It was hard, yet she tried
She fought even though she was tired.
She wanted to give up but she knew she couldn't.
She wanted to be seen,
To be cared for,
To be loved.
But there was never a day she felt like it.
She felt like a clown,
Pretending to be okay,
Always smiling and laughing.
But deep down, she was already in pieces.
She tried to fix herself.
She failed to do so.
She asked for help,
She was ignored.
She wanted to be seen,
To be cared for,
To be loved.
But there was never a day that it happened.
She hoped.
She waited.
Seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, decades.
But it never came.
She wondered,
But it hurts.
She tried to heal,
But the pain came back.
She felt like the pain was her friend,
Always there,
Always watching.
She wanted a friend,
But they left her.
Only pain stayed,
As always.
She wanted to be seen,
To be cared for,
To be loved.
But it never came.
But will it come once she's gone?
She thought,
Carefully and slowly.
She made a decision.
She did it....
She only wanted to be seen...
To be cared for...
To be loved...
But it really never came...
Not even the day she disappeared...
She woke up.
Feeling nostalgic.
She felt unreal.
She stared at the mirror,
Wondered why was she still alive.
Then, it really came true...
But it still never came...
It never did...
