minho. Not to him. Not to anyone who would repeat it.
It hits you like a punch to the chest. Not just the shock of his voice, low and poisonous in your earâbut what he said.
That little bartender.
Minho.
He knows.
You donât know how. Donât know who told him or what he heard or why it matters to him at allâbut the fact that he said it means heâs been watching. Listening. Picking up pieces you didnât even know you were leaving behind.
Your stomach lurches.
âI saidââ you shove him with everything you have, panic fusing with rage ââget off me!â
This time, he stumbles. Actually stumbles.
His grip slips from your jaw, and you recoil like youâve been burned, taking three steps back so fast you nearly trip. Your chest is heaving. Your eyes sting. The club feels too loud, too tight, the lights flashing like warning signs behind your eyelids.
But he recovers fast.
Too fast.
And now heâs pissed.
âYou fucking slut,â he spits, voice ugly and thick with venom. âYou think someone like him is gonna want you for anything more than your mouth? You think heâs any different?â
You donât stay to hear the rest.
You turn.
You run.
You donât care that your friends will wonder where you went, that your drink is still half-full on the table, that your heels werenât meant for this kind of escape.
You just run.
Out through the club doors, down the street, across the crosswalk without waiting for the signal. You walk like if you stop, heâll catch up. Like the weight of his voice will sink into your skin and stay there. Like youâll never feel clean again if you donât keep moving.
Youâre breathing too fast. Hands shaking. Vision blurry. Heart thudding like itâs trying to break out of your chest.
You swallow around the knot rising in your throat, the panic curling its claws up your spine, pressing down hard on your ribs like punishment.
And before you even know where youâre going, your feet are taking you there.
You donât remember making the turn. Donât remember crossing the street. You just blinkâand suddenly the neon glow of the bar bleeds into your vision, cool and low and familiar in the haze of your panic. The bar. His bar.
And heâs there.
Outside, leaning against the brick wall near the back entrance, one arm crossed over his chest, the other holding a lit cigarette between two fingers. The glow of the cherry lights his face in pulsesâhis cheekbone, his mouth, the sharp line of his jaw. His sleeves are rolled up, and thereâs a smear of something on his forearm.Â
He hasnât seen you yet.
Not until your steps falter and the click of your heels dies out beneath the sound of his exhale.
Thenâhe lifts his head.
And his whole body goes still.
You must look like a disaster. Eyes wide. Breath shallow. Shoulders drawn up like a cornered animal. Your lipstick smeared, hair falling out of place, the strap of your dress slipping.
But he doesnât comment. Doesnât move.
Just watches you.
The silence stretches for a moment too long. Then, quietlyâ
âDid something happen?â
Your throat tightens at the sound of his voice.
Low. Measured. But not indifferent.
Thereâs something else beneath it. A thread of tension wound so tight it barely makes it to the surface. The kind of control that only comes from practice. From restraint.
He doesnât take a step toward you.
Doesnât reach out.
Minho can read a room better than anyone youâve ever met, and right now, youâre a room filled with alarmsâflashing, screaming, crumbling.
He sees it.
âIâŠâ Your voice falters. âNo.â
You mean yes. You mean everything.
But the syllables wonât fit in your mouth.
He nods once. Slow. Like he hears what you didnât say.
The cigarette between his fingers burns to the filter before he drops it to the pavement and crushes it beneath the heel of his boot.
You donât realize youâve been swaying on your feet until your hand shoots out to brace against the wall.
Minhoâs eyes flick to the motion, then back to your face. He still doesnât move.
Instead, his voice softensâsomehow quieter than before, like heâs afraid even sound might be too much for you right now.
âIâm just down the block.â
You blink at him, still catching your breath.
âMy place,â he adds, nodding toward the street, toward the night that still hums like static around you. âNothing weird. Just⊠quieter. Warmer. No one else there.â
You hesitate.
Not because you donât trust himâyou do, in ways you probably shouldnâtâbut because your whole body still feels wrong. Like your nerves are too close to the surface, like any wrong move might set them off again.
Minho sees it.
He doesnât rush to reassure you. Doesnât over-explain or fumble for comfort.
Just lifts a shoulder in a light shrug and says, dryly, âI have cats.â
Of all the things he couldâve said. âCats,â you repeat, the word catching oddly on your tongue like it doesnât belong in a night like this. Like itâs too soft, too domestic, too absurdly normal for the way your heart is still hammering inside your ribs.
Minho nods. âThree of them.â
You raise an eyebrowâwary, trembling, but still capable of curiosity. âThree?â
âSoonie. Doongie. Dori,â he says. âThey're spoiled. Judgmental. Loud as hell.â His tone doesnât change. Still calm. Still flat. But thereâs something careful behind it. Like heâs offering you a rope. Something to hold onto. Something that doesnât smell like sweat and fear and everything you just ran from.
You nod. Just once. And somehow, thatâs enough.
His apartment is small. Not cramped, not coldâjust lived-in. Clean in that intentional way, like someone takes pride in it but doesn't obsess. The floors are wood, soft under your bare feet when you kick off your heels by the door. The kitchen glows faintly from the under-cabinet lights he left on, casting long amber streaks across the floor.
And the cats⊠the cats are waiting.
One sits perched on the back of the couch like he owns the placeâwhich, judging by the scratch marks in the armrest, he might. Another peeks out from under the coffee table. The third appears from the hallway, tail high, meowing like youâve personally offended him by existing.
You blink again.
âTheyâre boys,â Minho explains as he hangs his keys. âBut they act like little old ladies. Doriâs the mouthy one.â
The meowing continues. A chorus now. Youâre too stunned to respond at first. But thenâDoongie, maybe?âpads up to you with those wide, judgmental eyes and headbutts your calf like itâs his god-given right.
Something inside you breaks. Not in the sharp, painful way. Not like at the club. No. This is different. This is soft. Shaky. This is the moment your body decides itâs safe enough to start crumbling. You crouch downâslow, carefulâand let your fingers curl into his fur.
You donât even realize youâre crying until you feel it drip from your chin. Until your breath stutters. Until you fold over completely, arms wrapped around a cat who didnât ask for this, face pressed into the warm softness of something alive and gentle.
Minho doesnât say anything. He doesn't touch you. You feel him move quietly behind youâsetting a glass of water on the coffee table, flicking off the main lights until only the soft kitchen glow remains. And then⊠he just sits. A few feet away. Cross-legged on the floor, still in his black button-up and rolled sleeves, watching you like youâre made of glass and still trying to figure out if the cracks were already there.
You stay curled there on the floor for a whileâknees tucked beneath you, fingers knotted in soft fur, cheek pressed to Doongieâs side like it might anchor you to something solid.
The apartment is quiet, save for the occasional swish of a tail or soft thump of paws. You can feel the warmth of Minhoâs presence without looking at him. He doesnât crowd you. Doesnât try to fix it. Just staysâclose enough that you donât feel alone, far enough that you donât feel trapped.
Eventually, your breath starts to come steadier. The shaking dulls. And when you finally lift your head, cheeks sticky with dried tears and eyes too tired to hold anything else, heâs still thereâarms resting loosely over his knees, gaze steady. You wipe at your face with the back of your hand, half-laughing, half-apologizing.
âSorry,â you murmur, voice rough. âI didnât mean toâfall apart all over your cat.â
Minho shrugs. âHe probably liked it.â
You snort, exhausted. âHeâs purring.â
âDoongieâs kind of a slut for attention.â
You laughâa real one this time, hoarse and softâand drag your fingers through Doongieâs fur once more before sitting up straighter, wiping your cheeks with the sleeve of your dress.
Minho stands slowly, careful not to startle the moment, and disappears into the hallway without a word. A minute later, heâs back, holding a folded bundle in his armsâwhat looks like a pair of sweatpants and a hoodie so worn itâs probably been through a hundred washes. He sets them gently on the arm of the couch beside you.
âShowerâs through there,â he says, nodding toward the narrow hallway. âFirst door on the right. Towels are on the rack. The water takes a second to heat up.â
You blink up at him, the offer settling slowly over you like warmth. He doesn't say you look like a mess. Doesnât tell you to clean yourself up. Just offers you comfort in the quietest way he knows how. You nod.
