#killerkin

and pretty much every single major au was there except for mine

the person making the video said they had to cut out some aus for time management and i get that

but it just. stings, y’know? All my friends were there and i was even mentioned once, but other than that, nothing.

no hate on the creator ofc, just. I kinda feel like i was just left out of something that everyone else got to be included in, and it doesn’t feel particularly good.

-kille (utmv), #💛👾

-chara (undertale), killer (utmv) #💛👾

such an honor…

-killer (utmv) #💛👾

-killer (utmv) #💛👾

-killer (utmv), #💛👾

now to figure out what the fuck exactly was going on with us…

-killer (utmv) #💛👾

this isn’t gonna be in any way neat or sorted out, i’m just gonna write whatever comes to mind lol

I actually have a heartlocket in this life!! It doesn’t have anything currently in it, but I stim with it a lot whenever I don’t know what to do with my hands. It’s silver, I can’t remember whether the one I had back then was silver or gold.

any yellow/golden flowers

knives

bows/ribbons

yellow raincoats

not rly an object but rain/fog in general reminds me of the pale city

just robots in general i guess

anything related to christmas

-chara (undertale), killer (utmv), cyn (murder drones), six (little nightmares), noelle (deltarune) #💛👾

i feel like with all my other kintypes i can clearly see myself in how they act — or rather, see them in how i act now, i guess

but killer? I feel like he’s the first kintype who’s like. Really different from me now. And yeah i went through A Lot Of Shit in that canon so ofc i’m not gonna act exactly the same anymore

but still. Something about it rubs me the wrong way. I feel like i’m almost too different from him in some way. Not too different to be him, not in that way, just-

i feel like if i met my gang again, they might not recognize me. They’d think i’ve changed too much. Or at least something like that.

i know that that’s stupid. I know realistically they’d perfectly understand since they’re living different lives too, yadda yadda, but I can’t help but doubt myself.

-killer (utmv) #💛👾