#justintrusivethings

negatively deliberating on the passage of time. tiring

fixating on your hypothetical reaction to deaths

when you get an old intrusive thought re-emerge at 15 in your girlfriend’s house and fake being sick because you had to go throw up in her bathroom to “get rid of it”

hating sitting in the lunch hall because i could smell everyone’s food mixed together

not being able to eat the parts of my food i had touched directly, leading me to hold on to the very edges of my crust and nibble because i was hungry and wanted to eat my whole sandwich if possible

not being able to eat a sandwich that had been squished after sitting wrong in my lunchbag because it made it taste different

seriously considering whether you‘re fundamentally flawed/a bad or evil person at 9 years old because you think mean things about the people you love that you can’t control

having intrusive thoughts about whether you’d care if a pet died/went missing and then them actually going missing right after - traumatic for several reasons