The bathroom is small, clean, and filled with that same soft golden light that seems to follow him everywhere. You peel yourself out of your dress, step under the spray, and let the steam unwind you. Itâs the first time all night you feel like youâre breathing in something clean. Like maybe thereâs still space in your skin for something that isnât fear.
You stay until the water starts to run cold. When you finally step out, dressed in his clothes, skin still damp and flushed from the heat, your heart thuds with a strange, fragile kind of relief.
And then you see it.
The couch. The cushions have been cleared, a blanket folded neatly at the foot, pillow fluffed, a glass of water on the side table. One of the cats is curled up like a sentry near the armrest, blinking at you lazily as if to say itâs fine now.
You stare for a second. Because itâs not just that he made up the couch. Itâs that he didnât assume. Didnât point you toward his bed. Didnât insist. Didnât press. He just knew.
You sit down slowly, tucking the blanket over your legs, body sinking into the cushions like they were waiting for you.
Minho reappears from the hallway, already dressed downâblack joggers, a loose hoodie hanging off one shoulder, hair damp like he rinsed off too. He gestures toward the light. âYou good if I kill this?â
You nod. He flips the switch. The room dims. He doesnât say goodnight. Doesnât do the awkward lingering thing. He just turns, quiet as always, and heads for his bedroom.
And for a moment, you let him go.
For a moment, you think itâs fine. But the second the door clicks shut, something tightens in your chest. Your breath catches. Your pulse jumps. That same fear from earlier curls back in under your skinânot loud, not sharp. Just a whisper now. A what if. What if he comes back. What if he finds out where you went. What if this silence isn't safety at all, but the space before another breaking point.
You sit up. âMinho?â
A beat. His door opens again. The light from his room spills into the hall. Heâs already halfway back into the living room when he says, âYeah?â
Your throat works around the words. They feel small. Silly. Needful. But you say them anyway. âCan you stay?â
He pauses. Looks at you. And you can tellâhe knows. Knows exactly what you mean. Knows itâs not about him. Not about company. Not about flirting or closeness or warmth. Itâs about safety. Itâs about knowing the world canât get to you if heâs there. He doesnât ask questions. Doesnât make a sound. Just disappears for a second, then comes back with two blankets folded under one arm and a spare pillow under the other. He drops them on the floor beside the couch, shrugs out of his hoodie, and settles down without a word.
The hoodie slips off his shoulders in one smooth motion, revealing the thin black tank top underneathâclinging just enough to map the sharp cut of his collarbones, the slope of his shoulders.
You donât mean to stare.
But the fabric hangs loose at the chest, dipping just low enough to expose the curve of ink over his left pectoralâblack lines disappearing into shadow, something abstract and intricate. Just a glimpse. Just enough to wonder what the rest of it looks like when he breathes.
Minho doesnât notice. Or maybe he does. Maybe heâs just too tiredâor too graciousâto call you on it.
He lies on his back beside the couch, one arm tucked under his head, the other draped loosely over his stomach. Doongie circles once on the rug, then collapses beside him like a guard, chin resting on his forearm.
You turn onto your side. The room is still. Not quietâstill. Like the air itself is holding its breath. You donât sleep. You canât. Not with the phantom heat of a hand still lingering on your face. Not with the aftershocks of fear still curling around your ribs. Not with the weight of this unfamiliar kindness just a few feet away, warm and steady and unearned.
So you watch him. And eventually, he turns his head. Eyes open. Heavy-lidded but focused. A slow drag up your face. Your cheekbone. The faint shadow blooming just below your temple. His jaw ticks, subtle but sharp, and he doesnât look away. You donât flinch.
âDidnât know you had a tattoo,â you whisper.
He blinks. Like the words take a second to land. âMm.â
His gaze flicks down brieflyâto where the fabric clings to his chest, then back to your face. Thereâs no smirk, no warning, just a shift in the air, like gravity tilting. âWanna see it?â
The question isnât loaded. Itâs not teasing. It just is. You nod. Minho sits up slowly, one hand tugging at the hem of his tank top. The fabric slides up and over his head in one clean motion, soft and soundless. He tosses it to the side and leans back on his elbows, the muscles in his arms flexing, loose and languid.
The tattoo stretches across the left side of his chestâblack ink, fine lines, bold shapes. It isnât a compass. Itâs a storm. A swirl of wind and waves, jagged mountains etched in silhouette. At its center, the faint outline of a wingâfractured and rising, like something caught between ruin and flight. The ink moves with him, flexes when he breathes, like itâs alive beneath his skin.
You stare.
Not because itâs beautifulâthough it isâbut because it feels right on him. Like he was born with it. Like whatever storm he came from left its mark on the inside first, and this was just its echo.
Your hand moves before you can stop it.
Slowly, like reaching for fire. Like asking for permission with the space between your fingers. When you donât meet resistance, you touch him.
Just a single point at firstâyour fingertip landing lightly on the edge of the wing, where ink meets skin just beneath his collarbone. His breath hitches, subtle but real, a flicker of tension in his chest. You feel it before you hear it. Then you trace. Softly. Reverently. Down the curve of the wing, across the stormline where jagged wind spirals out into broken waves.
Your touch drags slow, deliberate, following the black lines like youâre learning a language. One that only his body speaks. Minho doesnât move. He just watches you. The way your lashes lower, the way your lips part slightly like youâre holding your breath for him. The silence between you is thick but not heavyâdense with something neither of you are ready to name.
When your finger glides over the highest peakâinked mountain just above his heartâhis head tilts back slightly, like the contact pulls something from him. His throat bobs with the swallow he doesnât bother to hide. You pause. Right over his heart now. The skin is warm. Steady. And for a second, the storm beneath your own ribs goes quietâlike his rhythm tames yours without trying. He exhales.
His eyes flutter shut for a beat, then open againâslow, measured. He looks at you like youâve unraveled something in him, like your touch left ink on him instead. But when his gaze drops lower, it changes. Softens. Darkens. And then his hand moves. Carefully. Cautiously. Like heâs seen too many things break when touched too fast.
He lifts it to your face, the backs of his fingers ghosting along your jawâlight enough to be mistaken for air. He doesnât go straight for the bruise. He lingers near it, watching you, waiting for the slightest sign of retreat.
You donât give it.
So he shiftsâjust slightlyâuntil his knuckles brush the edge of the swelling beneath your eye. You flinch. Not because of the pain. Not because it hurts. Because of how gentle it is. Like heâs afraid to hurt you, like he doesnât know how to hold something unless heâs sure it wonât shatter. Like he wants to carve your bruises from your skin and wear them instead. His fingers hover there. Still. Tense. A breath away from trembling.
âFuckerâs lucky I wasnât there,â he murmurs.
You inhaleâslow, shallow. The air catches in your throat like itâs thick with something unspoken, something too big to name. Minhoâs hand starts to pull back. And maybe thatâs why you speak. Maybe thatâs why you reach for something else, anything else, before the room folds in too tightly.
âSo,â you say, voice barely above a whisper, âthat tattoo.â
Minho pauses. Just for a moment. His eyes flick back to yours, and he knows what youâre doing. Of course he does. The deflection is transparent, but he lets it happen anywayâlets you steer them away from the heaviness still clinging to your skin like ash.
âWhat about it?â he murmurs, settling back on his elbow, the other hand now resting on his chest near the ink you traced. You mirror him slightly, folding into the edge of the couch, letting your cheek rest against the pillow, eyes fixed on the storm etched into his skin.
âThe wing,â you say after a beat. âIn the center. Whatâs it mean?â
Heâs quiet for a second.
Then: âFreedom.â
You blink. âItâs broken.â
His mouth quirksâbarely a smile, not quite bitter. âYeah. It usually is.â
You donât know what to say to that. So you say nothing. Just let your gaze trace the peaks and spirals, the places where black lines blur like smoke, the edges of him carved in ink instead of bruises. His body tells a story too. You just havenât read all the pages yet.
Minho shifts again, slowly lying back down on the floor, the side of his arm brushing the base of the couch now. You're above him on the couch, laying on your side so you can look at him.
âYou can ask,â he says softly.
âAbout the tattoo?â
âAbout anything.â
You humâsoft, skeptical. The kind of sound that curls into the quiet and lingers, not quite a no, not quite a yes. Youâre tired now. The real kind. The kind that settles into your limbs like gravity, like wet sand. Your eyes flutter half-shut, your voice feather-light.
