#kingerfictive

No, I don’t have a resilient mind. I’m just as traumatized as the rest of them. There’s so much pain in my soul and my heart that I want to scream. But I can’t. I always put others before myself. Caine, Queenie, Ragatha, Pomni- I put all of them before me. It’s just instinct now, to bury every negative emotion. To bury my fear. As long as no one sees it, it isn’t real to them. And that’s what I prefer, because they won’t ever have to worry about me.

Even if I’m all but physically abstracted, like a walking corpse that no one has smelled the decay on yet. The almost complete loss of my memories in the light, the way I wander aimlessly.

…I bet they’d think I’m faking. I know at least a few of them did. Like it’s a coping mechanism. But not something real, not something that I need to be helped with. I made it this far on my own. Why would I need anyone’s help now?

I don’t need help. I have a resilient mind.

- Kinger, The Amazing Digital Circus

(please tag as fictive)

- Kinger (from TADC, please tag as fictive)

(P.S. I have a room now! A dark little closet. Writing is so much easier. I'm doing well, or as well as I can be. I'm hoping the same for the rest of you.)

- Kinger (fictive from the amazing digital circus)

He wanted to make sure everyone is okay, and let everyone know he cares about them.

Hope everyone is doing well!

(Please tag as #kingerfictive ! Thank you mpc)

when i say i care about all from the circus and believe they're all strong, i mean all.

even caine! no, ESPECIALLY caine. i know the others saw me as this insane old man, but caine didn't seem to mind. and i actually really enjoyed his adventures! i think he made sure to slip in things i would enjoy, actually. why else would there be random insects all over? although that may be my wishful thinking.

i hope he's doing alright.

- kinger (fictive, tadc)

- kinger ( tadc, fictive )

But you know, it’s really funny how I remember everyone’s voices so differently than how the pilot shown everyone. There’s a fanmade tadc song that exactly has the voices correctly.

OH ALSO UPDATE!! I recently found out in our system we have the Sun and Bubble! We have Ragatha, and two kingers, classic! Kinger and a horror au! Kinger, we also have horror! Gangle, and Ragatha is SUCH A SWEETHEART. She’s one of our caretakers and I appreciate her so much, she does a lot for us. Sun and Bubble are recently formed, we also have someone that’s new but she hasn’t appeared in an episode yet, we don’t exactly know her name.

Also for anyone who may still be reading this and is from my source, hello! I miss you all dearly, if I treated you horribly I very much apologize for that on my end. I really tried my best to take care of everything that was going on, and if I hurt you in any way, it was NEVER my intention. But I love you all SO SO SO SOOO MUCH. I see you as my own children. So please, take care of yourself her in this life!

Don’t freat the little things that happened during source, no matter what you’ve done, it’s forgiven and in the past. This goes for everyone else that isn’t from my source as well! You better hydrate yourself, and make this life worth a living! Even if you hate it, I’m sure there’s little things you can do here that you like.

Although, I feel bad for… all of the ones who were abstracted. I remember I had some kind of book about them where I studied, and see if there was a way to undo it all. I did all that I could.

I also hope the fandom doesn’t see me as a villain anymore, I remember the first few weeks of my source being published I remember reading “theories” about how I am one. It just hurt to see, because I didn’t want to hurt anyone for that matter. I wanted them to live out happily, because truth is I had no idea how they arrived at the circus, but it wasn’t my fault that I know of. That’s for sure.

I again apologize for how long this is 😭 I’m just so happy at this moment because this past week has been awful for me. I haven’t done a rant like this in ages. -Caine (TADC) #🎡🎩