#lee-sol

ㅤbyan's family (biological, adopted, & found); feat. sol, the boyfriend (@lee-sol); lena, the older sister (@chronal-anomaly); ardaka, the parental sibling figure (@apexulansis); kit, the (sort of but not technically) younger sister (@florafound); garrett, the vaguely guardian-esque figure (@gnarledbite); & dox, the mom (@grimesucker)

    * ( @lee-sol )  ─  one liner.

ㅤyour hobbies have never been what others expected of you, and though you used to try to meet those expectations, nothing you did ever seemed to be good enough... so eventually, you started leaning in the opposite direction. you embraced the things you enjoyed despite the disdain cast your way and, in all your anger, you also found yourself taking enjoyment in more destructive uses of your time, in the sorts of activities that were perfect for making use of all those emotions you bottled up for so long. nowadays, your hobbies are a strange mishmash of creation and destruction — from drawing and painting, stick & poke tattooing, creating new outfits to suit your style, and experimenting with makeup to getting high, parkouring your way across the city, playing with fire, breaking anything that isn't yours, and picking fights with anyone who looks at you the wrong way. you know you should probably put more of your effort in to some of these over others, but you stopped caring about what you should and shouldn't do at about the same time you realized that your life never meant anything to those around you anyway.

ㅤㅤ" it was great babe, thanks so much for askin'. "

ㅤit's not somewhere you ever thought you'd be, in a committed relationship with one person. in love. you've always been alone and you thought you'd always stay that way, but here he is... caring about you, even though he was never supposed to. you let yourself take a risk and, for once, it's paid off. for once, it didn't end in the abandonment you're accustomed to. instead, you're... happy. you're not alone. you feel like a real person. he makes you feel like a real person for the first time in your life and you know that he loves you just as much as you love him, and it... still scares you, sometimes. you still don't think you deserve him, nor all that he's done for you, but you're so overwhelmingly grateful for it all the same.ㅤㅤ(temp)

ㅤㅤ" fuuuuck, this is good. beats the absolute hell outta any pizza joint i've ever eaten at. —y'sure that coffee's your passion? 'cause we could open a hella successful restaurant of our own with this shit, i ain't even jokin'. "

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ㅤfood has never been guaranteed every day, and when you've spent almost your entire seventeen years not sure if you'll have dinner provided for you or if you'll have to figure something out for yourself... you improvise. you rely heavily on food that's inexpensive and food that's relatively easy to tuck inside your jacket as you slip out of the store. you make a habit of grabbing the things you know you like, the things that bring you a glimpse of happiness, because eating whatever you can get your hands on in order to survive is miserable. you know this from experience. these days, providing for yourself is a little easier — sometimes you even have a bit of cash to spend on some fast food, something closer to a real meal — and while you may not be eating the healthiest, at least you're not hating every second of it. at least there's some enjoyment to be found in the sliver of control you've managed to gain over your own diet.