âThat sounds dangerous.â
Minho lets out a low exhale, something between a laugh and a sigh.
"Maybe.â
Your gaze slips to his againâhis eyes open, trained on the ceiling like the answers might be there if he stares hard enough. One hand still rests loosely over his chest, the other pressed against your cheek.
You reach for it. Not with purpose. Not even with need. Just because itâs there. Because it feels like the thing to do.
Your fingertips graze his, gentle, thoughtless. And then his hand shiftsâjust slightlyâso his pinky catches yours. Hooks. Holds.
Itâs not a kiss. Itâs not a confession.
But it feels like both.
You donât speak for a while. Donât need to.
The silence feels clean now. Like rain after smoke. Like you could fall asleep inside it without drowning.
Minho doesnât move. Doesnât breathe too loud. Just lets you anchor thereâyour hand half-curled over his, your lashes brushing your cheek as your eyes slip closed.
But then, soft and slurred, half-dreaming:
âYou have a nice voice.â
You feel his hand twitch. Just a little.
âYeah?â he says, and itâs quieter than anything else heâs said tonightârough around the edges like he doesnât quite know what to do with the compliment.
You nod against the pillow. âMhm.â
Thereâs a beat.
âYouâve heard me say some pretty fucked-up things.â
A ghost of a smile tugs at your lips. âHave I?â
He huffs a breathânot quite a laugh, not quite a sigh. Just a sound with history behind it. With edge. With weight.
âDonât play innocent,â he murmurs. âYou remember.â
You do.
Of course you do.
Words like silk and smoke, coiled tight with implication. The things he said across the bar, into your drink, into your skin without ever laying a hand on you.
You remember all of them.
But youâre tired. Softened. And the edges of those memories feel dulled nowâfaded by warmth and flannel and the rhythm of his breathing a few feet from your chest.
So you hum again, lashes still pressed to your cheeks. âThey didnât sound fucked-up at the time.â
Minhoâs quiet for a while after that. The kind of quiet that hums.
You can feel it in the space between your bodiesâhow the air thickens again, but not with tension. With memory. With the weight of everything you havenât said and the things you probably never will.
âThatâs the problem,â he says eventually, voice low enough that you almost miss it.Â
Your eyes open again. Just barely. The room is still steeped in shadow, but your vision finds him easyâhalf-lit, half-lost in the floor beside the couch. One arm tucked beneath his head, the other still tethered to yours.
You study the line of his jaw, the way it tenses and relaxes like heâs caught between restraint and regret. Heâs not looking at you anymore. Just staring at the ceiling again, like maybe itâll answer for him this time.
âYou say that like youâre proud of it,â you murmur.
He doesnât smile. Doesnât smirk. Just exhales, rough and dry.
âNo,â he says. âI say it like I donât know how to stop.â
That hurts in a way you didnât expect. Not because of what he saidâbut because of the way he said it. Like a flaw in the foundation. Like a truth carved into him long before you ever stepped foot inside that bar.
You shift a little, turning more fully toward him, cheek pressed deeper into the pillow. Your fingers are still slotted with his. His skin is warm. Callused at the tips.
âYou donât have to stop,â you say quietly. âJust donât lie about what you mean.â
That gets him.
His gaze flicks to yoursâfast, sharp. Like he wasnât expecting that. Like no oneâs ever said it to him quite like that before.
âI never lied,â he says.
You blink at him. Slow. Sleepy. âNo. But you hide.â
Minho doesnât answer. Just watches you. Face unreadable. Chest rising slow beneath the ink on his skin.
And then, almost too soft to hear:
âI donât want to scare you.â
That makes you pause. The silence stretches thin and long between you.
âYou donât.â
Minho swallows. His thumb brushes, barely, against your knuckle.
âNot yet.â
You shake your head. Your voice is nearly gone nowânothing but a breath. âI think Iâm harder to scare than you think.â
His mouth twitches. Not quite a smile. Not quite not.
âYeah,â he murmurs, âIâm starting to believe that.â
The air settles again. Like the truth came in and made itself comfortable.
You close your eyes, finally letting your body sink into the couch. Letting the warmth of himâhis hand, his presence, his voiceâpress into all the places that still feel fragile.
âDonât stop talking,â you whisper.
He blinks. âWhat?â
âYour voice,â you murmur, already half gone. âItâs nice. It helps.â
And when you drift off like thatâquiet, safe, held by nothing more than the sound of himâMinho stays awake long after. Eyes on the ceiling.
Still talking.
Just in case you can still hear him.
You wake to the scent of coffee and something faintly savoryâgarlic maybe, or eggs. The couch beneath you is warm where your body curled into it, blanket tangled around your legs. A cat is pressed to your ribs like a living paperweight, tail flicking once when you stir.
For a moment, you forget where you are. Forget what happened. Forget him.
Then the ache hits. Dull and deep, low in your chest and blooming outward. You shift to sit up, and it all comes back.
The club. The hands. The words.
The running.
And thenâMinho.
His apartment is quiet now, but not empty. Thereâs music playing low from somewhere down the hall. You follow the sound on slow feet, dragging the blanket with you like armor.
You find him in the kitchen, barefoot in gray sweatpants and a loose black t-shirt, sleeves pushed up. Heâs at the stove, spatula in one hand, coffee mug in the other. Thereâs a pan of eggs on the burner. A second mug waiting beside the sink.
He doesnât turn when you enter. Just glances over his shoulder and says, âMorninâ.â
His voice is rough with sleep. Deeper. It hits somewhere low in your spine.
You hover at the doorway, feeling small in his clothesâhis hoodie draped over your frame, sleeves too long, the hem brushing your thighs.
âYou didnât have toââ
âMaking breakfast,â he says, cutting you off with casual finality. âYou still eat, right?â
You blink. âI⊠yeah.â
âGood.â He turns back to the pan. âThen sit.â
You do. Quietly. At the counter, fingers curling around the warm ceramic of the mug he left for you. It smells like cinnamon.
He plates the eggs. Adds toast. Pushes the dish toward you and leans back against the counter with his own. He eats without looking at you at first, fork moving in clean, efficient motions.
When he does speak again, his voice is softer.
âYou donât have to go back.â
Your fork stalls halfway to your mouth.
âWhat?â
Minho lifts his gaze. Steady. Calm.
âIâm serious. If you donât feel safe thereâŠâ He trails off, jaw tensing. âStay here.â
You open your mouth, but nothing comes out.
He doesnât let the silence stretch far.
âIâve got room,â he adds. âCats already like you. You donât snore.â
That last part earns the smallest smile from you. âYou donât know that.â
âI was up half the night,â he says, mouth twitching. âIâd know.â
You look down at your plate, pretending to rearrange the toast like thatâll somehow buy you time to think. But the wordsâstay hereâtheyâve already lodged themselves under your ribs. Warm. Unexpected. Real.
And terrifying.
âI donât want to be a burden,â you say finally. Quiet. Like if you speak too loud, youâll ruin the softness of it all.
Minho sets his fork down.
The sound is soft, deliberate. When you glance up, heâs watching you again. Really watchingâlike he does when heâs about to say something thatâll cut deeper than you expect.
âYouâre not.â
Just that. Nothing flowery. Nothing performative. Just the fact of it, laid bare on the table between you like it shouldnât be questioned.
You want to believe him.
You almost do.
But then your fingers twitch near your coffee, and the pain in your face pulses a little sharperâpulling you back into the fragile ache of your own body. You shift to look away, to hide the swelling thatâs bloomed across your cheekbone and down to your jaw.
But Minho doesnât let you.
He moves around the counter slowly, like heâs trying not to spook you. His hand is warm when it finds your chin againâfingertips brushing along your jawline, coaxing your face toward his. Gentle. Grounded.
âLet me see.â
You donât pull away.
You donât want to.
His thumb ghosts beneath your cheekbone, skimming over the darkened bloom thatâs bloomed overnight. His brow furrowsânot in pity, not even in anger. Just... stillness. A silence that hums with the kind of fury heâs learned how to wear like armor.
His voice is low when it comes.
âI hate that he touched you.â
You blink. Something thick swells in your throat, too full to swallow down.
âI hate that I didnât find you first.â
That hits you harder than it should.
You try to speakâbut your voice sticks somewhere behind your teeth. So you just nod, your cheek pressing into his palm like your body can answer for you.
