#kinaya

-I remembered an argument with Vriska in my Kanaya timeline - I’m guessing it was us meeting in the dream bubbles, we were arguing about what she did to me and Tavros. It opened up with me somewhere bright, and I was still readjusting, trying to figure out where/when I was when I heard her say “Hellooooooo, are you there? you look like you’ve seen a ghost” to which I blinked a bit, stunned, and replied back “yes, well... perhaps that is because I have.”

the memory skipped to me yelling at her because of ‘what she made me do to Tavros’ (Im assuming I meant in a circumstantial sense? idk) and she tried to counterpoint with ‘well, yeah 8ut look where you are now! where would you 8e if I hadn’t done that?’ (she gestured at my godtier robes) I bit back bitterly “I’d still be dead, but maybe then we’d be meeting under nicer circumstances.”

some of this is paraphrased but that was as clear as my understanding of it was. (the ‘seen a ghost’ bit, ‘what [she] made me do to tavros’ bit, and at least the first half of ‘id still be dead’ are all accurate, the others are pretttttty close to accurate I think)

-I also remembered a brief fragment of my Gamzee timeline, with Sollux - I was laying w my head in his lap, and he was on his computer, though I think he was occasionally playing with/petting my hair. I said to him, “Hey Sol” and he responded with, “yea Gamz?” while still doing whatever he was doing on the computer. I started to ask him something, something like “Why/how do you think people-----?” (I couldn’t remember the rest of the question. I vaguely remember him starting to respond, like “hmm, well probably because” but I never recalled the rest of it.:/ )

-and I decided to try to remember my Dave tl, an interaction with Karkat which..... sucked. 

I remembered the tail end of... an argument? not exactly, but I guess I said SOMEthing to him when he was upset about something, and he misinterpreted it and flew off the handle at me (I feel like it was before we knew each other well). I dont’ remember exact wording for this one at all but I remember it being related to how I’m normally this unaffected cool kid or something? or maybe about how I never take things seriously or w/e, and he told me to just fuck off and leave him alone (I especially remember the ‘fuck’ part of ‘fuck off’).

I remember just sort of.... freezing up, kind of, and blinking for a moment, before just responding back ‘ok’, and fucking off as instructed, to some other part of the meteor. I wanted to explain to him that he misunderstood but his words hit me so hard I couldn’t bring myself to bother, and what did it matter anyways. I think he realized I was actually upset, I think? I saw him falter when I turned to leave but I didn’t hang back, probably in case it was just wishful thinking. I do feel like he sought me out later to talk about what happened, though. So it didn’t end terrible but also that was NOT the kind of memory I was looking for so now I’m kinda sad.

(I was hoping to remember something I could use for future canoncalls but somehow I don’t think ‘hey remember that time I messed up and said something dumb and you got legit angry and screamed at me to fuck off’ isn’t gonna be helpful, or the sorta thing anyone would know to look for. plus that’s probably standard fare for any dave and karkat interactions tbh)

I’m a Jazz Vampire - Marion Harris (yt link) (gonna be removing this one in all likelihood)

Corridor of Time - Yasunori Mitsuda (yt link)

Protectors of the Earth - Two Steps From Hell (yt link)

Skin - Grimes (yt link)

Chouwa oto - kokia (yt link)

Primavera - Ludovico Einaudi (yt link)

Run to You - Pentatonix (yt link)