#librans

(Part 1): My placements/signs and how I feel like I manifest them in terms of relationships, intimacy, and power-play (brutally honest):

Mars Square Pluto: I notice that it doesn't take much to anger me, one has to be very careful not to disrespect me because I WILL unleash an anger that is often disproportionate to the situation, often because of pent-up trauma and bad past experiences, especially pertaining to dating. It can be very hard for me to control it and I like the sense of vitality that it gives me. For example, I do tend to channel it out through aggressive weight-training, power yoga, etc to not let it get out of hand. Something small can give me tremendous anger. This aspect also helps me protect myself from people that do tend to take advantage of me (it pushes me to "rip off the bandaid" and tell people what's on my mind that upsets me). When I was younger, I suppressed this part of myself and thus became very, very socially inhibited. Now I know why I was🤪

Pluto in 7th house: I tend to be unlucky in love. I do tend to attract a lot of guys that project their s**t on me. I'm trying to find someone good for me but it constantly feels like I'm being pulled into a world I don't necessarily want to be a part of by the guys I attract. I tend to attract guys that are insecure, heartbroken, angry, etc. I don't know what this says about me personally but I read that what you attract is a reflection of you and in combination with my other aspects I can see that this is my problem

Venus conjunct lilith: apparently it's supposed to give me a "femme fatale" vibe. I can definitely say that it does feel like I'm flirting a lot of the time like it's my personality and need to make a conscious effort to suppress that sometimes. I tend to have a line up of guys and I don't know how I feel about that but I like seducing the ones I like because it makes me feel good and dominant and I think it's a healthy way to let those needs out. Guys tell me I look innocent and cute at first (the Venus side, I guess). I like to please in the sense that I like to play the dangerous game and try to get them in trouble at, say, school or work in the way they like. However, I absolutely refuse to be subservient to guys. I don't like to be dominated most of the time. I like to be the one to dominate/seduce. I have to be careful with this aspect haha

Mars in Pisces: this gives one increased empathy skills, and I need to be careful not to use what I can intuitively sense from others in order to manipulate them into giving me what I want because it can be easy to when you want something or someone bad 🤪 Instead, I've been trying to use this energy to relate to others more warmly using my sense of empathy even though Mars Square Pluto may not be happy sometimes and my Venus conjunct lilith feels the urge to seduce to get someone I like to like me back

Moon in Virgo: these people can be sexually repressed, I read. They may want it badly but can be awkward at expressing it in terms of physical intimacy (I personally find this is true, but once I'm comfortable, other aspects of my chart seem to take over)

Moon in 5th house: this aspect is related to other things maybe, but with regard to the love game it can make one a bit of a player, a rebel in love, and fearful towards having children of their own. I think no one can deny that I am a player and when it comes to having children I don't think I have much of a maternal instinct and would personally feel worried for my children if I had them

Venus in Sagittarius: okay this makes me somewhat of an explorer when it comes to dating I guess, someone "adventurous" and open-minded. I guess that's true, I met quite a few guys from different backgrounds on Tinder and have been open towards differing interests/tastes (e.g. music) than mine. In fact, I like diversity in some cases

Lilith in 8th house: I tend to like the dark aspects of sexuality a lot, kind of see them as parts that one ought to simply accept as not doing so can lead to trouble and unhealthy anxiety/escapes. This is why I'm honest about it even though it may make me look like a bad person in love. I want love-making to be out of this world, dark, like you're purging out all your anger and parts of yourself that are taboo. I will not be content with less! I also speak out against sexual abuse and sexual dishonesty a lot on my social media (e.g. through poems).

Venus in 8th house: so this to me is kind of similar to Lilith in 8th House since it also enforces me being attracted to the darker aspects of sexuality. However, Venus in 8th House, from what I've read, is apparently guarded when it comes to physical intimacy and I this is very true for me. I find it easy to flirt on DM but very awkward to flirt in real life, like there's a thick barrier a guy must cross in order to access my intense, super-charged sexuality. We apparently also attract horny weird guys and get sexualized and I guess that's true as well. Like when I go out sometimes, even just out for a walk in my "safe" neighborhood, I feel a bit paranoid because I get glances from guys in the summer and a few coming up to me asking for my Snapchat when good is the last thing I tried to look

Sun signs of guys that didn't know what to do with me: Cancer, Libra

Aspects of people that can take me or understand me a little:

- Mars opposite Pluto

- Moon square Pluto

- Taurus moon

Sun signs of guys that I attract a lot of: VIRGO, Aries, Libra, and Pisces

Sun signs of guys that ended harshly more than once: TAURUS, Pisces, Leo

so like very true and yea i still love him tho even tho he hate me lol fuck

- Mars Square Pluto: anger can be explosive. Keeping it in is not good for them. They often absolutely NEED an outlet, like weight-training. Their anger can destroy everything. Anything is possible with their anger and their anger can help them achieve goals, run a thousand miles, PR at the gym, etc. It translates into an ebb and flow of physical vitality. Their energy can scare off/intimidate others. It can be mixed in with a sexual aggressive kind of energy and they may be seen as a dangerous sexual being by others and they are certainly not one to f**k with in bed, let me tell you because they can f**k your brains out if you provoke and when they show their true colors. If you ever wonder how they feel, they feel like a volcano, to be honest. Wow I'm roasting myself here

- Mars Square Neptune: their anger and resentment can build up over time and does have the potential to be explosive when they feel they have not been assertive enough; they have this internal struggle where they want to appear like someone not to f**k with to balance their apathy/lack of self-assertion they display at other times. I wouldn't say that this is as dangerous at all as Mars Square Pluto, although these people are certainly capable of blowing up as well but in a far less destructive sense. Their anger is not really as long-lasting. Think of a far gentler volcano than Mars Square Pluto's.

- Mars opposite Saturn: I would say that these people exude the type of anger that makes you want to respect them. That kind of anger that's dignified and diplomatic if they have Libran placements in their chart as well. With Libran placements, they fight for what they believe in, and when what they believe in is challenged, they will erupt a little but to prove a point. They can hold onto anger for a while, though. They may feel like they're not good enough and that they have to work harder.

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