Minho doesnât let goânot yet. His fingers trail down to the edge of your neck, where the fabric of his hoodie pools at your collarbone. Youâre not sure if he realizes how close heâs gotten. How the warmth of him wraps around you now, even without touching anything else.
âI want you to stay,â he says again, steady now. âNot because I feel bad. Not because you need help. I want you here.â
Your next breath comes too fast. Too shallow.
His thumb moves againâjust a gentle stroke along your jaw.
âSay something,â he murmurs.
You breathe in once, shaky and thin. âOkay.â
The corners of his mouth pullâslow, subtle. Not quite a smile. Something quieter. Relief, maybe.
He lets your face go with that same careâlike heâs afraid itâll leave a mark if heâs not gentle enough. Then he steps back, returns to his plate, and picks up his fork again like he didnât just hand you the softest kind of shelter.
You take another bite of your eggs.
They taste better than they should.
You donât move in all at once.
Thereâs no official decision, no suitcase moment. Just the slow accumulation of thingsâyour toothbrush beside his, a sock that somehow never made its way back into your bag, a t-shirt folded neatly at the foot of the bed that you donât remember taking off. A rhythm forms. One that begins with his voice in the morningâlow, rough, coffee-lacedâand ends with the soft click of the front door when he comes home from the bar past midnight, thinking youâre asleep.
You never are.
The apartment starts to feel different. Lived-in. Yours, even if you never say it out loud. Your shoes by the door. Your laughter echoing off the tile. Your perfume clinging to his sheets like memory.
Minho doesnât comment. Not once. He just starts making a second cup of coffee without asking. Starts keeping almond milk in the fridge. Throws your laundry in with his like itâs never been separate.
And youâyou watch him fall into it as easy as breath.
He moves through the apartment like smoke. Silent, confident, present in ways youâve never been used to. Thereâs no performance with him, no empty gestures. If he folds your towel, itâs because it needed folding. If he brings home your favorite tea, itâs because he remembered. And if he looks at you too long in the mirror while you brush your teeth, itâs because he wants to, not because he expects anything in return.
One night, he comes home late. The bar ran over, and the cats had started pacing like they could feel the quiet shift without him. Youâre curled on the couch in one of his hoodies, a half-finished movie playing on low, just waiting for the lock to turn. When it does, and he steps insideâshoulders drawn, eyes tired, the scent of smoke and whiskey clinging to himâyou donât say anything at first.
Just watch him.
He slips off his boots. Shrugs off his jacket. Walks into the kitchen and pours a glass of water like heâs not sure how to be here yet.
Then he grabs the pack from the counter.
You sit up.
âMinho.â
He pauses. Doesnât look at you.
You rise slowly, tugging the sleeves of the hoodie over your hands, padding barefoot to meet him.
âYou said you were trying to quit.â
âI am.â
âYouâre also lighting a cigarette at midnight.â
He exhales through his nose. Tired. âRough night.â
You stop just short of the threshold between the hallway and the kitchen, bare toes curling against the tile, the silence stretching taut between you.
âWant to talk about it?â you ask softly.
âNo,â he says.
Not harsh. Not clipped. Just final.
Minho pulls the cigarette from the pack with that same familiar motionâtwo fingers, flick of the wrist. The sound of the lighter clicks once, twice, before the flame catches. He doesn't look at you as he inhales, jaw tight, lashes low. The cherry glows in the dim.
You wrap your arms around yourself.
He leans against the counter, exhales slow, smoke curling up toward the ceiling. It swirls around the line of his jaw, catches the faint sheen of sweat at his temples, clings to him like itâs part of his skin.
You hate how good he looks like this. Angry. Quiet. Unreachable.
But you hate more that you canât reach him.
âWas it something at the bar?â
His lips twitch. He doesnât answer.
You step closer, voice gentler now. âYou donât have to carry it alone, you know.â
âIâm not,â he says. Still not looking at you. âIâm carrying it just fine.â
You frown.
âMinhoââ
âI said Iâm fine,â he snaps.
And this time, it is clipped. Sharp. The kind of sharp that cuts more than it means to. He finally looks at you thenâeyes rimmed with something hot and unreadable, mouth hard.
The silence that follows is cold.
You shift your weight, wounded but trying not to show it. âOkay.â
Minhoâs jaw ticks. Like he wants to take it back, but doesnât know how. Like everything in him is fraying at the edges, and you just happened to be the softest thing close enough to get caught in it.
He curses under his breath. Stubs the cigarette out halfway through, presses the filter down into the tray until it smears.
Then, quieter: âItâs not you.â
âI know.â
He runs a hand down his face, palm dragging hard across his mouth like heâs trying to erase himself. Then he sighs and looks at youâreally looks at you. The hoodie swallowed around your frame. The bare legs. The worry softening your brow.
His voice breaks a little on the next part.
âHad a guy come into the bar tonight. One of those typesâsmiles too wide, looks through women instead of at them. He kept cornering this girl, leaning over the counter, asking me why I gave a shit when I told him to back off.â
You say nothing. Just listen.
Minho swallows. âHe called me a cockblock. Said I mustâve been jealous.â His gaze drops, eyes narrowing. âSaid I looked like the kind of guy who watches.â
You donât interrupt.
âHe grabbed her arm when she tried to leave. Wouldnât let go."
The words hang there. Not just what heâs sayingâbut why heâs saying it. You feel it bloom in your chest. Cold. Familiar.
You walk the last few feet.
He doesnât stop you this time.
Your hand finds his wristâwarm, tense, still trembling slightly. You run your thumb over the bone there, grounding him.
âYouâre not that kind of man.â
âI know,â he says. âBut I wanted to be.â
That makes you pause.
He looks up. His voice is low. Bitter.
âI wanted to slam him into the bar. Make him bleed. Make him feel small. And the worst part?â A breathless laugh. âI wouldâve enjoyed it.â
âI know,â you whisper. âBut you didnât.â
âYeah, well. Doesnât mean I didnât want to.â
You squeeze his hand.
Itâs quiet for a while. The kitchen lit only by the soft amber under the cabinets, casting warm shadows along the tile. The cats have settled somewhere in the living room. Even the city feels hushed.
He rubs his thumb over your palm absently.
Then, suddenly: âHe looked at her the same wayââ
He stops himself. His jaw locks.
You swallow.
He doesnât need to finish the sentence. You know.
And he knows you know.
So you step closer. Gently. Carefully. Press your forehead to his shoulder, breathing him inâsmoke and soap and something like home. You pluck the cigarette from his lips and he lets you, watches as you toss it into the sink.
âCome to bed,â you murmur.
He doesn't move.
You tug on his hand again. âPlease.â
Minho glances at youâeyes a little too tired, a little too darkâbut he lets you guide him.
He doesnât say much once you're in the bedroom. Just peels his shirt off and tosses it into the corner. You catch a glimpse of the tattoo on his chest againâthe wing in the center of the storm, fractured, fighting to stay airborne.
You turn away to climb into bed, give him space.
But when you settle under the blanket, heâs already there. Already behind you. Warm and solid, arm slipping around your waist without hesitation. His chest to your back, his breath against your neck.
Heâs quiet for a long time. And then:
âI hate that I couldnât stop it. What happened to you.â
You close your eyes.
His fingers tighten slightly against your side. Not rough. Just firm. Just real.
âI think about it more than I should,â he murmurs. âWhat Iâd do if I saw him again.â
You shift, just enough to feel him breathe differentlyâlike your movement catches him off guard, like he wasnât expecting you to respond. But you donât turn around, not yet. You just let your voice slip into the quiet, soft and slow.
âWhat would you do?â
Thereâs a beat of silence.
Then another.
His breath ghosts across your shoulder. âDonât ask me that.â
âWhy not?â
âBecause Iâd scare you.â
His voice is quiet, but not gentle. Measured. Sharp at the edges like heâs spent all night filing it down.
You blink slowly into the dark, heart thudding, air thick between your bodies. You feel him behind youâwarm, solid, tense. A wall at your back. A shield. A fuse.
âTell me anyway,â you whisper.
He doesnât move.
Doesnât exhale.
And just when you think he might pretend he didnât hear you, Minho speaks.
âIâd wait,â he says, voice low, words heavy like molasses. âWouldnât say anything. Wouldnât warn him. Just watch. Let him come close. Let him think he could try again.â
Your breath catches.
