#jedidiahbaker

Dear diary,

It has been a long time. First, my brother Jedidiah got married to his fiance Anthony. Emma was flower girl, so cute!

Then Juls was inspired and wend down on one knee for me! Ofcourse I said yes. He is the one!

We went to a festival together in the neighborhood of Nicole. Ofcourse she joined us at the festival. I loved seeing her again.

And then we already had my weddingday. It was lovely. Nicole was there and Jedidiah&Anthony but my parents and brothers and sisters didn't attend. It's sad but I'm glad I have Jedidiah there.

We didn't wait long to start trying for a baby. Emma is already eleven years old. And we had luck our first try! We really had luck because it turned out to be twins! Two little boys, Judah and Martin Que. We are just trying to get back in to a routine with our two boys.

Love, Jadyn

Part 2

From left to right, up to down: Bobby, Evy, Jedidiah, Jenelle, Jackson, Julie, Jocelyne, Jonathan, Jessica.

I'm really bad at this but this is what I think:

Jedidiah has Evy's hair and faceshape

Jenelle has Evy's hair and Bobby's faceshape

Jackson has Evy's hair and faceshape

Julie has Bobby's hair and faceshape (and the only one with his skintone)

Jocelyne has Bobby's hair and Evy's faceshape

Jonathan has Bobby's hair and faceshape (the son that looks the most like Bobby)

Jessica has Bobby's hair and faceshape

Dear diary,

The problem of my son Jedidiah laid very heavy on my heart when I finaly told Bobby. He had to know and handle the situation. Bobby was shocked and furious. How could his son have feelings for another man! I totaly understood him, I was shocked by the fact myself.

After discussings with our pastor and the elder man of our church we decided that he would go into therapie with the pastor. But when we discussed the matter with Jedidiah he didn't want to do anything like that. He wanted to continue the relationship with that man. We strongly advised him (AN: pushed him!) to do the therapie but Jedidiah insisted that he didn't want to do that. Bobby had no choices left but to point him to the door. He was no longer welcome in our home as long as he pursed his relationship with that man or any other man. Jedidiah packed his belongings and left. I don't know where. I'm deeply saddened with everything that has happend. I feel like I keep losing my childeren one by one. First James kissing before marriage, then Jadyn pregnant out of wedlock and now Jedidiah having a relationship with a man. Am I a good mother? I surely am not with this happening to my childeren. I just have to point my other childeren even stronger to Christ.

We celebrated Julie's birthday but I was a bit distracted with everything going on with Jedidiah. Julie didn't mind at all, she was shocked herself by her older brother. Julie is the sweetest person ever, such an angel. She is always caring for everyone around her and loves to cook for the whole family. I'm grateful to have her around during this time.

My son Jackson on the other side isn't showing a lot of good behaviour. He was making a mess all over the terras. My joker was joking around again and he needs to know that he is getting to old for this.

(from Jedidiah Baker's perspective)

Dear diary,

When I told my mother about Anthony I figured something would happen. She was very quiet when I told her. But then she told my father everything and he was furious. He yelled at me and was set on putting me in therapie with our pastor. Ofcourse I didn't want that. They where going to deny me from having a relationship with Anthony. No, I wasn't going to do therapie.

Ofcourse my father didn't like that. He yelled even more, invited the pastor over and had me talk to the elder man from church. They all tried to convice me that therapie was the best thing. They all wanted to pray for me all the time that my feelings for Anthony would go away.

When I over and over again refused to get into therapie with the pastor my father send me away. He just yelled at me that it was living at home and therapie or that I should get my ass out of the house, right now. I was scared. Where would I go? I went upstairs, packed my clothes and left. I even couldn't take the violin with me. How was I supposed to work without my violin.

I went straight to Anthony and told him everything that happend, crying. He put his arms around me and hugged me tight. I was safe with him. He took my bag with clothes and walked upstairs to his bedroom. He made space for me in his closet. I was still full of tears but also a strange peace came over me. Everything would be alright.

We shared his bed that night but only kissed. It felt to early to go further then that. Anthony was so sweet. I love him dearly and wouldn't let anyone take our love away.

Love, Jedidiah

(AN: this was hard to write)

Dear diary,

I have been shocked. Deeply and greatly shocked by news Jedidiah shared with me recently. I still have trouble believing what he told me and I don't know how to tell Bobby this.

I have always had a special bond with my sons Jedidiah. From a young age I noticed he was different from his older brothers. He didn't like playing outside or doing other boy stuff. He was very sensitive and wanted to play with the girls all the time. I told him over and over again to go play outside. I should have seen something was wrong back then.

In his teenage years he was the sweetest boy who never did anything wrong. He still prefered girls over boys but I figured it was normal for a boy to have an interest in girls during this time. I was just waiting for news about a girl he wanted to court.

When he became an adult it was only natural that he would try to be a professinal violinist, he is such a good violin player. I was so proud of my boy.

All the signs where there but I never put them together and saw the whole. And now he has a relationship with a guy! Our old neighbor. He lived across the street in our old home. His name is Anthony Guterres. He and Jedidiah have been in a relationship for about a year. I just can't believe it. My precious boy.

I haven't told Bobby yet. I'm trying to think about what we could do. Ofcourse we need to get him in therapie with our pastor. I'll be praying a lot for my son. I know I have to tell Bobby, he is the headship of the family, he decides what we will do. But how do I tell him...?