#ragathafictive

I dont wanna like him i dont wanna love him he drives me INSANE and yet-

Sigh. I JUST wanna make things up. I was too pushy i know i was i was just worried i was so so worried and i didnt want him to abstract too i didnt want him to hurt people or be hurt and alone himself snd

Sorry for the word vomit i just. I wish i had done better

Wish i hadnt failed him.

Gosh how i miss him

Tldr: ragatha fictive's jax lovemail turns to breakdown csuse it always does.

(Ragatha fictive) #🧶🪡

Jax, I’m still so so sorry for what I’ve said while we were stargazing. I really shouldn’t have brought that up. I’m also VERY sorry to Pomni, I was too hung up in my jealousy when you were hanging out with Jax more instead of me. I’m sorry for being a little possessive about that, and I shouldn’t be telling you who to talk to and who to not talk to. I’m honestly glad that Jax opens up to you more when you do talk to him anyway.

The both of you don’t have to forgive me at all, I completely understand if you don’t.

-Ragatha (TADC) #FICTIVE, and part of #🌙🪦

But you know, it’s really funny how I remember everyone’s voices so differently than how the pilot shown everyone. There’s a fanmade tadc song that exactly has the voices correctly.

OH ALSO UPDATE!! I recently found out in our system we have the Sun and Bubble! We have Ragatha, and two kingers, classic! Kinger and a horror au! Kinger, we also have horror! Gangle, and Ragatha is SUCH A SWEETHEART. She’s one of our caretakers and I appreciate her so much, she does a lot for us. Sun and Bubble are recently formed, we also have someone that’s new but she hasn’t appeared in an episode yet, we don’t exactly know her name.

Also for anyone who may still be reading this and is from my source, hello! I miss you all dearly, if I treated you horribly I very much apologize for that on my end. I really tried my best to take care of everything that was going on, and if I hurt you in any way, it was NEVER my intention. But I love you all SO SO SO SOOO MUCH. I see you as my own children. So please, take care of yourself her in this life!

Don’t freat the little things that happened during source, no matter what you’ve done, it’s forgiven and in the past. This goes for everyone else that isn’t from my source as well! You better hydrate yourself, and make this life worth a living! Even if you hate it, I’m sure there’s little things you can do here that you like.

Although, I feel bad for… all of the ones who were abstracted. I remember I had some kind of book about them where I studied, and see if there was a way to undo it all. I did all that I could.

I also hope the fandom doesn’t see me as a villain anymore, I remember the first few weeks of my source being published I remember reading “theories” about how I am one. It just hurt to see, because I didn’t want to hurt anyone for that matter. I wanted them to live out happily, because truth is I had no idea how they arrived at the circus, but it wasn’t my fault that I know of. That’s for sure.

I again apologize for how long this is 😭 I’m just so happy at this moment because this past week has been awful for me. I haven’t done a rant like this in ages. -Caine (TADC) #🎡🎩