His fingers curl slightly where they rest on your waist, grounding himself in the shape of you.
âThen Iâd take his hand,â Minho murmurs, âthe one he used on you, and Iâd break every fucking finger. One by one. Slow. Make sure he remembered why.â
A chill snakes down your spine.
Not fear.
Just something colder. Older. Like someone had finally said the thing you werenât allowed to say out loud. That it wasnât okay. That it would never be okay.
âAnd when he screamed,â Minho continues, voice almost tender now, âI wouldnât stop. Iâd make sure he understood what it feels like to lose control. To be small. Helpless. The way he made you feel.â
You turn in his arms.
Slowly. Deliberately.
Face to face now.
His jaw is clenched. Eyes storm-dark. He looks dangerous like this. Not because heâs violent. But because heâs loyal. Because he means every word and thereâs no drama in his voiceâjust truth. Cold and clean.
You reach for him without thinking.
Your hand moves to his face, fingers threading into the hair at his temple, thumb brushing the curve of his cheekbone like youâre trying to soothe something in himâor maybe in yourself. And Minho⊠he doesnât flinch. He doesnât soften either. He just lets you hold him, lets your touch settle over the anger still thrumming in his bones like a warning bell that hasnât stopped ringing.
âYou wouldnât scare me,â you whisper.
His brow twitches, just slightly. âYou should be scared of a man who wants to hurt for you.â
âNo.â You shake your head. âIâve been scared before. Youâre not that kind of man.â
His mouth parts. His breath hits your lips. The weight in his eyes shiftsâsomething cracks beneath it. Not entirely. Just a fracture. A weakness. A truth.
âYou donât know what Iâd do,â he murmurs.
You lean in, close enough that your breath brushes his skin when you speak.
âI donât need to,â you whisper. âI know what youâve already done.â
His brow furrows, but you go onâsoft and steady, the words falling between you like theyâve been waiting for a place to land.
âYou made space. You listened. You held me when I couldnât hold myself. You let me have silence without asking for anything in return.â Your fingers press more firmly against his jaw, thumb brushing just below his lower lip. âThatâs enough. Thatâs more than anyone else ever did.â
Minhoâs eyes darkenânot with lustâbut with something thicker. Something closer to reverence. Like the weight of your trust is heavier than all the violence he ever imagined inflicting in your name.
His hand rises slowly, palm cupping your cheek with a gentleness that borders on fragile. His thumb swipes beneath your eye like heâs checking for something he missed.
âI donât deserve that,â he says, voice raw.
âMaybe not,â you murmur, pressing your forehead to his. âBut you have it.â
And thatâs what breaks him.
Not dramatically. Not all at once.
Just enough to make him move.
Minho kisses you like heâs falling. Like heâs been holding himself upright for so long, he doesnât remember what it feels like to give in. His mouth finds yours, and thereâs no hesitation in itâonly heat, only hunger. His tongue slides against yours with a quiet groan that vibrates in your chest.
You gasp softly when he pushes you back, his body pressing you into the mattress, weight balanced on his forearms so he doesnât crush you. One hand slips under your shirt, fingers skimming up your ribs, pausing just beneath the curve of your breast.
He pulls back barely an inch, eyes flicking over your face like a question.
His breathing is uneven, but his touch isn't. His hand rests thereâstill beneath your shirt, just barely cradling your breast like he's not sure he deserves to hold anything so soft. So willing. His thumb strokes gently, slowly, and his eyes search yours like he's waiting for a line to cross. Or worseâwaiting for you to pull away.
You donât.
Instead, you reach for the hem of your shirt, dragging it up with trembling fingers. You donât break eye contact. Donât speak.
You just offer.
And Minho accepts.
He helps, silent, peeling it over your head with quiet reverence. He looks at you like youâre made of something rare and unrepeatable. And when his gaze drags over your chest, down the soft swell of your ribs to your stomach, he breathes your name like a confession.
His voice is wrecked when he says itâyour name, cracked and reverent like heâs saying it for the first time. Like itâs a word he isnât worthy of.
âFuck, look at you.â His hands drag down your sides, slow and sure, palms wide and heavy like heâs trying to ground himself. He shifts over you, mouth lowering to your breast, and he moans as soon as his lips close around your nippleâno restraint, no performance. Just need. He sucks hard. Just once. Like he canât help himself. Then he pulls back, panting, and shakes his head like heâs already losing it. âIâm not gonna last if you keep looking at me like that.â
You smileâlazy, wrecked, already warm all overâand tilt your head just enough for your lashes to sweep up, gaze locked on his. You reach for him, fingers trailing down his arm until your palm flattens against his chest, right over the fractured wing. âIâm not looking at you like anything,â you whisper.
Minhoâs breath stuttersâone of those shallow, fractured exhales that says he doesnât believe you for a second. Not when your palm is flat against his chest, thumb grazing the tip of that wing inked over his heart. Not when your eyes look like thatâhalf-lidded, dark, shining with something heâs not sure he deserves.
âYeah,â he mutters, voice rough. âKeep lying to me.â
But he doesnât pull away. He watches you. Watches the way your hand trails lower, slow and certain, down the cut of his abdomen. Fingertips ghosting over the faint dip of muscle, over the waistband of his pants, teasing the edge like youâre not sure yetâlike he has any say in it anymore.
Minho goes still. Not because he doesnât want it. God, he does. Heâs so hard it hurts, cock straining against the fabric, already leaking for you. But thereâs something in his faceâtightness around the mouth, tension in his jaw. A flicker of control barely clinging to the edge. And you see it. You see all of it. So you press your lips to his collarboneâsoft, reverentâand whisper, âLet me.â
Minho shudders. And then he nods. You sink down the bed a little, propping yourself on one elbow, other hand already slipping beneath his waistband. He lifts his hips to help, pants shoved just low enough to free him. His cock springs up, flushed and thick, tip slick with precome, veins standing in sharp relief.
âJesus,â you murmur, fingers curling around the base. âYouâre so hardâŠâ
âBecause of you,â he rasps. âYou lying, teasing little thingââ
You give him a slow stroke, and he chokes.
You give him another stroke, tighter this time, and the sound he makes punches straight through youâlow and ragged, a shattered groan caught in the back of his throat. His hips twitch, almost against his will, and you can feel the restraint vibrating through his body, every muscle tight like heâs on the verge of snapping.
âYouâre shaking,â you whisper, almost teasing. âWhat happened to all that control?â
Minho laughsâjust barely. Just a breath.
âKeep talking like that,â he mutters, âand Iâll ruin you before you even get the chance to try.â
But the way his eyes flutter shut when you twist your wrist on the upstroke says otherwise. âHahâfuckââ Heâs panting now, head tipped back, one arm holding himself up beside your head for support while the other fists the sheets like he needs somethingâanythingâto hold onto.
You lean up, breath brushing the underside of his jaw, your voice soft and honey-sweet in his ear.
âYou gonna beg for it?â
He freezes. His eyes snap open, and thereâs something electric in the silence between you. His cock throbs in your hand, twitching like the idea alone nearly undid him. He turns his head slightly, lips brushing yours.
âDo you want me to?â he whispers.
You smile, smug and slow. âWouldnât hate it.â
He groansâdeep, guttural, wreckedâand it makes your cunt clench. He looks like he could devour you whole, like he might if you ask nicely. Or if you donât.
âIâd get on my fucking knees if you told me to,â he mutters, mouth moving along your jaw, your cheek, your throat. His hand finds your hip and grips, firm enough to bruise. âIâd crawl. Iâd beg. Iâd say pleaseâis that what you want?â
You donât answer. You just stroke him againâslow, tight, deliberateâand feel the way he shudders against you, how his whole body flinches like your hand alone is enough to wreck him.
âMmâ baby, slow downâfuckââ He buries his face in your neck, teeth grazing skin.
âIâll give it to you,â he murmurs. âAnything. You want me desperate? Pathetic? Done. Just say it.â
You hum, soft and pleased, lips brushing his temple. âI think I like you pathetic.â
Minho groansââFuck, youâre evil,ââbut he doesnât pull away. If anything, he sinks into it. Into you. Every stroke of your hand wrings another sound from his throat, each more desperate than the last.
You swipe your thumb over the slit, smear precum down the shaft, and his entire body jolts.
