#ssavel

-OOC : 11:11, make a wish. 

alright so jon works out, right? and i do too, but i don't watch what i eat / i devour food like a monster truck. 

SO JON HAS THESE SERIOUSLY SEXY MUSCLES AND WHENEVER HE HAS FOOD OVER SKYPE, HE'S LIKE; "I have ____<HEALTHY FOOD>___" and I'm over here like...

"my brother is getting me taco bell."

but no matter what, i will always hear- 

"DO IT FOR THE GAINS, AUN! DO IT!" 

-HUGS TUMBLR TIGHTLY.-

I'm debating on fighting for my account, and Jon is telling me that I should but I don't have the balls to. I'm aggressive at times, but when it comes to Blizzard and live web camming or phone calling it's like...

"...Hey... Uhm."

Dear Diary, 

Today I woke up beside Shiranai; yet again. Earlier before nightfall, an hour or two before we had a conversation by the fountain. He kept apologizing, telling me that he felt awful; he felt so bad. He kept saying sorry... 

We kissed. A kiss that revived us both, it struck us both in the heart, but a kiss that also ventured to the back of my mind, hitting me with reality. Lips that were not only mine; but also Aliseras'. 

Our hands latched together, and we pressed up against one another; and although all of that happened, I managed to come out with the words, "I am going to be honest with you... I can not do this." 

He ended up letting out this wicked laugh; falling into the shadows and leaving. My heart broke, and I swore that I would not let him in, or near me. However, I also had an encounter with Alexandral Blackfyre and his Lady friend. 

A name I do not quite remember, and I doubt I would like to be wrong; which leaves the guessing game out of this. We were talking, and I was trying to joke around. When, suddenly; Shiranai swooped me off of my feet and sprinted away. 

Away into the Square, where him and I stood within the small sitting area. He apologized more and more, but he also said that what I said was uncalled for. I tried hard to keep my guards up, to not let him hit me. 

But he did. 

Each word was sincere, and I knew it. He did cheat, and he did... have sex with Aliseras twice, which I find funny because him and I only had sex once- but I also find it... irritable. 

What gave him the right to do that?

What gave me the right to let him back in? 

I told him that if he really means it then he better be the person I last see when I fall asleep, and the first I awake to... He was there, in bed with me. From night to day, and I could not help but feel the love again, he told me yesterday that he loves me. 

Maybe I am a fool for letting him back in, perhaps I am a fool for letting a cheater in, but who am I to judge? I have made a married man love me before, a married man kiss me and hold me before; I am no different. 

...There was this Tauren that stood there and made jokes about us, I tried to ignore him as much as I could, but what I learned of the giant cow was that he was not holy at all. 

Yours Truly,