#juliebaker

Dear diary,

We had a surprise! I'm pregnant again! I didn't expected to have another baby since I'm already forthy years old but it happend and we are thrilled. Baby #14 is on the way!

Ofcourse we wanted to tell all our childeren they where going to have another little brother or sister. We invited them all over for deserts and told them. (AN: ofcourse Jadyn and Jedidiah wheren't invited, because Jadyn left home without her parents knowing and Jedidiah had to leave because he has a relationship with a man)

They where all thrilled with another little brother or sister. They didn't expected me to become pregnant again but where all hoping it. My sweet childeren, I love them so much. I especially loved seeing Bobby with Joseph talking, father and eldest son, such a special relationship. Bobby had to wait a bit before he had a son. We first got two daughters.

Part 2

From left to right, up to down: Bobby, Evy, Jedidiah, Jenelle, Jackson, Julie, Jocelyne, Jonathan, Jessica.

I'm really bad at this but this is what I think:

Jedidiah has Evy's hair and faceshape

Jenelle has Evy's hair and Bobby's faceshape

Jackson has Evy's hair and faceshape

Julie has Bobby's hair and faceshape (and the only one with his skintone)

Jocelyne has Bobby's hair and Evy's faceshape

Jonathan has Bobby's hair and faceshape (the son that looks the most like Bobby)

Jessica has Bobby's hair and faceshape

Dear diary,

We recently had a sitdown with one of our daughters, Jadyn. She has been a bit rebelious from time to time and we figured there was something on her mind where she wanted our counseling. The truth was devastating. She is pregnant! She is not married, the father wanted to marry her at first but now he doesn't anymore. I didn't know what to do. Bobby took the lead, my sweetest husband who always knows what to do. He arrenged that she could stay at home but kept out of the eye of those around us. We wouldn't want anyone to know one of our daughters got pregnant out of wedlock. Jadyn was very rebelious about it all. She didn't want to be 'locked up' as she called it. It's still stressing me out a lot and that while I'm pregnant too. We are due around the same time. I told Bobby that we could say to people we are expecting twins. Bobby thought that was the best thing to do.

In the meantime, I stumbled on such a beautiful moment of two of my other daughters, Joelle and Julie. Joelle was teaching Julie some new words. So sweet and it filled my heart with joy. In tought times like those now with our daughter Jadyn moments like these are so important to me.

Dear diary,

My daugther Julie is a married woman. I'm so happy for her but I'm missing her very much around the house. (AN: the cleaning and cooking she did). The wedding was a wonderful ceremony. Julie picked Jenelle and Jocelyne to be her flower girls, so sweet.

The love between Julie and Omar was so precious to see when they said their vows to eachother. I just love that part of any wedding, especialy those of my daughters.

We also celebrated thanksgiving. We had a few of the older childeren with their spouses over and it was a blast having the house filled with childeren and love.

I made diner for the whole bunch and then everybody sat down at the table to enjoy some sweet fellowship. Jenelle was so sweet to clean up afterwards and do the dishes.

Love, Evy

Dear diary,

The problem of my son Jedidiah laid very heavy on my heart when I finaly told Bobby. He had to know and handle the situation. Bobby was shocked and furious. How could his son have feelings for another man! I totaly understood him, I was shocked by the fact myself.

After discussings with our pastor and the elder man of our church we decided that he would go into therapie with the pastor. But when we discussed the matter with Jedidiah he didn't want to do anything like that. He wanted to continue the relationship with that man. We strongly advised him (AN: pushed him!) to do the therapie but Jedidiah insisted that he didn't want to do that. Bobby had no choices left but to point him to the door. He was no longer welcome in our home as long as he pursed his relationship with that man or any other man. Jedidiah packed his belongings and left. I don't know where. I'm deeply saddened with everything that has happend. I feel like I keep losing my childeren one by one. First James kissing before marriage, then Jadyn pregnant out of wedlock and now Jedidiah having a relationship with a man. Am I a good mother? I surely am not with this happening to my childeren. I just have to point my other childeren even stronger to Christ.

We celebrated Julie's birthday but I was a bit distracted with everything going on with Jedidiah. Julie didn't mind at all, she was shocked herself by her older brother. Julie is the sweetest person ever, such an angel. She is always caring for everyone around her and loves to cook for the whole family. I'm grateful to have her around during this time.

My son Jackson on the other side isn't showing a lot of good behaviour. He was making a mess all over the terras. My joker was joking around again and he needs to know that he is getting to old for this.

Julie Baker for US Vogue February 2001.