Nov 20, 2022
being limerent is one of the worst parts of my avpd. like, on a logical level i know that my high school crush has long forgotten about me, but i still pine for him like i'm still 17. like a part of me is still stuck at that moment in time.
you know what is funny, i went to my laundry and there was an advert (poster) hung up with him on it. i wish i were kidding, the first time i saw it i thought i was having a mental breakdown. but he is involved in some local creative field, so there he was beaming down at me from the poster like some cruel joke. and due to covid the poster stayed up for literally 2 or so years.
anyway, avpd gave me brain damage, it really did.
