istfg if that blue haired twink comes back again i will personally strangle the fairy tail mangaka

how i feel after spending half an hour on my hair for no fucking reason

watching fairy tail when i was little was genuinely the best thing that has happened to me

gosh its been so long since i wrote anything here. not really much has happened i dont think. i got super into malice mizer (my favorite album is memoire) and i feel like a vkei larp since theyre so popular... whatever ill get into other bands eventually im just not ready. ive gotten a bit into moi dix moix.

ive also been sorta "cooking" like food i just make spam with scrambled eggs i call it spambled eggs(get it haha) i swear its good and i make it while listening to memoire. every morning, more like lunch but whatever.

i started adhd meds and i cant tell if theyre working or not since i havent been doing anything productive. i dont think so since ive been moving around the same clothes on my floor like all day...

of course ive been playing genshin, im a little mad about the quests in snezhnaya theyre everywhere and dont ever leave me alone... its fine because i got arlecchinos sig and now she is C1, R1 AND triple crowned finally, alongside rosaria. im so happy i got her sig its awesome i might need better artifacts for her. or a better team... but i wont since i LOVE her current team i dont care if it sucks, hot women are hot women, yes jean does nothing, no im not replacing her...yet. depends on the upcoming characters. danica's skirt is ugly but i love the rest of her and if her kit is good im def pulling i dont even care.

i also started learning japanese on duolingo holy chud whatever im on section 2 unit 3, im hype for unit 4 since thats shopping and ill actually use it im tired of these shitty translate features. i want to do duolingo a lot more but i do it at like 12:01 every day so i dont forget and then my brain gets fried its stupid.

ooh today i went out somewhere with my mom and there was a pop up like garage sale thing in a parking lot so obviously i had to go and there were so many gems, not my style tho but i got a beautiful crushed velvet dress for 1 dollar.... crazy... its a little busted but i can fix it and it is a bit tight but its fine and i can fix the back, theres a slit thing and its too high but easy fix.

tomorrow im going to dye my hair black, i will miss my current hair color, a weird dark orange very warm tone brown, it looks good with other styles not jirai, but i want it black at least for the school photo that i will have taken on tuesday im so scared. i dont think ill know anyone there.... unsure.... very scared.... but i also finally opened my color contacts to maybe wear in my school photo, depends how crazy i look, shoudnt be too much since theyre just 14.5 i think. tomorrow i will be true eve jirai maybe or ill be called an asianfisher by my sister....

speaking of jirai i bought my 6th canmake eyeliner, this time shade 7 i think, the dark purple red one and like what was i doing before.... its so good. i also need another heroine make liquid eyeliner but theyre like 10-15 dollars... no thanks

i had a sleepover with 2 of my friends last night, at my house (mid) and it was a lot of fun they were drawing and stuff. i wish i could draw like genuine stuff in front of other people but i just cant its so annoying. no ideas and too scared to find them. i just need to practice more on my own which i am slightly more motivated to do now.

i sewed an egl bonnet thing idk what to call it but its rediculously tall and ill never wear it but i like holding it and it was fun to make so yay. i really wanted to get into egl for a few days and then i went back to jirai its just easiest and awesome. i also like my style before i went full jirai. ive gone out in it 2 times in the past week and the first time i felt more uncomfortable in it than i do jirai which is strange bc i didnt get any dirty looks or photos taken of me. i think its just a personal thing for me but that style is so comfortable and much lower effort than jirai. whenever i dont feel like doing my hair which is the most annoying part of jirai for me, even though its not that difficult it can just go so wrong. my jirai bangs have been so good recently i wish the hairspray lasted forever, same with my foundation i think its the powder tho and i need setting spray. maybe tmrw i will get setting spray... maybe... i already have powder i know works better so ill use that

school is so tiring i hope the earth combusts soon

i hate living

yayy i just got home from school ! ! it is so fucking hot , it ' s been in the 70s and higher since this morning ;w;

the more self aware i become the more disgusted i am with myself