#leeminder

I am not the person I was this time last year. I feel whole. I feel okay with myself. For what’s been almost decade, I don’t feel utter hatred towards myself. I am far from perfect, but that’s okay. I forgive myself and I hope people who have been there along the way can forgive me for the hurt I inflicted. All I want to do is love and I have so much space for love, kindness and joy in my heart right now. I have not felt this happy in a long time. I feel like myself and that’s the biggest gift I could’ve asked for this year. Yes, it took meds, but they lifted the fog and the darkness that was eating away at every fiber of my soul. 

I think the biggest gift I could have given myself this year and every year actually was to believe just enough in myself to do things I never thought possible. This year it was just surviving and staying alive, but somehow I managed to do so much more than that and even though I never really feel pride or love for myself. I still understand that I should be proud of myself and consider myself just enough to forgive myself and care for myself. 

We are all reacting in very crazy ways to the extreme ambient stress we are bathing in and sometimes it even feels like we are regressing on shit we thought we were making progress on. I see it in everyone around me and of course, I’m experiencing it very extremely these days. It’s like this context is putting a magnifying glass on every issue that was there before and just making it worse.

- chaotic hipbone anon)

My pleasure!!! I think we all need these type of reminders from time to time. Like we are all doing our best, but sometimes we get caught up in our every day lives and beat ourselves up instead of supporting and loving ourselves through it all. I have to remind myself of this every day and I will use any opportunity to remind anyone else as well!!!

This is really me saying this to anyone who needs it lol