âShitâdonâtâf-fuckââ
âYou gonna make a mess in my hand, baby?â you ask sweetly, tightening just a little. âGonna come like this? Without even being inside me?â
He growls. âNo.â
You blink up at him, lips parting in mock surprise. âNo?â
Minho pulls back just enough to look at you, eyes absolutely wrecked. Hair messy, jaw clenched, throat flushed with effort. Heâs trying so fucking hard not to lose it.
âIâm not coming until Iâm inside you,â he says, voice low, dark, edged with pure hunger. âUntil Iâm fucking deep in that pretty cunt, feeling you squeeze me while I lose it. You think I can come just from your hand?â
He leans in, nose to yours, breath harsh. âIâd beg for the chance to do it right.â
You blink once. Then twice. Then you let go of his cock. Minho groans like it physically hurts.
âThen beg.â He stares at you. One long, heavy moment. Then he kneels back on his haunches, hands splayed on your thighs, and dips his head.
âPlease.â
Just one wordâbut fuck, the way he says it. Voice hoarse, raw, like itâs scraped from the bottom of his chest. His lips graze the inside of your knee as he speaks again.
âPlease, let me in. Let me fuck you slow. Let me feel you stretch around me.â
You exhale shakily.
He presses another kiss higher. âLet me make you come on my cock. Let me ruin you so good you forget anyone else ever touched you.â
Your thighs tremble. He reaches for your underwear, eyes flicking to yours for permission, and when you nodâbarely, breathlessâhe tugs them down with reverence, slow enough to make you whimper.
Minho drags your underwear down your legs like itâs the last ribbon off a present, like beneath it is something heâs been waiting his whole life to unwrap. When the fabric slips past your ankles, he tosses it somewhere behind him without a glance. His gaze never leaves you. Youâre already soaked.
He sees itâfeels it when he runs two fingers through your folds, slow and deliberate, spreading you open with a breathless âfuck me.â His knuckles tremble.
He sees everything. Every flutter of your lashes, every twitch of your thighs, every slick sound his fingers make as they glide through you, slow and reverent. His knuckles tremble, but his touch doesnât falterânot even a little. If anything, the way his hand moves only deepens, turns hungrier.
âFuck me,â he breathes again. He parts you with two fingers, spreads your folds and watches your cunt clench on nothing, dripping for him, aching.
âLook at you,â he mutters, like he canât help it. âSo wet I can see my reflection. What the fuck did I do to deserve this?â
Youâre panting now, back arching just slightly off the sheets, eyes half-lidded but fixed on him, on the way he looks at you like youâre something sacred and ruined all at once.
âTouch me,â you whisper. âPlease.â
Minho sinks two fingers into you in one smooth strokeâslow, thick, curling just right until your breath hits the back of your throat. He groans, low and guttural, watching your cunt stretch around his fingers like itâs something holy.
âSo fucking tight,â he grits out, voice wrecked. âHow the fuck am I gonna fit my cock in you if youâre already this tight around my fingers?â
The question is low, more to himself than to you, but it rips through you like heat, like lightning. Your walls flutter helplessly around his fingers at the thought, and Minho groansâlong, drawn out, wrecked.
âOh, you like that,â he breathes. âYou want me to stretch you open, donât you?â
Your answer is a breathy whimper, more sound than wordâyour hips canting up, your fingers curling in the sheets. Minho watches you, chest rising and falling like heâs the one being touched, like you are the thing unraveling him.
âFuck,â he hisses, and then heâs lining up. His cock drags through your folds, thick and flushed, already smeared with your slick. He grinds onceâslow, deliberateâletting the head catch against your clit before slipping lower. When he presses in, the stretch burns, even as your cunt welcomes him, soaking and clenching and shaking just from the promise of it.
âJesusângh, fuckâyouâre tight,â he growls, jaw clenched, forehead tipped against yours. âGonna ruin me.â
He gives you an inch. Then another. Then thrusts the rest of the way in with a groan that sounds like itâs been caged in his throat for weeks.
You cry outâsharp, startled, stretched to the brim in one sudden, devastating motion.
âMinhoââ
âShh,â he pants, not stopping. His hips roll into yours, hard and deep, dragging his cock through your walls like heâs trying to etch himself into them. âYou can take it. I know you can. Look at youâfuckâmade for this.â
The first few thrusts are brutal. Snapping, deliberate, filthy. Your thighs tremble. Your back arches. He pins your hips down like heâs afraid youâll slip away if he doesnât keep you there. Every time he sinks back in, your breath knocks out of your lungs, and his name falls from your lips like a prayerâwrecked, endless, real.
âJust like that,â he grits, cock dragging against your walls, soaked in you. âLet me fuck it into youâlet me make you feel me.â
But thenâ Then he slows. Not because he has to. Because he wants to. Because he wants to feel all of it. His hand slides under your thigh, hikes your leg higher around his waist, and he sinks into you againâslower this time. Deeper. His hips roll instead of snap, the rhythm shifting into something that feels closer to worship than fucking.
He fucks into you slow, deepâeach thrust wringing a breathy moan from your throat, each drag of his cock carving his name deeper into the heat of you. The sweat on his skin glistens under the low light, hair clinging to his forehead, jaw tight with effort and restraint. Youâre clinging to him nowâarms looped around his shoulders, nails dragging across his back, body arching to meet every roll of his hips. And then he says itâlow, ragged, right in your ear.
âFeel good?â
You gasp, nod, whisper-plead a breathless âYes.â
He humsâa soft, dark thing, almost smug. He thrusts a little harder, just once, like a reward, like a test. âYeah?â he pants. âHow good? Tell me."
You tryâbut your voice catches. Itâs just air at first, punched out of you by the deliberate grind of his hips, by the thick, aching stretch of him moving so slowly inside you you could scream. You manage a broken, breathy sound: âSoâfuckâso goodâŠâ
And Minho groans. Long, low, full of grit. He kisses your jaw, your cheek, your lipsâmessy, hot, open-mouthed. His breath fans against your skin as he mutters, âThat all youâve got for me, baby?â
You dig your nails inâfuck him, he knows what heâs doing. He knows exactly how good he feels, the way his cock strokes that spot just right, again and again, with filthy precision. The way his hand curls around your thigh to keep you spread for him, to keep you right there
You whimper his nameâsoft, ruinedâlike itâs the only word you remember, and he groans, sharp and deep, lips dragging along the sweat-slick curve of your throat.
âGod, you feelââ he pants, voice splintered, barely holding. âYou feel so fucking good, baby. Youâre so tight, so warm, youâfuck, you ruin me.â
Another thrustâslow, deep, devastatingâand your head falls back against the pillow, mouth open in a silent cry. Minho watches your face twist, watches your chest heave, and it breaks something in him.
âIâshitâI think Iâm in love with you.â
It slips out like a sin. Like he didnât mean to say it out loud. Like he couldnât hold it in one second longer.
Your whole body goes still beneath himâjust for a moment. Like your brainâs catching up. Like his words are a second kind of penetration, sharp and unexpected. He freezes, too. Breath held. Eyes wide. The moment burns.
And then you whisper, broken and trembling: âSay it again.â
Minho doesnât hesitate this time. âI love you.â
He moans it into your mouth, like it hurts to say, like it hurts more not to. His hand slides up your side, tender now, reverent.
âI fucking love you,â he says again, forehead pressed to yours, hips still rolling deep, slow, full of everything he never knew how to say before now.
âYou hear me? Youâre not just someone I fuck, youâreâgod, youâre everything.â
Your lips partâwords rising up like breath, like instinctâbut you donât get the chance.
Minho kisses you before you can speak.
Not soft. Not tentative. Itâs all tongue and teeth, heat and hunger, the kind of kiss that steals thought and gives only feeling in return. His mouth crashes into yours like heâs been starving for itâlike heâs still starving, even now, with his cock buried deep inside you and your body curled so sweetly beneath his.
You gasp into him, and he drinks it downâtongue licking into your mouth, filthy and tender and real.
And then itâs all friction.
The slow roll of his hips turns urgent, dragging moans from your throat he swallows between kisses. He fucks into you like he means it nowâlike every thrust is a promise carved into your bones. You cling to him, helpless against the way your body arches, the way your cunt tightens around him, soaked and pulsing, every nerve on fire.
