#jncnicole

Hey, I remember that PDC hat and I remember pinning your message about it on the Discord! That made me smile.

There are way too many people that feel like this. Trust me, you’re not alone. I, too, have no fucking clue what I’m going to do with Sup Guy plush I bought ages ago. I certainly can’t sell it at this point!

But, yeah, let’s get serious. I think the part I relate to the most is the fear of having been a potential victim. In general, I will always advice young people on the internet to protect themselves and their information at all costs. And, actually, this is something I don’t think I’ve mentioned on this blog... but before I made this, I used to have a separate Tumblr blog in which I would post constantly to the Cryaotic/cryblr tags. I ended up leaving that blog because I had my own Cry that was starting to encroach on my life ever since I was 13 and they were 21. 

Felix and Cry were literally my escape from that situation. In 2012, I was 16. And posting in the tags. And Cry had replied to me on multiple occasions. 

I screencapped all the times that Cry replied to me on Tumblr. It was at least fifteen times. (Before people start freaking out, he never reached out to me privately. I didn’t get fully involved with the fandom until I made this blog, honestly.)

I don’t remember Cry being flirty with me, but I absolutely do not have the stomach to read his replies again because it genuinely terrifies me. Something that I used to think was an honor is now a living nightmare.    

Even though our collective memories of our time in this space are tainted, I do still look back at certain things with fondness. Like that PDC hat. At the end of the day, the best memories we can leave here with are the ones where we spent it with amazing fandom members, so I think that’s what I’m going to put my energy into from now on. I invite others to do the same.

This is the horniest episode we have ever gotten and I’m just happy to be alive and around for it because I can still feel the chaotic vibe in the fandom and on Ryan. Like............... just that instastory Mari gave us earlier today??? I can’t. I cannot. HOW. WHY.

ME TOO. I THOUGHT WHAT SHE DID WAS HORRIBLE, AND THE FACT THAT NOBODY IS ADDRESSING IT IS AGGRAVATING. IN THIS ESSAY I WILL—

Honestly, I didn’t care for Dani this episode b/c of how she treated Malcolm (who did nothing wrong) the entire time. 

Hi Lovely!