Wanted to write about my plan for a new lifestyle, new habits, new life...
I just couldn't. I have already been thinking about new plans new resolutions for too long. I'm just tired of giving up, giving in to failure each time I set my mind to take control of my life. But I just keep failing and failing again. I hate myself for being weak, I wish I could get back the way I were before everything changed. But it's too late. I've damaged evreything I touched, I've been lying to everyone, even myself, especially myself ! I don't recognise myself anymore, I hate myself more and more.
I hate every part of me, every inch of, every thought of me, Wish I just could stop breathing and ending this just like that. But I'm not strong not even for that!
I've been thinking about what could be the source of all my problems, but apparently I can't seem to find the right solution.
Please someone tells me that tomorrow will be a new start, Please tell me I'll change once and for all !!
"I swear to you I'll never eat again" Self-Fulfilling Prophecy, Maria Mena