âM-MinâhahâMinhoââ
He pulls back just long enough to look at youâjust long enough to let you see how wrecked he is, how far gone, how in it he is with you.
âYouâre mine,â he pants, voice rough and wrecked, thrusts hitting deeper now, harder, his hand gripping your thigh to keep you open for him. âYou hear me? Say it.â
You nod, broken. âYoursâfuck, Iâm yoursââ
And thatâs all he needed.
He groansâloud, gutturalâand buries himself deeper, cock twitching as he fucks you through it. His thrusts lose rhythm, chasing his high, and youâre barely hanging on, every drag of him inside you rubbing all the right places, the sweet heat spiraling again in your belly.
Youâre both so close. So close.
And when you come againâtight and soaked and shaking all around himâhe feels it. Feels you flutter and pull and milk him until he canât hold back anymore.
He buries his face in your neck, gasping your name as he spills inside you, hips stuttering, voice wrecked.
âI love youâfuckâI love you, I love youââ
Itâs not gentle when he comes.
Itâs everything.
And when the tremors subside, when your nails loosen from his back and your breaths sync again, he still doesnât let you speak.
Not yet.
He just kisses you.
And kisses you.
And kisses you.
You learn something about Minho that night. That as nonchalant and unshakable as he seemsâcool and composed, cigarette smoke and sharp tonguesâwhen he gets going, he doesnât stop. Not until youâre crying his name again. Not until your thighs tremble and your voice is wrecked and your bodyâs too boneless to beg for more, even though your eyes still plead with him.
You lose track of how many times.
The night runs long and slow and moltenâfucking turns to touching, touching turns to laughing, and every kiss feels like a secret passed between mouths.
Now, the room is quiet again. Still.
Youâre sprawled across the sheets, skin bare, limbs warm and heavy with exhaustion. The duvetâs been kicked down to your ankles, your body slick with the soft sheen of sweat, your chest rising in steady, sated waves.
Minho is goneâbut only for a second.
You hear the quiet thud of the fridge door, the sound of a glass under the tap. When he returns, heâs shirtless, sweatpants hanging low on his hips, and heâs holding out a glass of water like itâs some sacred offering.
âDrink,â he murmurs, voice rough with sleep and sex. You sit up just enough to take it, careful not to meet his eyes at firstâand then you see them.
The marks. Dark smudges blooming across the sharp cut of his hips. Nail trails raked down the meat of his shoulders. A bite on his collarbone, faint and already bruising. All yours. And suddenly you feel⊠Shy.
You didnât beforeâwhen his mouth was on you, when his hands were everywhere, when your back arched and you begged him not to stop. But now, in the soft quiet, with morning somewhere close on the horizon, it hits you. So you reach for the blanket, dragging it up your chest like modesty matters, like you didnât spend the whole night unraveling beneath him.
Minho sees. Of course he sees.
And he smiles.
That slow, crooked thing. The one that doesnât show teeth but somehow says everything.
âOh?â he murmurs, placing the water on the nightstand before crawling back into bed. âNow youâre shy?â
You donât answer. Just burrow into the pillow, cheeks hot. He slips beneath the duvet anywayâdoesnât give you a choice. Just tugs it down again with a smug little hum, eyes flicking across your face like heâs trying to memorize the exact shade of your embarrassment.
âI like the marks,â he says softly, pressing a kiss to your bare shoulder. âWish youâd left more.â
You blink at him. He just keeps goingâslow, lazy kisses trailed down your arm, his body curling around yours like he canât bear the distance. One arm loops under your waist. The other hooks over your thigh. And then heâs half on top of you, all weight and warmth and him. Clingy.
He tucks his face into your neck like itâs the only place he knows how to breathe. His nose nuzzles behind your ear, lips brushing the shell of it when he speaks againâlow, slurred, thick with sleep and smugness.
âGonna have to start wearing long sleeves to work.â
You choke on a breath, eyes fluttering open. âBecause of me?â
âMm.â He kisses your jaw. âUnless I want to get fired.â
You raise an eyebrow. "You work at a bar, not an office."
âYeah,â Minho hums, lazy and amused. âBut people tip more when Iâm unmarked.â
The words slip out casual, offhandâlike a throwaway comment he doesnât mean anything by.
But your smile falters anyway.
Just a flicker. Just enough for him to see it.
You shift beneath him, eyes drifting away, teeth catching your lower lip before you can stop the twist of something sour in your gut. You donât say anythingânot right awayâbut your silence says enough.
Minho stills.
Then lifts his head, just barely, so he can see your face.
âHey.â
You blink up at him, startled by the sudden seriousness in his voice.
âDoes it bother you?â he asks, tone low. Honest. âBecause Iâll quit.â
Your heart stutters.
âWhat?â
âI mean it.â His hand slides up to cup your jaw, thumb brushing the corner of your mouth. âIf you donât like itâme working there, people flirting, whateverâIâll quit. I donât give a fuck about the tips.â
You open your mouth, but he cuts you off before you can answer.
âI only took that job to kill time. To pay rent. But youââ His brow furrows. âYouâre not something Iâm willing to risk for a few extra bills thrown in a jar.â
You swallow hard.
He watches you.
Your eyes search his faceâhis furrowed brow, the firm set of his mouth, the dark smudge of sleep still softening the corners of his eyesâand thereâs no doubt. No teasing in his voice, no smirk on his lips. Just Minho. Serious. Steady. Unflinching in his honesty.
âIâd rather be yours than anyoneâs favorite bartender,â he says, quieter this time.
Your throat tightens.
And for a second, you canât speak. You can only stare, caught between the weight of his words and the way his fingers stay curled so gently around your jawâlike you might vanish if he lets go.
You whisper, âI donât want you to quit.â
He waits.
You blink slowly, pulling in a breath thick with the scent of him, the warmth of his body still heavy across yours. âI just didnât like the idea of someone else looking at you like I look at you.â
Minhoâs expression shiftsâbarely, but you feel it. Something in his chest loosens. His eyes soften, flicking between yours.
âNo one else gets to,â he says simply. âNot anymore.â
You exhale, shaky with something that feels suspiciously close to relief. âYeah?â
âYeah.â He leans down, brushes his lips against yoursâso soft, so sure. âThey can look all they want. But I go home with your marks on me. I come home to you.â
Your pulse trips. Your hand fists the sheets at your side, but he feels it. Feels the way the tension bleeds out of you when he says it like that. Like a promise.
And then he flops on top of you.
Dead weight. Limbs loose. Hair flopping messily across his forehead as he buries his face in your chest with a dramatic sigh.
You laugh, startled. âMinho!â
âMmm,â he grunts, nuzzling between your breasts. âToo early for serious talks. Thought we were in our post-sex cuddling era.â
You squirm under the sudden weight, still giggling, breath hitching when his cheek brushes the swell of your breast. âWe canât be in our post-sex cuddling era if you suffocate me in it.â
He hums again. Doesnât move.
Just slings an arm over your ribs like a human paperweight, sighs through his nose like heâs never been more at peace. âShhh,â he murmurs, voice thick with sleep. âYou love it.â
You do.
You really, really do.
You let your fingers find his hair, carding gently through the tangled strands at his nape. He melts into it, chest rising and falling slow against your stomach. The silence between you stretchesâsoft, golden, alive with the echo of everything that came before. Of everything that now lingers.
Minho doesnât say anything else for a while. He just breathes you in. Lets you trace lazy shapes along his spine. Lets his lips ghost across your skin every now and then, aimless, unthinking. Like he needs the taste of you to fall asleep.
Eventually, you murmur, âYouâre not really gonna wear long sleeves, are you?â
He snorts into your chest. âHell no.â
âGood,â you whisper.
He hums again, content. Almost purring.
Then, after a beat: âMight even go shirtless.â
You raise an eyebrow. âOh yeah?â
âMmhmm.â His voice is muffled against your skin, low and lazy. âLet âem see everything. Let âem know Iâm taken. Ruined. Whipped.â
You huff a laugh, warm and breathless, chest shifting beneath him. âYouâre not whipped,â you tease, even though your heart trips a little at the word. The way he says it like a badge of honor, like something he wants people to know.
Minho doesnât move. Doesnât even lift his head.
