#kill me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love being a piece of shit loser with no goals and no plans and no follow through and no money!!!!!!!!!

once i'm done with this fuckass thesis i'll write the most self-indulgent rpf smut the whole of ao3 has ever seen

if I check myself into the ER then my parents will just tell me I'm putting them in more medical debt and am just being selfish and impatient. my whole family thinks I'm selfish for thinking about myself during all of this bc “you’re dad is going through much worse” and that pisses me the fuck off. I'm not trying to compare what I'm going through to what my dad is going through. I just want to not hurt anymore. it doesn't matter what I do here, I never feel better. being in this place surrounded by my family is killing me. they don't care and that’s that, and I deserve better than that.

why do I keep making so many personal posts when no one cares you ask ! well ! what else am I supposed to do ! deal with my problems ! no way !

WHAT HE BASHED EVERYONES HEAD IN?!?!?! NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO