#jfc why

I got half an idea. I went with at least 5 times more of an idea and already I am feeling many regrets. At least 20 of them.

just started watching kdrama again for lee young ae, her new show is called maestra: strings of truth but then I realised why I have stopped watching kdrama that often "claimed" to have a woman as main character

The way so many of Buck’s traumas are connected to the firetrucks he’s constantly around at work. He got crushed by a ladder truck, managed to get himself and Christopher to the top of a truck during the tsunami, crawled under yet another firetruck to save Eddie when he was shot before carrying Eddie into the cabin of that firetruck, was struck by lightning on the top of the ladder. First of all: if his new trauma with whatever happens during the season finale involves the ambulance instead, that’ll be literally every combination of vehicles used by the LAFD since the captain’s truck was what he used to drive himself and Eddie to Charlie’s apartment before the shooting. And yeah, obviously his traumas are going to be connected to firefighting equipment and vehicles, he is a firefighter after all. But the variety of traumas he’s experienced is horrifying when you imagine what he probably goes through trying to recover emotionally from the trauma. He might repeatedly re-traumatize himself because he doesn’t want to be anything but a firefighter, even after learning a little more about how he’s not expendable and shouldn’t consider himself as such. I’ve read so many fics out there that include the trauma of these events being intrinsically connected to his work as a firefighter. Basically, including his reactions to the first time he has to clean the bottom side of the ladder truck after the bombing, or the first time he goes up the ladder after being struck by lighting. And everyone (fandom-wise) was so shocked when he literally rolled under the firetruck to get to Eddie during the shooting. Now, I’m not sure if it’s a case of not everyone is traumatized the way I’m laying out here, the writers refuse to write an arc like that, or we’ll see the trauma drawn out in a different way that’s not connected to the firefighting vehicles (like we typically have in the past), but whatever the reason for the lack of trauma on the job, I know the fic writers have got us all well in hand.

someone in the server is talking about drinking piss and getting pissed on.