âBabe,â he murmurs, lips brushing your skin with every syllable, âI let you suck a bruise into my neck while my dick was still inside you. I think the juryâs in.â
Your face heats instantly. âOh my godââ
He grins, smug and sleepy and so clearly unrepentant. âShouldâve taken a picture. Hung it behind the bar.â
âYouâre not serious.â
âIâm so serious.â He nuzzles into your sternum, exhales a satisfied sigh. âCaption it: Do not touch. Fed and fucked.â
You groan, dragging a hand over your face. âYouâre insane.â
He chuckles. âIâm in love.â
The words land softer than they should, but firmer than you'd expect. Not casualâcomfortable. Like truth in its final form. And you feel it, all the way down: the weight of his affection, the certainty of it, so tangled up in the ridiculous things he says that it feels like breathing.
You wrap your arms around him, pulling him closer even though thereâs nowhere left for him to go. âYouâre still insane,â you whisper, lips pressed to his hairline.
âAnd youâre stuck with me.â
The truth of it rings out between youânot heavy, not sharp. Just there. Simple. Whole. You are. He is.
His fingers drum a slow beat against your ribs. He studies you for a second longer, then tucks himself back in, face hidden against your skin, every inch of him wrapped around you like a shield.
âGo to sleep,â he murmurs, already halfway there. âWe can fall in love more tomorrow.â
You close your eyes.
And you do.
Itâs been a few weeks.
A few golden, quiet, full-bodied weeksâwhere everything that once felt fragile now feels real. Whole. Yours.
Minho had asked you properlyâbooked out the bar for the night, turned the lights low, played your favorite song on vinyl, and gave you a private bartender show complete with one too many shirtless shaker tricks and your name carved into a lemon twist.
He cooked, too. And kissed you between courses. And pulled you into his lap to askânot casually, not like it was assumedâif youâd be his girlfriend.
You said yes.
Of course you did.
And now you live together. Officially. Your clothes are in his drawers. His toothbrush sits next to yours. He makes you coffee and you fold his laundry and somewhere in the haze of shared spaces and soft kisses, you forgot what it felt like to flinch.
And then it happens fast.
One moment, youâre walking up the blockâhands tucked into your sleeves, heart light from the texts Minho sent not even ten minutes ago.
[Minho] : hurry up[Minho] : wear that thing i like [Minho] : might be drunk by the time you get here if i keep taste-testing the menu
The barâs glowing ahead, amber light spilling out of the windows like warmth. Youâre already rehearsing the way youâll slip onto a barstool, lean over the counter just far enough for him to grab your waist and kiss you across the spill matâ
You werenât expecting him.
The ex.
Slurring your name like a threat. Blocking the sidewalk like a curse you thought youâd buried for good.
And for a second, it startles you. Not because youâre afraidâno, not anymore. But because how dare he.
How dare he still think he has access. How dare he act like the time you spent clawing your way out of the wreckage didnât matter. Like the scars he left didnât teach you how to fight.
You meet his stare.
Voice steady. âGet out of my way.â
âOh, now youâve got a mouth?â he slurs, taking a step forward. âWhat, dick that good it grew you a backbone?â
You don't flinch.
Not when he leans in, not when he sways close enough for you to smell the sour reek of alcohol clinging to his breath like bile. Not even when his voice drops lower, curling around your name like it still belongs to him.
It doesn't.
"You heard me," you say again, firmer this time. "Move."
But he doesn't. He laughs insteadâugly, mean, mouth curled in that old, familiar smirk that used to make your stomach sink.
Now it just makes you angry.
âYou always thought you were better than me,â he sneers, stepping closer, invading your space like he owns it. âActing like you're some fucking saint now, just âcause you got a new dick to suckââ
You move to sidestep him, but his hand shoots outâgrabbing your wrist, hard.
Too hard.
You stumble back with a gasp, shoulder slamming into the brick wall of the alley beside the bar. Pain sparks up your arm, sharp and hot where his fingers dig into your skin.
"Letâgo of meâ"
He doesn't.
His grip tightens.
âDonât fucking walk away from meââ
And then it happens in a blink.
A blur of dark hair, a sharp crack of movement, and suddenly your ex is off you, shoved back so fast and so hard he nearly falls into the curb. The momentum knocks him sideways, but he catches himself, stumbling back with a curse.
Minho steps between you.
Calm.
Controlled.
Lethal.
Minhoâs voice is low. Measured.
âYou have until the count of three.â
Your ex scoffs, bloodshot eyes narrowing. âThe fuck are you gonnaââ
âThree.â
No warning. No buildup.
Just violence.
Minhoâs fist slams into his jaw with a sickening crack, the force of it snapping his head sideways. He stumblesâoff-balance, stunnedâbut Minho doesnât let up. Another punch, straight to the ribs, and you hear the breath leave his lungs in a strangled wheeze.
Your ex hits the ground hard.
But Minhoâs not done.
He drops to one knee beside himâprecise, deliberateâand grabs his hand.
The hand he used on you.
You freeze, breath caught in your throat.
Because you remember.
âThen Iâd take his hand, the one he used on you, and Iâd break every fucking finger. One by one. Slow. Make sure he remembered why.â
And nowâ
Now you watch it unfold in real time.
Minho takes that wrist in both hands, pins it to the pavement, and presses downâhardâuntil your ex screams.
âNoâno, fuckâstopâ!â
Minhoâs grip doesnât waver.
He curls his fingers around one of your exâs.
âFirst one,â he muttersâalmost gently. Like heâs naming something, not destroying it.
Then he bends.
The crack is sharp, grotesque. It splits the air like a firework misfiredâbrief and brutal and final.
Your ex howls, voice cracking as he thrashes beneath Minhoâs knee, but it doesnât matter. Minho doesnât move. Doesnât flinch.
Just shifts to the next finger.
âSecond.â
Another break. Another scream.
You donât look away.
You shouldâmaybe. A part of you knows that. But the rest of you, the part that remembersâremembers shaking hands, bruised ribs, the way your ex used to whisper apologies into your hair while you cried onto the bathroom tileâthat part of you watches.
And breathes.
Minho leans closer.
Not loud. Not unhinged. Just cold.
âThird.â
Crack.
Your ex is crying now. Tears, snot, spitâheâs babbling nonsense, slurring pleads that dissolve into whimpers.
âStopâpleaseâI didnâtâfuck, I didnât meanââ
Minho grabs the fourth finger. âYou meant it every time.â
âFourth,â he says, and the word falls like a guillotine.
He pulls.
The snap is quieter this timeâdeeper, more internal. A tendon giving way. A joint yanked cruelly from its socket. Your ex lets out a broken sound, not quite a scream anymore. Not loud. Just raw. Hollow. The kind of sound a man makes when he realizes no oneâs coming to save him.
Minho still hasnât raised his voice.
Hasnât needed to.
Because this isnât rage. It isnât revenge.
Itâs justice.
Delivered slow. Delivered steady. Delivered by the man who saw every crack in you and loved you anywayâespecially because you survived them.
Minho shifts again.
âFifth.â
âNo,â your ex gasps, eyes rolling, lips slick with blood from where he mustâve bitten through them. âNoâno more, Iâplease, please, Iââ
But Minhoâs hand is already there, curling around that last finger like a closing grave.
And this time, he doesnât say anything.
He just looks at himâright in the eyes. Like he wants this to be the last thing your ex ever remembers when he reaches for something in the dark.
Then he snaps it clean.
The sound is sickening.
The scream is hoarse. Shredded. Barely human.
âTouch her again,â Minho murmurs, bending the wrist back until the guy writhes, âand Iâll break your fucking spine next.â
And finallyâfinallyâMinho lets go.
He rises slowly, like heâs not rushing to leave the wreckage behind, like he wants your ex to feel every second of what it means to be beneath him. A shadow cast by justice. A reminder that some hands donât healâthey answer.
He turns to you.
And all of itâthe sharpness, the stillness, the steel in his spineâit bleeds away when his eyes meet yours.
He sees the shock there, the tremble hiding in your shoulders.
And he moves to youânot with fire this time, but with the same careful quiet he always gives you after storms. Hands gentle. Expression softer now, but no less certain.
âYou okay?â he murmurs, brushing a thumb over your cheek.
You nodâbut itâs shallow. Fragile.
So he cups your face in both hands, grounding you.
âLook at me,â he says. âYouâre safe. Youâre safe now.â
And you know it's true.
Because he is here.
Behind you, the sirens wail.

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