#khey

Dear Diary, 

Today I woke up beside Shiranai; yet again. Earlier before nightfall, an hour or two before we had a conversation by the fountain. He kept apologizing, telling me that he felt awful; he felt so bad. He kept saying sorry... 

We kissed. A kiss that revived us both, it struck us both in the heart, but a kiss that also ventured to the back of my mind, hitting me with reality. Lips that were not only mine; but also Aliseras'. 

Our hands latched together, and we pressed up against one another; and although all of that happened, I managed to come out with the words, "I am going to be honest with you... I can not do this." 

He ended up letting out this wicked laugh; falling into the shadows and leaving. My heart broke, and I swore that I would not let him in, or near me. However, I also had an encounter with Alexandral Blackfyre and his Lady friend. 

A name I do not quite remember, and I doubt I would like to be wrong; which leaves the guessing game out of this. We were talking, and I was trying to joke around. When, suddenly; Shiranai swooped me off of my feet and sprinted away. 

Away into the Square, where him and I stood within the small sitting area. He apologized more and more, but he also said that what I said was uncalled for. I tried hard to keep my guards up, to not let him hit me. 

But he did. 

Each word was sincere, and I knew it. He did cheat, and he did... have sex with Aliseras twice, which I find funny because him and I only had sex once- but I also find it... irritable. 

What gave him the right to do that?

What gave me the right to let him back in? 

I told him that if he really means it then he better be the person I last see when I fall asleep, and the first I awake to... He was there, in bed with me. From night to day, and I could not help but feel the love again, he told me yesterday that he loves me. 

Maybe I am a fool for letting him back in, perhaps I am a fool for letting a cheater in, but who am I to judge? I have made a married man love me before, a married man kiss me and hold me before; I am no different. 

...There was this Tauren that stood there and made jokes about us, I tried to ignore him as much as I could, but what I learned of the giant cow was that he was not holy at all. 

Yours Truly,

Aliseras crashed Khey's early morning tailor-date with what new outfits she could wear, and what was definitely disgusting and out of the picture. Alis and Khey had conversed about something that went down recently, and for some reason- it should have hurt Khey more than Alis. 

Khey flopped onto the bed, turning with her hand tucking beneath her head; keeping her head up. "I'm just sick of goodbyes." She looks into Alis' eyes, moving a hand against the mattress and near her chest. "I saw it coming, you two kissed and I wasn't around to gvie him the time he deserves... We lost our connection the moment I lost myself. I'm not made for a relationship. It's not who I am apparently." She shrugs her shoulders. 

Alis stood over her, a hand behind her head and the other in her pocket. "You aren't mad at me, you aren't mad at him?.. I didn't mean to take him from you, I'm sorry for doing that--"

"You didn't take him from me. I lost him in the beginning, I was too greedy to really let him go. Send Shiranai my best regards, and send him a hug from me. Make sure him and I are still friends, alright? He makes for good company."

Alis sucked in a spike of early air, and nodded. "I can send him a letter, I need to finish some stuff with Eva'liera. She shouldn't have pissed me of--"

"You promised that you would stop your pirate shennanigans?" 

"I did, when I thought I had a truthful buddy out there."

"Don't die."

"I don't plan on it. Go talk to Shiranai, he's in my new apartment..I'm.."

"No more sorries, I'm happy for you. I'm about work, not dating. Him and I have no connection anymore, and if he cries then, well. Expect a small goodbye kiss." 

Khey'endria wrote a letter, setting it on the middle of the dining room table. 

"Dear Roommates, 

I will be gone for a few days; I need to clear my mind. I need to forget about some things, some people. Some memories. I need to work on finding myself, and I apologize for this note being so random.. But, I will be at the home in Pandaria. 

I will be safe, and I do have my communicator as well. I put the house in charge beneath Aliseras as I am gone, if anyone questions where I am; tell them this exact reason. 

Much love, 

Khey'endria V."

I looked around the smaller house in Pandaria, taking in the one stair case that barely had eight steps to it. Walking up the wood, looking at the bedroom that was just... there. Everything was more simple. More.. vacant, but it had closure. Something that I had to find.